Hi, Sam! You mentioned being bad at/nor liking driving, and I was wondering if you'd done much driving since starting medication, and if you've noticed any difference? I'm also a bad, nervous driver, and I'm pretty sure I have ADHD, but I've heard meds can help with the driving part.
Not that I recall -- I've driven at least once since starting medication but it was at night in semi-rural Pennsylvania and I don't think that counts, since no amount of Adderall is going to help me see the road when there are no streetlights. :D
I do have a zipcar membership for emergencies, but it's expensive to use and driving in urban Chicago is a nightmare regardless of medication, so even if medication makes it better I don't think I'd be able to tell. If I were to get behind the wheel for the specific purpose of seeing how it is driving while medicated, I'd probably go deliberately to a suburb and get a car there, so that I wasn't doing urban/highway driving after not having driven for years.
I mean, even if I were to be a better driver, I don't think I'd want to, and I for sure don't want to be a more relaxed one because I don't think most people have internalized just how insanely dangerous cars are. Your ability to kill someone when behind the wheel of a car is absolutely immediate and almost entirely out of your control. I don't mind riding in cars, like it doesn't make me nervous to be a passenger, but I've been in enough accidents (on foot, as a passenger, as a driver -- none my fault but many unavoidable) that I want nothing to do with piloting one. They are large, fast murder machines.
There are a couple of sounds that live rent-free in my head; two of them are a) the sound I made going up onto the hood of a car when I was hit in college and b) the sound a twelve-year-old made running into the passenger door of a car I was driving because he tried to cross a street while looking backwards at his friends.














