#diaryza

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It feels so weird but I know I'm on the right path. Ready to pursue all the most important things at this stage in my life. Saying hello to a more responsible me. 😊😊😊

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Been trying to fight all the negative thoughts. I guess this year is about self-discovery and learning more. There are instances where life shows to me how unfair life is. That in reality, people can succeed without having to sacrifice so much unlike the others. Worse, some people whom you thought you can depend on will have their own goal and do nothing to help...even when they have the ability. Things have changed, really.

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Now it's harder to leave my part-time job. My boss gave me CPA reviewers from Manila for free. Yes, for free. It's her birthday today but I was the one who received a gift. Few weeks ago, before she left for Manila, she was convincing me to stay. But I really have to leave to focus on my Pre-Review classes. I'm just so thankful to have a boss like Madam MaFe. :) I learned so much from her even for a short span of time. 

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IA

Now I know why IA are the last letters in JPIA. IA means Integrated Accounting...the last subject and last struggle of a JPIA student in Ateneo de Naga. Syempre hindi naman talaga yan ang meaning. All JPIANs know that. Oh well, kung ano-ano na naman naiisip ko. :)) 

Ang totoo nyan...kinakabahan lang ako masyado. Marami talagang magbabago eh. Kailangan mag-adjust eh. No choice naman.

I'll just surrender it to God. In His mercy. But I'll still keep in mind that I should do my part.

Daily reminder: To love (Integrated Accounting) even if it's inconvenient.

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I guess it's important to be with someone who doesn't just make you feel so loved but also someone who can give you peace of mind. Yes, it may not be just be on the other person's part but also to make peace with yourself. It won't work if you keep on over thinking things. I'm thankful to have someone who inspires me to be better and be optimistic (again) when it comes to love. To have someone who makes me realize that I can be better if I want to. That all those trust issues could be resolved. That all the negative thoughts would disappear if I just look on the positive things. I guess I found someone who can deal with the monsters in my head. Someone I'm so grateful to have in my life. :)

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Exhausted

It's my first day but I feel so tired already.huhu. This part-time job's quite killing me. But I won't give up. :) Hooray for new experiences and learnings! ^_^

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Pinagsabihan ako ni Mama na wag na raw ako bibili ng books kasi gastos lang.huhu. Ipon ko naman yung pinambibili ko eh. Stop na muna...for this month. :)) Ganyan talaga pag masyadong practical ang Modear.hehe. 

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Nakatulog na naman siya. Ako naman, ang tagal dalawin ng antok, as usual.huhu. Blame it on my random thoughts. Istorbo lang. :))

Hmm.May mga moments lang talaga akong namimiss. Tulad ng times na pumupunta siya sa bahay tapos kwentuhan lang. Iba't ibang topics nga eh. May times din naman na tahimik ako, yung tipo na hindi awkward silence kasi alam niya naman na ganun talaga ko minsan.hehe. At yung pinakanamimiss ko talaga eh yung times (mga three ata.HAHA) na na-sense niya na nagtatampo ako or wala ako sa mood mag-text. Ayun, walang sabi-sabi siyang pumunta sa bahay.Nabibigla na lang ako, nasa labas na siya or sa may pintuan.hihi. Syempre imposible yun ngayon. Hayst. Distance.

I miss you, Mr. Porcupine.