@devilfleur : ❛ i want to kiss you and it kills me . ❜ 😳😳😳
this isn’t how the story is meant to go , is it ? you’ve read it before ----- it was never ‘ cinderella & her stepsister ’ ... cinderella’s stepsister never achieves the same happiness as her sister ; she is punished for her wickedness & jealousy with eternal blindness , eyes plucked out by birds . cinderella goes on to marry the prince & live happily ever after . that’s how the story goes .
but cinderella is gone ----- dead , because of you . so where does that leave you ? the story has to go on , doesn’t it ? once , you believed that it necessary that you , the wicked & ugly sister , become cinderella in her stead ----- live out the ending she deserved , finish the fairytale & see it to the end . you know better now . you are no cinderella , no kasumi , & you can never hope to be . but ... you can be sumire instead . she taught you that .
there is no prince charming to come to cinderella’s rescue in this iteration of the story , only you & n’diya , but you don’t find yourself minding at all . you’d rather it this way , in fact , with n’diya’s thumb brushing over your cheek , far more tender than you could ever hope to deserve , & the sting of her touch , her love . she is not perfect or even completely whole , a broken vase mended back together after being splintered apart into pieces of glass on the floor , time & time again , but ... neither are you . the two of you are two halves of a heart , fragmented & chipped at the edges , but a heart when pieced together nonetheless .
n’diya’s eyes bore into yours , & you find yourself entirely entranced by them ; honeypots of swirling crimson framed by dark lashes , & all at once you’re reminded of blood spattered on the walls & the dip of the sun beneath a golden sky . she’s a storm , a hurricane in the shape of a girl , & so , so beautiful .
you deserve to have your eyes gouged out between the sharp beaks of little white birds , to wander the earth in eternal agony , just as the wicked stepsisters did . no fairytale ever ends with the beautiful & kind cinderella sacrificing her life for her resentful sister . but ... that is how kasumi’s story ended , leaving you , sumire . her story is at its very last page , while yours is a blank canvas & you find yourself entirely unsure of what words to fill it .
n’diya’s hand is warm against your skin , & you find yourself leaning into her touch . i want to kiss you & it kills me , she whispers . please , please , please , you want her to kiss you . you don’t deserve it , but you’ve always been so selfish / you don’t deserve it , but you want her to kiss you & love you forever .
❛ t - then ... ❜ your voice wavers slightly , the trembling of a flame in the wind . hand twitches at your side , & you bring it to cup n’diya’s . you don’t deserve it , but you love her . & the crazy thing is ... she loves you back .
❛ why don’t you ? ❜
your story is only beginning , & you find yourself hoping you’ll have n’diya to write it alongside you .
╰ ♡. @devilfleur / to those we love .
