#desgarrcn

[miragefactory]

❛ sorry, i’m poor. i can’t afford to pay attention ❜ / tousen !

@desgarrcn

“You do not need to advertise your lack of any accomplishments, Sexta. They are written all over your face without the need for you to speak.”

[aimcs]

hc + fear / renji !

hc questions ! ☆  @desgarrcn​  ☆ always accepting !

        – HC. fear is something that comes like SECOND NATURE to him. 

        – HE’S naturally in tune with his feelings, to a level that he wishes he’d be less empathetic, less sensitive. because really, there are a great many things he fears– & it’s largely because of that fear, that he holds so many regrets, that he thinks of himself as such a COWARD.

        – HE fears losing rukia, fears getting in her way, fears making her unhappy, when being happy is all she deserves to be. it’s that very fear that only helped to widen the distance between the two for so many years. sure, he’d tell himself that he was doing the right thing, that getting stronger, was the right path– when it really wasn’t. when in reality he was just afraid that if he’d approach her then & there, they’d never be able to go back to how they were. for 40 years he’d preferred to live with the ILLUSION that he’d get her back if he just grew in ranks, than speak with her once more, tell her what he really thinks & chance destroying any chances of talking with her again.

        – BEFORE he met ichigo, he’d feared losing. it’s why when he became byakuya’s lieutenant, he could do nothing more than to tread behind him. for the longest of times, he’d wanted to surpass him, but the fear of not being good enough, of knowing that the other was stronger & that he had no chance against him, stopped him from even TRYING to do so. that fear chained him down, stopped him from moving forward– he’d grown to a certain level & then, even unconsciously, hadn’t been able to bring himself to keep going. he’d always run away, push on his responsibilities to someone else– seen where, even though he tries to fight the system when rukia’s set to be executed, doesn’t have it in him to completely disobey, pushing the burden to ichigo ( ‘cause he ? renji didn’t know whether ichigo himself was scared or not, but at least HE acted on his words, compared to himself ).

        – EVEN after then, during the whole arrancar arc, & even at the beginning of the war, subconsciously he was still fearful of various things. though there were other reasons, of course, as to why zabimaru hadn’t given him the key to their bankai– the fear, the subconscious knowledge that he was WEAK & could never grow at the same speed ichigo could, had stopped him from growing any stronger. somewhere deep inside he’s always belittling himself

        – FEAR is something that comes as naturally to him as breathing. even now, he can’t rid himself of it, & the despair that it brings. but now, compared to before, he’s able to find the strength to move forward. ‘cause if he can’t get rid of it, then he might as well find a way to coexist, to live alongside it– he knows he can’t let it chain him down for the rest of his life. he knows he’ll never be able to surpass it, so he’s learned to ADAPT.

[gamuzaa]

@desgarrcn

   ‘not everything has to be an argument, grimmjow.’ her voice was soft, yet stern. it wasn’t uncommon for a simple discussion between the two arrancars to get.. well ━ escalated. it doesn’t take much to get the sexta started, and nelliel can admit her own attitude may trigger some of these arguments heated discussions. ‘you need to control your temper, regardless of how hard it seems to be for you.’ but it certainly wasn’t her fault this time.  

[gamuzaa]

❛ kindness won’t save anyone. ❜

‘says the one who is only alive today because of another man’s act of kindness, and mercy..’ oh, these were the times where she truly wanted to smack some sense into him.

[aimcs]

“That sounds like a bad idea. I’m in.” / abirama !

non romantic fluff ! ! ☆  @desgarrcn​  ☆ selectively accepting !

        grin widens, the prospect of being able to go through with said plan was more than enough to bring to bring his spirits up.  it was rare enough that the fraccion bothered to spare time for any espada that WASN’T baraggan-- especially more so one that claimed himself to be KING ( the audacity to speak of a title that clearly doesn’t belong to him-- had it been any other day, he’d give the espada a piece of his mind ). but then again, exceptions could be made, once in a while. knuckle makes contact with his palm, exclaiming a rather loud ❝ ALRIGHT ! ❞ at the sound of the other’s approval. ❝ let’s GO ! ❞

[viriliter-bellator]

❛ that makes no fucking sense . ❜

el meme | accepting

eye squinting as he heard his words, he was wondering what he was doing near of him: looking for a decent death? a deadly fight? if ichigo defeated him easily, why not him? that would be quite funny

❛ what makes no sense for ya?

long and coarse fingers reaching the hilt of his sword, making the blade poke his own shoulder innumerable times

❛ i’ll be gentle with ya. just slicing your flesh off, and some blood. that’d be fun

[acedeity]

desgarrcn replied to your post:

OKAY IMM FUCKIG SICKENNED

✩°.࿐                  ‘ that’s the way the mafia works. ’

[acedeity]

‘be honest; how awesome am i?’

from x┊@desgarrcn​​​ ◟˚.༄

✩°.࿐                  ‘ —— on a scale from one to capypas ? ’ yato certainly takes a moment to pretend to muse, finger tapping on his chin before he slyly sidles his gaze back over to his companion. ‘ donate five yen to see your results! ~ ☆ ’