not sure how to start this post and what the right wording could be but to put it simply, i want everyone to know they’re not alone. whatever you’re feeling today, it’s normal, it’s understandable, it’s okay. i can guarantee you there are many more people out there going through the same thought process, going through the same conflicting emotions, going through the same things you are. i’m one of them. it’s extremely important for you to do what YOU need, be it embrace what’s happening or step away. grieving is not a linear process, it does not have a deadline, it’s not something that comes and then goes, forever. it’s okay to feel like you have lost your progress, you can gain some more, go back and forth, but just know that you’re not alone. you are not forced to consume new consent if you can’t handle it, just like it’s okay to do so if you are able to. everyone is valid, everyone.
i feel like talking about one’s grief is still very ‘taboo’, it’s just not... easy, for different valid reasons, i understand that, but i wanted to say a few words. i’m here for you, whether we’re friends or not. i’m here to listen. i believe that talking is a powerful tool to cope and in the long run, i think it may help, at least personally. whether we’re friends or not, you can always go ‘hey didi, can we talk?’ and i’ll be there for you.
do know that jonghyun is here, he’s with us and the boys, and that won’t ever change. he’s closer to us than ever. it’s through talking about him, talking to him, sharing the love he put out around, that we can cope a little more, in my opinion. he loves us so much and he’s proud of everyone.
shawols, blingers, please do take care of yourselves and once again, know that you’re valid, and there is care, affection and help out there. love you guys a lot. thanks for being on this journey with me, with everyone