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Listening to the new Car Seat Headrest album and it’s kinda hitting me that it really is the end of an era

#wish I had someone I could really talk about this with #it’s actually so fucking bad #I think I just have to write off all the new works they put out now #I haven’t really enjoyed an album of theirs since I got into the band in 2016 #Teens of Denial had just come out when I found them #it’s so ironic #I guess I just gotta accept the state of things now #so it goes #I am resigned and I accept that #I am ready to be pleasantly surprised again one day but I won’t hold my breath anymore #I should change my profile pic lmao #car seat headrest #CSHR

queen--catherine

Just learned my mortal enemy from high school won $70k on Jeopardy and I’m gonna be sick to my stomach

queen--catherine

I gotta get out there and do something with my life

#gotta get busy doing or get busy letting go #one or the other one or the other #I’m watching an interview he did after winning four days in a row #and I gotta just stop doing this it’s just making me upset #he just shouted out our 12th grade English teacher for help on a question about Scotland #I gotta stop watching this I gotta stop watching this fuck fuck

Just learned my mortal enemy from high school won $70k on Jeopardy and I’m gonna be sick to my stomach

#he looks so happy answering questions I’d never get right #I wonder if they know he used to say the n-word in high school #I literally just watched a movie about forgiveness #but I’m still mad he won the English K-Award in Junior year #betrayal from Lawrynovicz #it sucks peaking in high school because it means you never get over the little slights #all he did was bully me and pretend to be my friend #and he was literally everything I wanted to be #cool funny smart great singing voice everything #so fucking confident too my god #I think I grew to hate him because I truly could not be him #so much of my life is shaped by envy #he even had my name man :(#the cooler version of my name that I wanted to go by :(#but never could because people knew me by my actual deadname the one I ALWAYS hated :((((#it’s not his fault I should be happy for him but I can’t I just can’t be #god if there’s a 10 year reunion this year I don’t know if I wanna go anymore #(I only learned this because I was looking up if we had a reunion planned)

Considering rebranding. Considering posting the lyrics I’ve been writing the last 8 years

Yes you should do it spill your guts for the internet yes yes!

No!! Hide these things forever! Some words are not meant to see daylight!!

Voting ended onApr 13

#I’ve wanted to do something with these things for a long time #but never felt like I had a venue for them #so fuck it I’ll make the venue #gonna rename the blog some variation of #Queen Catherine #because that’s the name I’ve been writing music under #at least in my head lmao #been thinking about this for a while before posting #kinda just want to see if people think the way I do #or if those that have read what I’ve written think this is a terrible idea

Thought about Outer Wilds again and started crying

#might be the most beautiful game I’ve ever played #new video out by well respected video essayist talking about it #about how we only contextualize ‘the end’ as something to prevent and never something to experience #and I want to share in this feeling with other people #I want to talk about this game with other people #I want people to take my recommendations seriously #someone started playing this once #after I had recommended it #but only when someone else recommended it #I don’t know why mine wasn’t enough #he stopped playing it pretty early on #this was maybe a couple years ago #he’s never going to pick it up again #I doubt he remembers it exists #I take the recommendations of other people seriously #I just wish people would do the same with me #the way I show love is sharing art but the art I love hurts #it hurts and I understand why people don’t want to look at it #I just want to connect with people again #I don’t want to be the one person who didn’t like something surrounded by people who did #then again to others me sharing art often feels more like I’m giving a seminar than us having fun #sometimes I wonder if I should just sell all my physical media because half the reason I bought all that #is so I can share it with people more easily #anyway everything has changed even the things that weren’t supposed to change #and they’re gonna change more and they’re not gonna change back #so I just gotta accept what has happened and what will happen and make peace with it

juliaribeirostudio

emoism manifesto: march 2026

nobodysmoose

i am julia ribeiro, founder of emoism

ceilingfan5

MEASURE NEVER

CUT WHENEVER

LIVE FOREVER

DIE ON ANY HILL

#posts to live by

queen--catherine

Pulled the trigger and booked the hotel room. Had already requested the days off way in advance but this makes it feel a lot more final. I didn't get this far last year so it feels like such a relief to get here now

queen--catherine

Cancelled the reservation. Weather’s too bad up there. Feels like a punishment if I’m being honest. Gonna think about this in the future

