#despairgundam

[equz]

despairgundam replied to your post “does anyone know/remember/use that one photoshop plugin for reference...”

is it pureref?

yeah i think so! tyvm!

[avpddirks]

despairgundam replied to your post: non-anxiety riddled musical friends how do you...

if you have a big closet with clothes in it, that can muffle noise enough so it wouldnt be That Loud! if you have a basement thats even better, also seconding background noise. mynoise has some good ones that are also noise blockers

ohhh thank u!! these are super useful i will keep these in mind!!

[gayelectro]

for the trans ask meme !! 1, 34 , 14 !!

1. How did you choose your name? 

Choosing my name was a very long and weird process. Basically, when I was younger, like freshman in highschool, I had a lot of masculine names that I would “try on”? But they never really stuck, since I was too scared to actually ever ask anyone to start calling me these names. (Probably turned out for the best, none of them really suited me. I went through a lot-- Jack, Bruce, Bruno... Nothing that really felt right?)

Eventually I realized that I did want to change my name, because I utterly loathed the feminine connotations of my deadname. But I still didn’t know what to change it to. I liked my deadname (back then I did, at least, now I’m 1000% sure I want it gone) due to its uniqueness, so I struggled to find something that felt me while still feeling different. So, I settled for just shortening it, cutting off the end of my name which kept giving me away. 

I was finally brave enough to start asking people to call me that exclusively. I started introducing myself as that. Went by that online completely and even went back and erased my deadname from the things I could. The more and more support I got and the more people called me that, it felt right! 

Eventually though, I did start getting nervous. “Bridge” is a very uncommon name. It’s an object. A road. So I started to search again for a name I thought people would take more seriously. Maybe Brendan? Maybe Bainbridge? But as I talked it out with my girlfriend, she said something that finally made me realize that this was really the name for me. She said that I was the Bridge that brought people together and suddenly... I just knew? That this what right for me, and to hell with what anyone thought of it. 

Meanwhile, the middle name was a much easier process. I was a freshman in college when I realized that I didn’t even know how to spell my dead-middle-name. So I was like, “huh, might as well get a new one”. My other partner Kai helped me pick it out, and I added a silent “x” on the end to be extra like that. Now I’m Bridge Rousseaux! 

34. What advice would you give to other trans people, or what message would you like to share with them?

God, the best advice I can give is take care of yourself. Don’t hurt yourself trying to feel better, like my dumbass who’s got rib damage from binding so badly. Try your best to surround yourself with people who unconditionally love and support you. I never would’ve been able to make it through my worst times without the support of my trans friends, especially @champash. Don’t listen to truscum because their ideology is harmful and really only serves to kiss up to cis folk. Love yourself as best you can and know that there is ALWAYS a future where you can be happy and live as YOU. 

14. How long have you been out?

Oh fuuuuuuuuuuck, that’s a good question? Honestly, uh... I know I had been on Tumblr for about a year. That puts it... Somewhere between the end of middle school and the beginning of highschool? And for a long time I knew I was agender, but I didn’t figure out my pronouns until I was like a junior. (Plus literally no one except for @champash and people online actually respected my pronouns, so that sucked a lot.) Once I got into college, I started demanding respect out of people more, and it helped a lot. But I dunno which part really gets counted as “out”? Since I came out several times and only during college did anyone actually respect that besides my friends. 

[equz]

despairgundam replied to your post “I ACCIDENTALLY KILLED TAPU KOKO afdskj”

YEAH if u just beat the elite 4 it's #confirmed that you'll be able to catch it another time! i think you just gotta go back to the ruins

sorry id din’t see this earlier but but then i gotta beat the elite 4 again.............. 

[vide0n4sty]

your aesthetic is like. that Feel u get after you go to a rly good concert with yr pals and it's night and everyone's bundled up in leather/denim jackets ripped jeans and fingerless gloves, theres neon signs as you and yr pals try to find a place to get some good food and are also probably still singing the last song of the night, no matter how off key bc everyone is having Fun !!!

AAA THE DREAM LIFE!! 

[aaragakis]

for the no audio on audio posts issue, i use the vanilla audio player extension on xkit and it's worked like 99% of the time! no idea about anything else though rip

alright I’ll try that out!

also it seems that if I reblog from mobile the posts stay intact but when I do it from my laptop that when they don’t work so at least I kind of found a solution for it

thank you!

[equz]

despairgundam replied to your post “dudess whats that meme thats like an old class photoish thing and a...”

https://twitter.com/gublernation/status/511291224666279937 there's more if you search his name + red sweater !!

ty thats who i was looking 4!!!!!!!

[betagundam]

(o^^o)♪ °˖ ✧◝(○ ヮ ○)◜✧˖ °

@despairgundam

Thank you !!!!! (Note this is bad because im gushing lol)

(Special interest; Gundam Tanaka)

(o^^o)♪- name 5 things you love about your special interest!

OK SO there’s so much I love about him ??? However I struggle to word them BUT ILL TR y um -

。He’s really cute in so many ways lol despite how dark he is and I could say but I think that can come up next-

。His talent greatly contrasts his look and personality but also fits really well !!

。He carries for hammies around and calls them gods ok like ??? Precious?? I love the dark gods like my own children and we get to see them he’s so ? Happy with them tho ,,

。He has a much softer side to him under his dark looks and is pretty sincere , but he has a very curious nature to him as well and like, he surprises you a lot too like how he dislikes fiction despite his whole look is almost fictitious itself in him!!

。He cares a lot about people and life. He’s so genuine in this too, he’s so sensitive and how he acts is amazing and I can’t form words lmao Ahhh,,

°˖ ✧◝(○ ヮ ○)◜✧˖ °- infodump about one of your special interests!

AAAAA OK LIKE I SAID WITH HIM BEING CUTE he’s an honest cutie pie ok for one just look at him look at his hammies ok like ,, that one Sprite where they’re in his hands and he’s smiling on that’s??? Precious ok amazing 10/10 - he’s incredibly relatable to me as well and I feel I understand him on such a level to the point of our fucking throughly processes are so similar ?! Like really

How he behaves though he does a lot of cute stuff like this one scene in island mode tanaka gives hajime a book to read , an animal encyclopaedia!! Before hajime gives any thoughts or reads it tanaka immediately offers to go and get more books if he wants and ok he’s just he’s an excited boy and he’s so genuine about animals - you can tell how happy they make him and how excited he is about sharing his passions and the best thing is is why he’s so excited !!!!

Ok animals and reading about them make him happy , he considers this one of the best times you can have aside being with them, he’s passionate as fuck ok and like he just wants to share this !! Like this is what makes HIM happy so sharing it must make others happy too right ?? So he wants to like make other people happy the same way it makes him-

And man that’s fucking precious to me and so relatable too ok SAVE ME