#desdeotromar

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if jamie were with me right now, we’d be putting on our shoes to get mcdonalds

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desdeotromar replied to your photoset:So these weekend is 20% off for employees. ...

idk which to put back (sorry!) but i really like the one in the middle

I like that one one too. ^_^

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mysocalledgender answered your question “A long time ago I decided I would never write a “trans woman memoir”...”

I've kinda almost done this a few times. No idea how it would sell but worth throwing together and putting out through Smashwords or something at least. :)

Yeah that was my thought as well.  I mean I have pages and pages of blog posts vaguely chronicling the past eight years of my life might as well do something with them.

desdeotromar answered your question “A long time ago I decided I would never write a “trans woman memoir”...”

This is a great idea! You could mix some of the story fragments you've posted before. I can help you edit/put things together if you want.

Definitely going to work in some of my older story fragments.  In ‘09, for instance, I started a daily story written one hundred words at a time.  I made it to part 18 (week three) and realized I wanted to rewrite the whole thing but never did.  I’m torn between interweaving those posts or combining them.  I’ll let you know when I have a first draft.

paintedin replied to your post “A long time ago I decided I would never write a “trans woman memoir”...”

That sounds pretty cool actually. I like it.

Thanks.

So I’ve started going through my old Livejournal, Blogger, and old posts here.  I found a post I made in Jan 2012 about not wanting to write a “transition book”, as I put it back, then for basically the same reasons I listed yesterday.

One thing I didn’t expect from rereading my old posts is that I can kind of chart my depression through the years.

I’m wondering if these posts I’m making about making this book should be part of the book.

Hello, future book readers.

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desdeotromar replied to your post: katblaque Does that reblog from...

Ii’m surprised she didn’t critique that post. It’s clearly gross and full of transmisogyny - the rad fem OP even intentionally misgenders and deadnames Caitlyn Jenner, so maybe that speaks for itself.

Right? To me, it plain sounds “and while I’m at it, a man is a man and a woman is a woman...” I know Kat Blaque has gotten a lot of hateful and horrible messages and replies lately, so perhaps now she’s just putting their trapos al sol instead. (?) 

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desdeotromar replied to your post:jakeekiss replied to your post:desdeotromar...

there’s a lot to appreciate in Murakami’s books. for your post/specific concerns, i think reading “Hard-Boiled Wonderland…” might be helpful. “Kafka on the Shore” is also really worth a look and it has a decent trans guy character.

Thank you!

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desdeotromar replied to your post: I love to read science fiction but hat...

i think it can be a lot of fun to let go of logic/science and try creating your own sort of system that explains how things work. i feel like Murakami and Steven King do this a lot - they really mix up fantasy and sci-fi and myths

I'm not familiar with Murakami.  Can you recommend something?

I definitely feel blending fantasy and science can lead to awesome stories.  I tend to err on the side fantasy more often just because it's easier for me to let go of logic if I've already said there  is magic in the world.

jakeekiss replied to your post: I love to read science fiction but hat...

When I do sci-fi my rule is I do just enough research to know what I’m deliberately going to ignore because it’s too complicated (or bad drama). Also, when possible, I just refuse to divulge specifics. “Did you factor in Jupiter?” “I did.” “Good”

I try to avoid research cause I end feeling constrained too much by what I know is possible.  When I was writing earlier, I just needed to know how big an earth killer would be and I stopped myself around the time I started looking for gravitational assist simulators.  I've had a few hours, at work, away from a computer to work out what I needed to keep in mind and what to discard.

Jupiter wasn't even going to figure into the story until my research pointed it out.  Now it's going to be in a minor bit of technobabble.

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desdeotromar replied to your post:Saw my parents yesterday

:( i hope you’re feeling better today

I feel a little better.  Mostly cause I was dreading seeing my parents after choosing to not call them on Christmas but, while it did upset me, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Thank you.

fullyarticulatedgoldskeleton replied to your post:Saw my parents yesterday

I’m sorry. :c

Thank you.

sylerwind replied to your post:Saw my parents yesterday

I’m so sorry. *hugs* <3

*hugs back* thanks.

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desdeotromar replied to your post “transition”

thanks for writing this, i see so much of myself and my family here - i also have that feeling of not fully grasping how much has changed or how much i've woken up to who i really am and what i need from others

desdeotromar thank you for reading it, i really appreciate it. i've been wanting to read more of your writing soon!

yeah, thats pretty huge, i mean...... its something that i'm conscious of in a very different way than usual. and yeah, most of the time i'm not conscious of it. and i only realize i've come so far when i see myself in the mirror and realize that i might kinda sort be ok with what i see...... or when i ask the random cashier girl at work, who i've only talked to a few times, if i look like a girl. 

i'm literally on the verge of coming out to the coworkers i work closely with, from my department. i don't really care what their response will be, i don't really feel like i need them to know, it's just there's no reason not to, its not that big a deal....... which is like, huge. when i got hired 8 months ago, i was too scared to wear ANYTHING other than very obviously male, formal clothing much less hint at being even remotely queer.

thinking back any farther than 8 months or  2 years....... i can't remember who i used to be, i don't really believe that person existed. 

yeah i could write a lot about transition.