Oh hey.
Sometimes I want everyone who hasn't been to school to just be allowed to sit at a table, and have everyone they know that has been to school sit in front of them, and eat a turd.
You know, as friends.
Fuck you all and your vocabulary, that I have had to learn on my own in order to defend myself in the face of your know-it-all-ness.
What has it gotten me? NOTHING. I win arguments and still have to deal with your superiority.
Arguments I still lose.
I really do hate you. Actually and for real, I do. Read another book. I guess it's easier than listening to a person.
I just feel like Mink Stole in Desperate Living, when she spanks the children and exclaims, "IS THAT WHAT THEY TAUGHT YOU IN PRIVATE SCHOOL???"
Will you just admit that A) "Smart" can exist outside of the government-fronted financially supported institution of "school" and B) If you are boring someone you like you should change the subject or shut the fuck up???? If you can admit either of these things you're cool.
The next time I am hanging out with 5 or 6 people and I have to tolerate being regaled with SCHOOL TIME I am just going to start screaming "I FARTED!" until everyone makes me leave the party.
The last thing I remember: When I had to stop talking about what it's like to be trans, as a woman, so three stupid trans men could tell me what it's ACTUALLY like to be a trans woman. Why talk ever? Why follow rules about how I am supposed to talk when the people who made the rules don't even listen to me? Don't care!!!!!!!!!
I have been raging all day! I'm not really sorry, these feelings are real even if I'm wrong and I accept that.