a realization about relationships I had this week is that I do know when to quit, but that process involves a little bit of “closure” if u wanna call it that
my closure involves a verbal explicit statement saying “I don’t want to be with you”
Im not the kind of person that drunk calls their ex at 2 am when they miss them
I miss people, I have emotions
But I never go back after my pride has been told no
However I also realized and experienced that I don’t do well with mixed signals, mixed goodbyes
It took me 2 months to get rid of a guy in my head
Why?
He just couldn’t say no
Even went as far as saying yes just to ghost me immediately after
Whats worse? Is that im not stupid
You see the signs and hints when someone doesn’t like you. I saw them, I still tried, and I’m glad I did because life is too silly and short to be scared of making an ass of yourself
I just wish he’d made it clearer you know?
It was as clear as water but in my mind that shit was muddy putrid water that I navigated while signs all around me read “Get out” “Do not swim in polluted waters”
Do I miss him? God no
There never was anything to miss
Right from the beginning I knew that
I just didn’t want to accept it