#dislocated knees

[a-dinosaur-a-day]

What did Obama do to your knees?

I mean he didn’t do anything, I was a fool. Sixteen year old me, so filled with hope and idealism, was very excited when he won the 2008 election, because I legitimately did not think he could given how racist this country is (and, to throw my sixteen year old self a bone, just look at how the country reacted to having a Black man as president). I was in a small room when the race was officially called, because I was (predictably) on a computer. I jumped up and down and did a dance, and in the process I tripped over various objects and, upon falling down, dislocated my first knee. Thanks, Obama.

The second knee happened about a year later when I was making a bed. Yay compensating by putting too much pressure on the other knee.

[a-dinosaur-a-day]

In your ‘how I became a paleontologist’ post, you mentioned you have chronically dislocated knees. You’ve probably answered this before, but what does that entail? I’m not too knowledgeable on that sort of thing

Basically, if you dislocate your knee once, it’s much easier to dislocate again. So when I dislocated the first one (long story, but I can legitimately blame Obama), I put more pressure on the second one to compensate, which eventually lead to that one dislocating as well. I still tried to act normal even with the pain, which eventually lead to me dislocating both of them even worse on multiple occasions. One that still haunts my spouse involves a bicycle, a spider, and my crippling arachnophobia. Now I have the fun reality of any movement of the knee hurting from a little to blinding amounts of pain, depending on the day. It’s fun! Thanks Obama!

[amelias-adventure]

The worst thing.

Ever since i've had my second surgery I have this fear that any one of my joints will dislocate. It was easy to deal with and push away when it first started but its gotten way worse and its started to happen during the day. Usually it only happens when im about to go to sleep and then im unable to sleep. Its such a horrible fear and its quite frankly pathetic of me.

But today was when i knew i had to talk to someone about it. I was sitting on my couch and i moved my wrist and ive broken it before so it clicks sometimes and it clicked and i looked at it and it was in a weird position and i thought it dislocated in the matter of 10-15 seconds i was scared and didn't know what to do so i just moved my wrist and i was fine it didn't do anything it was just my mind playing tricks on me. But i felt so panicked i started to cry and freak out because it has to be one of my biggest fears. Ive told my mother and my sister and they think its normal but im not quite sure. I have a doctors appointment next month and my surgeon is a certified child psychologist so ill ask him about it.

I just needed to get this out if anyone has been through something similar or has any advice please message me. 

[amelias-adventure]

GOOD NEWS.

My doctor told me today I'm done, I can stop physical therapy and I can run and bike and swim. IM DONE. I have to go to see him every 3 months for a couple of years but im finally done worrying about all of this. Like im so happy and everyone should be really happy for me but everyones just like oh yeah thats nice. But this is huge for me. My knees have taken up over a year of my life, its been so hard for me to deal with but I've done it... I got through all of it. Like thank you for everyone that supported me through all of this. Its been from may 29th, 2013 to july 8, 2014. Its been one hell of a ride, but its finally over.