RESPONSE TO PAIN & SUFFERING !!!
Actually no, response to difference is a better answer.
Decision made. After not being able to make decisions after being honest with what was wrong with the events happening in front of my eyes (adults ignoring kids self-harming & hurting others), the word indifference has a whole new meaning since it was the EASE in which “good” people were able to just believe whatever they wanted to in order to continue & think in ways that are clearly wrong.
Purpose : Support survivor/victims to make the choice to share their experience with being treated lower, subhuman, worse off, less than and all the names we’ve been called. If I’m accountable for my choices then the standard should be there for others, too.
This started out as a WAY to get out thoughts & AUTHENTIC REACTIONS of those who claim to know empathy, but if asked to venture into the very first layer of care it’s amazing how fast they disappear in THIS atmosphere--poof--what’s going on in their hearts & heads?
Do you really want to know? They’d rather you be dead! It’s true! Better you than THem so they devise ways to scheme, their dreams become bigger & then they’re STUCK THERE (oh no! Really messed up their lives, right?) so they learn what they can do & reDO & reDO.
Then I learned to complete these missions, they need help so ask WHO VOUCHES for you?
ptsd trigger : related to treatment in repeated settings : matched by words behind-the-scenes (said behind one’s back) & attitudes that shift with a changing opinion so everyone is :) and agrees.
e.g. “red flag” people who make fun of how someone looks knowing they’ve dealt with difficult medical issues
behavior is learned : behavior is reinforced : behavior is mimicked
when someone sees a result they want to recreate, they can create the story to fit THE REACTION they want to achieve - why!?
people who feel entitled to be treated a certain way & the treatment that created this sense of entitlement
not stopping (offering help) or stepping in in even though identified issues of others (e.g. anxiety or fear of failure) IOW discussed behind others backs : that is an important theme WHEN someone changes their feelings/emotions/”hurts” instantly. If able to “get over” than why didn’t do that? PTSdone & why I can stop until the next time (& if it’s a memory that is too frequent, too severe & too intense than it gets its VALIDATION since returning the original shame, fear, guilt, anger & other negative emotions back to ITS creator, that is what the survivor/victim (s/v) deserves.
Who is that ONE person in your world that MATTERS the most? If it’s because of secrets & half-truths told to provide VALIDATION & continue past frustrations perhaps you can learn to STOP nOW : physical assaults have taught me THE BODY IS super fragile, but also resilient & capable of adaptation & evolution when its survival is in peril. I refuse to be treated like a TOY, PAWN, TOOL or piece of sh## from those who TRIED to redefine who I AM, who my family is & what it means to be American in repeated acts of indifference, ignorance & arrogance.
When someone is this combo of IAI (Intelligent Artificial Intelligence) it creates a very scary combination & in some cases we call this “gifted.” Very smart in a book way & will be successful in life, but will not succeed socially & has learned other strategies to never be blamed or held accountable.
This is about STIGMA, EVIL & research-based methodology & mythology that will erase falsities & catastrophic uses&abuses that lead to needles victimology.
INTRO : The foundation : contains purpose : to snuff out those who take advantage of others & the bystanders who are equally culpable.
This is the BASELINE for use of image to COVER-UP, kindly, personality flaws that relate to cycles of guilt/shame, fear of failure & of perfection & what to look for and which gut intuitions to zoom in on (for reasons that can help make better decisions & avoid unnecessary pitfalls or people)
The image is everything to HIDE the dysfunction & hurt feelings that allow blame to return to the original source. The issue is you’re not allowed to just roll it all up into “no one taught me...”
That FALL is not mine (this the sensations connected to tumbling endlessly until my neck snaps : origin physical injury but not the first place I recognized hypocrisy : so going back slowly, how lowly can some go? We’ll see if they can change, since the story never ends [it’s a metaphor for life] my friends, give life, less strife, choose love & fight thru the night to make all wrong right. To shift the playing field just a ‘lil so those with the most emotional might [have a chance]
My ultimate dream? : shut up & just dance | stop trying to hit on me & just enjoy the moment LIVE (that’s music & theater. That’s abilities to never let fear adhere when you <3 life. You choose to do it right. No videos, be there with that artist & you will never forget what an amazing world we have & hopefully we’ll all fight for true equality.
This notion of being taken care of on the tip of my tongue : I have to do this for the rest of my life & what everyone is rallying around...be a _____ be a _____ but first consider if you want that, right? Not sure what the issue is since laid out what I want in this life since that’s the respect you OWE to each other. It’s too hard, the FEAR of being stuck with a person who is truly a monster so you date, you go slow, you talk openly about what you still want to learn & know, you grow...together, so all my experience has led me to know myself very very well.
This was my shame? Can’t share it, how did they claim that pride? Oh right, they never did, it was just buried deep inside.
OK | entered another dimension, here. I’m not the crazy one. They are if they think what they did was OK
& this is where it starts...people want to say things & I GET IT. TECH is to connect & I’ve never wanted something so much before : this VOICE coming out of me, what is it for?
Not sure!? Except that I was told what I had to say was IMPORTANT & as long as I can back up what I say, then I have the right to spray since what I’m doing here today is SURVIVING : not since 02/25/2018. I’m living again & that means tracing it back to find that one true friend...