#divinelink

[d0gbite]

in a similar vein to my last post…. i think that’s a good way to describe my indecision over labeling my angelic identity as a kin or link.

“angelic” describes who i am. at my core, i am angelic. i couldn’t change that if i tried.

“angel” describes what i am. it’s what i choose to present myself as to express my angelicism.

that’s why it feels simultaneously like a kintype and a linktype

[d0gbite]

i know i’m posting about this a lot today but it’s because i’m having a lot of angelic feelings—

i feel like i am so stuck between angelkin and angellink because of the way my angel-ness manifests in me.

i feel like angelic describes me to my very being, like i couldn’t stop being angelic if i wanted to. but “angel” feels like a costume, feels like something i am choosing to be. it feels like a link, despite “angelic” feeling like kin somehow.

i feel like describing myself as any specific angel or specific kind of angel is a choice, a link, something i am choosing voluntarily. but i’m doing it to satiate my desire and dysphoria over being angelic. like i’m choosing it intentionally to satisfy my angelicism. like i desire to be an angel because i know im angelic.

does that make any sense? i don’t know.