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❝ I watched the 5000th video about love addiction. Fuck, I love advice like "focus on yourself, find new hobbies, etc." AS IF THAT FUCKING HELPS 😂😂😂. It only helps to switch to another object of affection to continue this cycle of suffering, but with a different person. But even that's hard to do, because this person is just the center of your universe, like a drug without which you'll die, the Most Special One. You don't idealize them, you know their flaws, but you just suffocate without their attention (which they never give anyway). Fuck, there's just no fucking way out of this. All these psychologists are fucking useless, just talking shit, charging money for nothing, I hate them. Aahhh, your emotions are important, ohhh. Fuck off. I went to them so many times, not for a short period either, just empty talk, repeating the same shit over and over. And the funny thing is that I'd find another person to distract myself, not to be so obsessed, because I really wanted to kill myself. Did it help? Fuck no! I'd constantly think "I wish I had this kind of attention from someone else", but I don't appreciate what I have, it even annoys me. And all that. Yeah, I'm sure if this person became more distant, unavailable, there'd be some kind of distance, then I'd probably start suffering again. But I don't want this every time, why the fuck... They say it's all from childhood, like a cold mother or whatever. I say no, think about it properly, remember. Fuck no. I think it might go back to school days, I don't know? Like damn it, we live in society, it's not just family that has power over you, it affects you somehow. I'm afraid I'll always think about someone else when I'm with someone else. I'm not asking for a relationship, I just want to spend time together sometimes, have a bit of contact, (use me). It's just that you live your life, years go by, and your brain is like infected. the same cycle over and over, an endless cycle of pain and suffering. And I'm just scared to meet people, go on dates, because you get attached, and then it's just pain