I’m Never Happy
(October 2016)
I'm sad
I'm sick
I'm shitty
I'm sick of this shit
I'm tired
I'm tortured
I'm triggered
I'm tricked
I'm bitchy
I'm broke
I'm broken
I'm broken-hearted
I'm crying
I'm closing down
I'm breaking down
I'm blocking out
I'm lost
I'm losing
I'm hiding
I'm hideous
I'm pretty on the outside
I'm ugly on the inside
I'm normal on the outside
I'm mutant on the inside
I'm miserable
I'm missing everything
I'm giving up
I'm not forgiving yet
I'm hurting
I'm hurtful
I'm hating
I'm hateful
I'm disabled
I'm disappointed
I'm disgusting
I'm disordered eating
I'm well-fed but
I'm hungry
I'm craving candy
I'm starving for sustenance
I'm artsy
I'm fartsy
I'm frustrated
I'm fibromyalgic
I'm tragicomic
I'm Lactuloosic
I'm losing
I'm loony
I'm locked up
I'm fucked up
I'm isolated
I'm violated
I’m hopeless
I’m helpless
I’m less than I was
I’m here nonetheless
I'm doing a drama
I'm putting on a play
I'm acting if
I'm smiling
I'm writing a note
I'm hanging a rope
I'm drinking 'til drunk
I'm hoping to choke
I'm dying to die
I'm sorry for trying
I'm sorry for lying
I'm sorry for failing
I'm sorry for scaring
I'm sorry for not caring
I'm sorry for being mean
I'm sorry for being me
I'm pushing through this pain
I'm transcending these troubles
I'm producing projects
I'm contributing creativity
I'm surviving this huge loss
I'm claiming this half-life
I'm hugging this hurt self
I'm climbing this hard hill
I'm hearing stories of struggle
I'm heart-aching for sweethearts
I'm supporting sad souls
I'm helping healers heal
I'm generating new ideas
I'm manifesting masterpieces
I'm making people laugh
I'm making people happy even if
I'm never happy
I’m never happy
I’m never happy
I’m never happy