Jun 19, 2024
Car Seat Headrest, “Weightlifters” // the Mountain Goats, “Isaiah 45:23”
#I am the most stagnant person to ever live#if I were a body of water#mosquitos would flock to me like salmon to waterfalls and inland lakes and rivers#because I haven’t changed in nearly a decade#nothing changes with me#I am the bog water in the basement after the flood#untouched for years#yearning to be disturbed#unable to set myself to moving#god i’m so pretentious I wish I could just sleep for like#1322 days#wake up and have something be different#different or over#because being over would mean being different#and I’m delusional too if I think anything will ever change#I’m doing the same shit I did eight years ago#I’m feeling the same shit I felt fourteen years ago#and no matter what I tell myself#or others tell me#it never changes#because I’m so fucking deluded that I think#if everything stays the same#if I don’t do anything#things will change around me#things will become better around me#that if I keep my mouth shut#god will answer all my prayers#I’m so fucking DELUSIONAL god please just smite me with the knowledge of how everything will end. please. please. please. please. please.#Car Seat Headrest#the Mountain Goats