Just hadan awesome time chatting to people with D.I.D. After seeing jess on bbc3 never did i think i would chat to her or any of her alters but i did tonight.
My princess is smiling and giggling, my girlfriend is enjoying contact with other people like her and i am overwhelmed at the laughing and acceptance i just witnessed.
My life is not easy i struggle with my own issues… im married with a girlfriend amongst many things. I have a wealth of mental health issues myself, i dont believe i deserve happiness sometimes and i struggle to cope a lot with supporting a girl with DID. But tonight it was nice to see im one of many supporters and we all can have a giggle and a discussion and there is a light supportive side i didnt know existed.
I was told recently that my issues are complicated and that my stress too great for a short term counsellor. I should try and look after myself. But i feel a huge responsibility to a huge number of people including the 52 in one gf. I dont know how to just make sure im ok. And whilst giggling away and talking tonight i saw people who have to deal with more. I saw my gf hiding from switching on cam… lotsa alts and hosts and their supporters. Now i can see im not alone in facing wat i face its helped me realise that i can find a balance.
Probably none of this makes sense the 1am ramblings of a stressed out confuzzled girl but i needed to say something. ♡♡♥♥