#I will somehow twist this to be my fault #it’s odd how I sometimes believe in god #but only when I feel like he’s punishing me #I do believe in karma #genuinely believe in karma #and it would be a performative belief if I didn’t believe it during the bad times too #I had to have done something to deserve this #cosmically I mean #I don’t know man I feel like maybe I had too much riding on this #maybe that was my sin #among other things #anyway gonna break the news to people I already told I was leaving

orcboxer

Hot take but praise is a good tool for encouraging healthy behavior. Positive reinforcement is good. Relying exclusively on punishment to change people's behavior is both cruel and ineffective. If someone does better than they did yesterday, let them know you appreciate it, let them know that they're improving!

orcboxer

"Don't praise anyone for doing the bare minimum" is a shitty take that prioritizes your sense of superiority over the actual betterment of people. I understand that things shouldn't be as bad as they are, and anger can often be justified, but you need to get over the propaganda that kindness is naïve, that cynicism and bitterness are intellectual. Withholding praise from those who haven't caught up with you doesnt actually help them, it doesn't motivate, it doesn't encourage, it only discourages them. It breeds bitterness and apathy, which are antithetical to empathy.

Growth isn't something you do on your own. People need support, they need community. Bootstraps won't get them there. Kindness will. Do you want results or do you just want to feel superior?

bealittleimprobable

Also, if you don’t praise people at least a little, you’re literally expecting them to mind-read whether what they did this time was the “correct” thing, and somehow magically know they got it right this time, as opposed to all the other times they said something and you stayed silent.

#the world could use a little empathy imo #people are really good at pointing out when bad things happen #but not so good at recognizing good things I think #so if you recognize it you should call it out #I think we live in a shame based culture and we have let it seep into the way we communicate #with kids with friends with family #no one feels comfortable congratulating people #and I mean really congratulating them #sure on the big things that are obvious but even then how often is the congratulations genuine #we are also afraid to criticize people we love but that’s another thing #I am not immune to these words #I just thought there was something profound here #been thinking about people close to me lately

tonysopranoproskater69420

lying in front of the street cleaner

nic0las-uncaged

did the street cleaner believe you?

tonysopranoproskater69420

it is like talking to a fucking genie with you people

#co-opting a laugh rule so as to make my blog not so depressing #I don’t want tumblr to be an app I open to be sad #the sadness should be a fun little surprise sometimes #I should just do more with my blog than lurk anyway

Pulled the trigger and booked the hotel room. Had already requested the days off way in advance but this makes it feel a lot more final. I didn't get this far last year so it feels like such a relief to get here now

#Memphis here I come #Once again #Hopefully the river recognizes me #Note to self do NOT spend more money than you have to between now and then #Gotta save as much as possible #It feels so weird to go on a trip 100% by yourself #Almost surreal #Would have preferred to do it with someone else #But he was right in saying it's a lot to ask of someone #So I don't want to ask anyone #The people I would want to go with right now are either in the process of expanding their families #Or would try to pay for the entire trip #And I would feel bad either way #Maybe another time #If there is another time #Gotta see how this time feels first #This is what cashing in all my pto was for after all #Gotta make it count for something #2026 is going to be the year of self reliance #2025 was the year of standing up for myself and it did not end well for me #So if I just take that sentiment and cut out the conflict then maybe things will be better #idk maybe we'll find out #Anyway mighty Appalachia your daughter is crawling home I see a latch-key kid older than Saturn's rings #Off to see my grandpa and the house I thought would be mine forever

I think, like many decisions I’ve made in my life, downloading dating apps was a mistake

