Oct 27, 2016
Lo reparamos?
Porque quise reparar un corazón que yo no rompí y mirame ahora, ya no se si ese corazón es tuyo o mio de tanto pedazos mios que tiene.
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Lo reparamos?
Porque quise reparar un corazón que yo no rompí y mirame ahora, ya no se si ese corazón es tuyo o mio de tanto pedazos mios que tiene.
Pase las dos semanas mas bonitas que haya vivido, porque si algo es cierto esque puede que tu no me gustes tanto como me gusto yo cuando lo estoy a tu lado.
Day: Fuck it, i don't remember
my life is a constant cycle of: youtube, tumblr, youtube, tumblr (repeat). I need someone in my life to distract me. I wish I was someone else sometimes.
Day 04
Today I saw a puppy.
Today was a good day.
Day 02 cont'd
You know how people complain on facebook so that people respond and care? I have the intense feeling to do this right now, but I am not going to because I don't want people to think I'm an asshole who is reaching out for attention, but that's what I want now. All I want is someone to talk to and laugh with and play games and shit.
Day 02
I like how when I take a nap in my house. 9 out 0f 10 times I cannot get any actual sleep because I have to sleep with 1 eye open because I'm scared that my dad will come in and yell at me for being lazy. Most times I get woken up by him telling me to do stuff, then when I say I'll do it he's usually mad for some reason. I don't know. My dad is an enigma, but also amazing and awesome. One thing my dad does that angers me to no end is that he'll list off a bunch of things I have to do and then act like I was supposed to do them weeks ago. Like today he got mad at me for not mowing the lawn when I have no memory of him saying ANYTHING about it.
Today I worked with my dad and brother. The job we did was harder than any other we'd done prior. I'm still so tired from it. Tomorrow I have to go seal a crawlspace with my brother at 9 in the morning. yay... Then I have class at 6. yay... Sometimes I wish for someone else's life for even just a day. Maybe like some famous person just to know what it's like to be popular. I don't know.
Day 01 cont'd
Today was Father's Day. Happy Father's Day dad! We went out golfing and had hot dogs on the grill. My family (mother, father, brother) got intoxicated at the golf course which is fine, I don't give a shit. My problem with this is that they are loud and obnoxious and I had to drive home, not before going to the gas station to pick up another 12 pack for them. My mom thinks I'm gay for some reason. Maybe it's because I have been single for such a long time? I don't know. (nothing against gay people btw, I'm just not.) This whole diary thing is just me putting thoughts into words by the way. I don't expect anyone to see any of this let alone respond to it. I hope someone close to me sees this stuff. I don't know... I guess I'm just not socially mature enough to talk to my family about some of this stuff. I wish my grandpa was still here. I could talk to him forever about anything. Happy Grand Fathers Day to both my grandpas. I hope you guys have a great day where ever you are.
I ate a lot of bad food today. Some cake, a plate of fries, 3 hotdogs, and a bunch of soda. I love food, but I hate food. Oh yeah and that Monster I drank is keeping me up. I should've saved it for tomorrow. Does anyone care about any of this? Honestly, I just need to write down what I think about, because all of this solitude in my room is driving me crazy. I need to socialize, but the only people I know outside my family live on my Skype tab.
Day 01
Lately, I have been noticing that my friends I had are growing apart from me and I don't know how to cope with this. I have no real life friends that I can do stuff with. I have noticed also that I am slowly becoming a lonely chubby kid that spends his days on his computer at every chance, but the only reason I don't go out and "do stuff" is that all of my friends live on my computer. Now that that is starting to fade I don't know what I am going to do. I'm becoming very lonely and I want to meet people, but I am scared that I will either embarrass myself or make people think I'm weird. I also really want to meet a rad chick, but that is the LEAST likely thing to happen to me any time soon. Having a girlfriend would be great. How do I meet people btw? I have no idea what I'm doing. Hopefully, someone reaches out to me sometime soon. Going to bed now. Night world.