#dittymatter

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quick ditty i wrote at work

i can't stop thinking about you and in a few hours i'll be drinking about you but that's because a few hours before now i was sinking my teeth into you lightly of course, as you used most of the force when you pushed me up against that wall i swear i think i lost it all my consciousness is starting to fall into the void of ecstasy that exists between you and me

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i understand addiction to my advantage

for you it’s where the pain lies for me it’s where the fun hides i’m always acting shameless but the one i really love doesn’t know what my name is because i clouded his mind with drugs, fuck.

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In thirty years I'll be sitting here Telling one of my friends The line you whispered Before you slipped it in The attention to detail Starts to derail The connections in my brain Constantly thinking Constantly drowning in pain

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water cycles

The cirrus clouds in the atmosphere mimic your waves and I wish you were here Lately there's always been clouds When there's water in the air you can't think clear It's murky and I'm drowning Lungs are filling heart is pounding I'm sounding my alarm But you can't hear me I wish I was in your arms My favorite place to be Now I'm learning how to swim And I'm not even out at Sea Tears like rain, evaporating But the pain remains Causing heavy breathing My heart is bleeding pouring and the rain is red now Sad because you wish you were dead now I love you so much that I cannot touch you Transparent and not there, just like the clouds above you

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you live in my head your soles poke my brain you get to me baby i never wanna see you dead, never wanna see you in pain

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unwanted stress looming in the final chapters before your death - a concept i can't quite grasp yet as i still dream longingly of your caress