Long time lurker but I think it's finally a good time for me to ask a question.
My name is Ari (xe/they).
I wanted to ask what are some things I should do to continue furthering my career in a direction that makes me happy?
For context, I'm a group therapist at a location with clients I really enjoy. About a year ago I got promoted to coordinator of the program, but I'm still also the only therapist. There's been a lot of issues with growth, because the company won't invest in the location but constantly pushes really impossible to meet goals. They're finally indicating they'll invest in us this summer but I've been here almost 3 years already with no help, so I'm not feeling as hopeful as I would like. There just aren't many jobs in town for my license that I want to work.
Ive also been in supervision for a license upgrade so I can practice without needing supervision. I finish up in 9 months and I'll hopefully have my new license a few months after that. This will probably mean another promotion opportunit, but I'm not sure if I want the added pressure. The end goal in the future would be to go fully private practice. My supervisor has also offered to pay to put me through training for a new therapy type if I do it for free through her office for a few months, but it's been a few months and she hasn't brought it up again.
I guess I'm just feeling a bit stuck on all fronts, job wise. On good days I'm hopeful, but this entire last week I keep having to talk myself out of quitting on impulse because they're making really high demands I know I can't make.
Sorry if that was too much info! I've never gotten a reading from someone I dont know in person before! Thank you in advance! It's really nice of you to have these open!
Hello Ari, welcome to the ask box! Don't apologize for all of the context, I love having information to work off of for a reading to better tailor and elaborate on the answer. Unfortunately there is no attached image for this reading because Tumblr refuses to function for me right now.
For your reading, I am using the Alleyman’s Tarot, a deck made of cards and artwork from a vast number of artists and historical images. Due to the size of this deck (195 cards), I have it split into a Majors deck and a Minors deck, so you are guaranteed two cards.
Your cards are the Star upright (by J Star Designs), the Eight of Tentacles upright (by Sean Simmans for the Pulp Tarot), Deconsecration reversed (by Winslow Dumaine for the Tarot Restless), and the Five of Mirrors reversed (by Hexed_Boy).
Let's start from left to right, even though that's not how I drew them. The Star is a card that is, in many cases, the last thread of hope desperately clinging onto the edge of the train tracks over the ravine, the desperate scramble to get to the light at the end of the tunnel after being lost in a cave, the hope that following a road towards the future won't lead with you falling into a ditch (or being dropped into it). This is a card focused on thinking about the future, the long-term plans, the hopes and dreams.
The Eight of Tentacles is from the bonus suit of this deck, the objects that are disconnected from yet interwined with each other. This card is about absolute pleasure - eating an entire jar of Nutella with a spoon, jerking one out, whatever. The important part is doing the "dirty", feel-good thing.
Deconsecration reversed is about reclamation that cannot be done by you. There is a much larger injustice or pain at play, something you can work at overtaking for all your life and likely won't find or undo in your lifetime. But you need to try anyway.
Finally, the Five of Mirrors is another card in the bonus suit. In this position, it is a card about self-infatuation, vanity, and being unable to think about other people or their thoughts about you. This focus warps as time goes on and as the glass begins to break. The truth will always be revealed.
You are in the completely unenviable position of being in charge of your own fate here. Best case scenario, you put your head down and work hard in this practice so you can go private sector as soon as possible even if your employer sets itself aflame. Worst case scenario, you're trapped in the drudgery forever until you either quit or you die. Review your options, reach back out to check if some avenues are still open, and focus not only on what is stable, but is something you can do long-term. Review, revise, resume.
I hope this reading has helped you review your situation in some form, Ari. If you feel so inclined, please feel free to send feedback in my ask box, leave feedback in a reblog of this reading, and/or reblog my reading guidelines!
