#dirkisms.

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I just got out of a really abusive relationship. And I found out so much that it turns out, I was potentially in genuine danger for my life. I can finally breathe and relax. My boyfriend has been absolutely wonderful and supportive and is so sweet to me and I just felt like for the longest time, I deserved to suffer like that.

I could really use some people to talk to, I guess. I’m not looking for relationship stuff, I could just use friends. Feel free to message me.

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I haven’t posted here in a while. I moved cross country again, in with my fiance’s family, and it’s been pretty alright overall. My cats have their very own catio (his mom bought and assembled it and has been modifying it a bit) and we have a nice bedroom and huge closet. Not working yet, not sure when I will, I need to get insurance which is a process because I need a state license here, which I am working on.

Overall it’s been good but sometimes I get very frustrated.

All the trauma for the last several years I really would like therapy for, so I am working on figuring out where I would like to go for that. I haven’t been in therapy for half a year at this point and I have been largely unmedicated and I don’t love that for me, but I will say I am doing better overall on little medication than I was on more.

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Hey y’all- doing emergency commissions. I didn’t have an intent to post anything like this here, but we are in a really, really bad financial bind.

Please read (details about the situation below first, then commission information).

This morning, my fiance had an autopayment come out for a bit over a couple hundred and that was not supposed to come out- he turned off autopay, but I guess the company processed the payment or something right before it was shut off.

This money was meant to go to gas and food for the next 11 days (which is how long we have to wait until his next paycheck). This is bad because of the following;

- My fiance has just been found (within the last few days) to potentially have a rare form of cancer and needs a biopsy. He was supposed to get one set up for tomorrow- but now we don’t have money for the copay.

- He’s had a lot of absences due to health issues, his job isn’t happy about it and we’re in an at-will state. We don’t have gas money. If he doesn’t have gas to get to work, he loses the job, his insurance to pay for treatment, and we lose our apartment, belongings and pets. My family can’t help financially- and at the moment neither can his. I also don’t have anyone to ask to borrow money from.

- We have pets to take care of that have health issues, including a kitten that isn’t even fully weaned yet.

- We don’t have enough food to last us that long.

- I have tried to get a job (I’ve gone to a lot of interviews) but all of the ones that offered me a position ended up being MLMs/commission only and didn’t disclose that until the interview, so I wasted time and money (for the interview clothes) going. I have plenty of professional experience, so I’m overqualified for most entry level positions but not qualified enough for the higher tier positions, and the job market is shit out here. It sucks.

- I’m getting married in just over two weeks. I would like for that to still happen.

- We are both still waiting on tax returns and it won’t help us in time.

With that said- I am doing commissions. Payment is up front via Paypal, Cashapp or Zelle. I can also set up my VGen for it if you’d prefer to do that.

I can do a lot of different stuff- I’ve dabbled in a lot of different art styles. Here’s some stuff- I can provide more examples in DMs.

I do Homestuck stuff- and enjoy doing it, and would be fine doing that for commissions and have a lot of examples to share- but I would prefer to send those through DMs. They are not NSFW (however if you are an adult and verifiably so, I can do NSFW commissions).

I most like doing paintings, and I like having creative freedom. I do character design- the first four of the ones below were designed by me- and I’ll do skeb (surprise) symmetrical customs with light shading for $45, $75 if you want a back view included.

Other things can be worked out within your budget.

I am also selling characters on my TH. Feel free to message me about that.

DISCLAIMER: I have quite the backlog on commissions. Skeb customs I can get done in a month and a half max- paintings and other things will take longer. I don’t even really want to be taking on more right now, but I don’t have much of a choice.

Feel free to message me if you’re interested, tell me what you want and your budget and I’ll see what I can do.

[timaevs]

I’m getting married soon. Absolutely fucking wild. I’m so excited. I love this man to death.

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I have been bawling so hard that my head hurts.

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Punk Tactics is stuck in my head now, haven’t listened to it in a bit. Thanks anon.

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Baby kitties. They’re all very loud and mom loves them.

The seventh did not make it shortly after birth- we tried everything we could, but she was the runt and it was sort of inevitable.

We named her Nova and buried her next to our two recently passed kitties.

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So one of our cats is pregnant- we thought she had a few more days left at our best guess, but nope, we went into the bathroom to four kittens and more on the way. We expect two or three more. They are so cute.