#I’m just trying to be genuine #idk man it’s just depressing #one it’s humiliating to admit I’m even on them #two it’s humiliating to say how little activity there’s been #like I fucking get it I’m not an attractive person I just don’t want to die alone #and I don’t know how to meet people #and everyone I know is married and having kids or in a serious relationship or something #and I want that too even though I never admitted it I want to love someone #like idk man why would you match with someone and not respond to any messages #I’ve been on these apps for a couple weeks and I’ve gotten three matches #(which is already so low it’s crushing)#and none of them have messaged anything back after I send the first message #like why even do that why go through the trouble of getting my hopes up if you don’t like me #I’m actually crying at a gas station right now trying to figure out what’s wrong with me #maybe it’s a sign #maybe there have been so many signs #maybe my life has been full of signs I refuse to look at #I should accept things as they are #my life changes around me while I stay the same #the things about me will never change #the last relationship I was in was 3 years ago #and the one before that was 8 years ago with a 5 year gap #I have no experience #I have no prospects #I have nothing to offer #everyone I know gets some fairytale ending and I just don’t #it’s not in the cards for me I guess #I kind of have no purpose #I’m realizing it now I have no purpose really #I exist to live and life’s not its own reward because I want more than I have but I’m convinced the universe doesn’t think I deserve more :(

The simple joy of finding a free weather app that doesn’t use AI and doesn’t hurt your eyes to look at and actually shows the data you need

#cannot believe Carrot betrayed me #had that app for years #back when it was free #and I got grandfathered in to the cheap premium #was paying like $2 a year for the best weather app I ever had #then they started using AI #not just for the little blurbs or the art #but for the forecasts too #like wtf #I got it because it was using a data source I liked #and now I had to search for a new one for like a week and a half #so hard to find a decent one that doesn’t charge like $20 a month or something #shoutout weatherology

strelka

this is such a good tweet

#have thought about that last sentence so often since I saw this the first time #there is no one in the world funnier to be coming to grips with their own mortality and morality #‘Freyja won’t want me in Folkvang (nasty lady) and Oðin won’t have me in Valhöll. Folks Hel is looking (enunciating) quite damp these days’#‘Folks I hate to say it - I really hate to say it - I have too many Earthly desires. I’m not achieving Nirvana this time. I just won’t.’#love this shit

First breath of Winter :)

#actually been a good couple of days #I think I had a really rough couple of months that are turning around now #I’m actually pretty hopeful all things considered #today felt so similar to how things used to be that it made me think that maybe they can be like that again #and given some recent developments #I think they might be actually headed back in a positive direction #at least for a time things are good #I will take a good day when I can #and I will take two good days when I can #maybe we can have three good days

3000s

learning that people want you in their lives is a skill you can develop if it does not come naturally

3000s

it feels fake but your friends miss you sometimes

3000s

the reason you've been hanging out with your closest friends fairly regularly for the past 12+ years is because you have fun together

3000s

people who don't like you that much will not stay in your life for over a decade asking to hang out and inviting you to things and texting you

#turns out though sometimes someone will stay in your life for a decade and a half and carry so much resentment towards you #that they don’t want to say anything about #that it all comes out at once and a friendship that has last over half your life ends over text #and then they tell you they ‘thought we were friends’ because apparently we weren’t friends I guess #so yeah actually sometimes people will spend time with you and text you and end up not actually caring about you at all #not always though :) but the stove also doesn’t burn you every time you touch it so idk #I have been hurt in ways this person will never know and they don’t give a shit #and if they do give a shit they have a really funny way of showing it #anyway friendship isn’t real people will only tolerate you as long as is convenient to them not a day longer thus is the way of the world

Oh, what a loss

#came on shuffle at work #made me think about some things #I really thought we were friends man :(#how ironic the last song I showed you was the Car Seat cover of The Moon #if I’d known it was the last day I’d see you I wouldn’t have wanted to spend it #watching the first ten episodes of Evangelion #so it goes #it is what it is until it’s not and then it’s not #Spotify

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