Diary003. Feb4. “Having a life” and what that means to me.
I was thinking recently about codependency and how one avoids becoming codependent. In order to not be co-dependent, you have to have your own life and do your own thing outside of the other person. So, what does that look like? What kinds of things are apart of my life and hobbies? What do I need to improve or work upon?My life / hobbies right now:
the internet: Reddit / YouTube commentary vids
My family: Hanging out with my mom and grandparents.
My friends: Occasionally hangout with best friend.... needs work
Art: paintings, resin, drawing
Reading: Novels, self-help books, reddit forums, internet articles
Videogames: AC...
What I imagine when I imagine "having a life":
Being active daily and going outside
Doing chores and being a person
Hanging out with friends and being social with people
Going out for activities or groups or clubs (wine painting? hiking? idk?)
Having a daily routine and being productive
NTS: Seriously lacking a cummulative overview of my previous days/weeks progress. How can I be inspired by myself if I never even look back at my accomplishments and know what I've done? Remember you need to do weekly/monthly overviews with habit tracking, etc.
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Okay, so say I want to imagine tomorrow and me “having a life”. What would an ideal day of me “having a life” look like if I executed it perfectly tomorrow?
-Get up, brush teeth, wash face
-Get dressed in cute clothes I feel comfortable going outside in
-Hangout with friends like I was supposed to
-Go on walk or jog
-Stretch before or after walk/jog
-Do something productive? Work related? Think? I dunno? This is the part I need help with...
DESPERATELY NEED A “SHIT I DID” JOURNAL TO JUST WRITE DOWN LITERALLY ANYTHING I DID DURING THE DAY WORTH NOTE
I’m also realizing it feels pretty difficult to have a life when you do everything alone. I keep imagining this one friend I have and his life and he’s just so active. He snowboards and drives around all the time and does stuff with his friends a lot. He can also afford to do all those things though and I guess I can’t. I don’t really have anyone to do anything with either. It’s whatever I guess. Hopefully I’ll make some new friends when I move?