okay but having a crush in your adulthood is so damn coool? that shit has me legit kicking my feet and giiggling and shit in the office. OFFICE.
like seriously i havent had a crush since first year of college. it feels like i am a teenager all over again excessively texting my best friend when my crush even simply looks at me by accident. and my best friend fueling itno my delulu claiming he's so into me.
but it's so fun and thrilling and exciting having a crush in your adulthood. adulthood is so serious and so boring and so is office you gotta be so polite and formal. and adulthood is just overthinking things and being polite and not taking space and not being too much where as being kid was all about taking place. going to yoru best friends house cause you can. living there. having your heart on your sleeve. loving eveyrbody and everything. the innocence of it all. the firsts. it was so cool and exciting.
and thats exactly why having a crush on someone literally after eyars feels so exciting. its like the inner kid in me has came alive. i act so foolish and awkward around that guy. i barely speak a word to him. overthink all our tiny conversations. discuss and debate it with my best friend. it's literally so fun.
and, and , and the best part is he keeps his inner kid alive too. he paints his nails. he does stupid things at work too. he incorporated a hindi song on a global brands pitch cause why not. and he does this cute little 'khikhikhi' thing when hes overcome with joy. and it's so fun to watch a person with his soul actually alive and not dead and stuck ina boring routine.