LINER NOTES
BACK AT THE SUN - an expression about the reality of aging and the fear of not living up to my fullest potential while at the same time denying that my behaviors and circumstances are the cause of falling short.
ESPLANADE - a song about a middle aged woman who projects all her hope and passion for life onto a man. "Will you dance the esplanade when he comes back to you?" A realization as much as a question, it became clear that even if the event that took this man away hadn't happened, that passion to live "to dance" would probably not be there.
IN THE MUD - two lovers past that joyous and youthful explosion of the initial infatuation are faced with their first hardship. The first questions why everyone would applaud their love, a seemingly fated event, and equally feels lost by the "rules" that others have for love, so much so that it causes doubt about the love. The second attempts to ignore the new circumstances "she tries to keep her eyes off the pain" but she knows that the hardships are true as she's already spoken about them in relation to her definition of love. Too late to go back now, time to move forward and allow room for growth.
LULLABY - a simple love song for the setting sun of youth and a literal message and prayer to a world weary friend.
NOWHERE TO GO - "I've dreamt this presence for too many years." By 27 I was beginning to feel the weight of the perceived chaos of shackled fate as a truth I was denying for my entire life but could no longer look away from. Terrified of the possibility that we have no real choice in life, I lamented over the question of where do you go from this state of mind?
SUCH A FOOL - a heart feeling remorse for venturing back to old streets in a vain attempt to recapture a time long gone. The streets once were well lit, but the sun has long since set on this place and to go there now is to choose darkness over the light of the present.
UNDER BELLS AND BIRDS - the last of the songs recorded in this short collection felt like a rebirth guided by actual birds and church bells that happened to be echoing in the background as I recorded. The refrain comes back to the questions asked in "Nowhere to Go." "How do you deal with someone else behind the wheel?" Both a recognition of the lack of control perceived over my environment and an acceptance that the person I am now was not the person I was even a few moments ago. So, how do I deal with this new set of perceptions, this new persona behind the wheel? Almost 5 years later, I'm still searching for answers to that question, but maybe less so for a definitive answer, and more so with an excitement that a new answer will always arise.
DEWDROP MIND is a singer-songwriter cloaked in indigo child anonymity. He began recording songs on his laptop in the basement of the childhood home he boomeranged back to as a quasi post-grad far-in form of self-exploration and deprecation. Nearly a decade later dewdrop mind continues recording low-fi spontaneous introspections as audio memoirs. He currently lives, loves and writes in Venice Beach, California.