#divinitions

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5, 6, 11, 20, 22 for Lucien!

Finally, I got this answered xD Thank you so much for asking these! I had a lot of fun going through my notes. Yes, I have notes on a bunch of this stuff.

5. Guilty pleasures:

I see him as someone who whittles, making little wooden figurines, and has specific types of wood that he prefers to work with. He also enjoys alchemy and experimenting with different (toxic) ingredients, but that’s not really a guilty pleasure.

6. Their vices (physical or emotional):

I assume we mean other than murder xD

If smoking exists in Tamriel, I really see him as a smoker. Also, he kind of disregards other people’s feelings in most cases. He can respect others feelings, but his come first (unless they directly oppose the Dark Brotherhood, tho tbh that doesn’t really happen.)

11. Bad or petty habits:

So, I have a headcanon where he was actually originally in a Dark Brotherhood sanctuary in Wayrest, then the one in Falkreath, until he was promoted to Speaker and began to oversee the Cheydinhal sanctuary. But before he got his own place in Fort Farragut, he had a habit of rearranging to his suiting, not really caring if it was inconvenient for other people.

20. What Ifs/Alternate Timelines:

hahaha I’m still working on an AU where it’s heavily implied he’s a serial killer xD

I think I can really only answer this for FF: Fi gets to Applewatch on time (cliche, I know) but they don’t live happily ever after lol. Lucien winds up killing Mathieu and does feel somewhat conflicted by it, because in my head he’s the one who recruits Mathieu into the Brotherhood. He never finds out he has a son in this timeline because Fi fucks off to the Isles right after the Crisis since Lucien alive to protect her child, and he also never goes on to be the spectral assassin that the Dragonborn gets. BUT Mathieu goes on to, as a punishment from Sithis for what he’s done. 

22. People who have influenced them greatly:

Well, for one the woman who recruited him, an Imperial who I’ve named Decuma Atropos (which is horribly unoriginal xD) since she gives him a new life and a purpose. She’s a woman he was infatuated with in his youth (ahhh teen hormones) but nothing ever came of it and he greatly respected her, as she was quite stoic and brutal. He’s modelled a lot of his behavior after her. I should do something for her, since I think she’s just cool. Other people would have to be Mathieu, Ocheeva, and Teinaava. Mathieu, since he recruited him, and, in my head, he’s aware that he killed Mathieu’s mother and that Mathieu killed his own father. He kind of mentors Mathieu and considers himself somewhat of a father figure to him. Their relationship is complicated. Ocheeva and Teinaava for obvious reasons, since he raised them since they were very young, as Teinaava states “Lucien raised [them] since they were hatchlings and is like a father to [them].” At least one more person influenced him any significant amount was Arquen. They were recruited around the same time and had been quite close, and they taught each other different skills. Arquen kind of showed Lucien how to be less messy and Lucien showed her how to brew different poisons. 

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7, 9, 30, 51 xD

Thank you, Divi! :)

07: What did you last eat?A macaron that I made haha

09: Do you bite your nails?No, I’m prone to eczema on my fingertips so biting my nails would just make my eczema worse.

30: What’s irritating you right now?Maybe TMI, but watching romantic scenes from my Chinese drama makes me think about my trashy ex and how he ruined romance for me. As much as I enjoy this drama, romantic stuff inevitably makes me think of him (he was also Chinese) and it irritates me whenever he’s on my mind.

51: Favourite food?Aldknfal;dksnf I hate this question because there are TOO MANY DELICIOUS FOODS. I guess this amazing chocolate pie that my mom makes for special occasions. It’s the best thing in the world.

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7, 8, 9, 34, 37, 38 for the character asks!

xD Thank you! Since @henantier asked me ALL of them, divided between Fi and Gwyn, I’m gonna answer the opposite ones here for each.

Felicienne:

7.Is there a catchphrase or sound that they tend to make a lot (likely without being aware of it)?

Fi says “wow” a lot. 

9.Do they have a favorite season? What about a favorite holiday?

She loves fall and winter, and her favourite holiday is actually Witches Festival. She likes the mysticism around it, and it was one of her mother’s favourites as well.

37.What are some of your character’s pet peeves? What are some things that annoy them or disgust them?

She hates when people bite their nails, but there’s also certain sounds that make her feel nauseous and she can’t listen to them xD

Gwyneira:

8.What is, perhaps, their biggest flaw? Are they aware of this or oblivious to it?

It’s probably her short-temper, and she’s very well aware of it. She doesn’t try to be like that, but her temper gets the best of her, and she almost always feels guilty afterward.

34.Does your character have favorite foods? (breakfast, lunch, dinner, dessert, snacks, etc)

Gwyneira tends to like sweets that are floral flavoured, especially lavender dumplings. 

38.What kind of weather does your character like? Cloudy skies, rainy days, sunshine, etc?

She really enjoys cloudy days, but ones that are on the warm side. 

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12, 13, 15, 20, 25 for the author asks!

Thank you so much! I’m rereading this and I kind of feel like a dick for some of my answers T_T but I had a lot of fun thinking about these.

12: your weaknesses as an author?

“What is scene, even?” also “IS THAT A PLOTHOLE?? SHIT”

But for real, I like to experiment with different styles and sometimes get too purple with my prose, or I go the other way and become too repetitive (like, without meaning to, so I can’t really say it’s an artistic choice)

13: your strengths as an author?

I know that everything I write is garbage, and have achieved a sort of zen about it. That sounds like a joke, but it’s really helped me to receive criticism so I can get better at writing, because you kind of need both practise and critique; you need to be able to understand what isn’t working in your writing, and I’m gonna go all “mom” here for a bit: 

Yes, you’re writing for yourself, but you’re also putting your work out there so you ARE writing for others as well. That doesn’t mean to let your readers dictate how your story unfolds, but you should be willing–IN MY OPINION–to hear them out on something that’s either unclear or clunky, or if something doesn’t allow them to suspend their disbelief. Most critical comments (which from the ones I’ve seen) are incredibly respectful. Obviously, there are going to be assholes out there who just want to shit on things that people like–that exists–but if someone leaves a respectful, thought-out critique of your work, that’s kind of amazing tbh. Someone thought your work was interesting enough to spend that much time with it and to analyse it. You’re not going to encounter that kind of feedback too often. There’s some stuff you can disregard, not everything someone says will be insightful or helpful, but it’s worth seeing how others are interpreting your work. 

Sorry, mom-ing is done now. 

15: why did you start writing?

“Well if no one else is going to write this then I guess I have to”

Seriously, though. There are a lot of things I want to see, so I might as well write them. 

There’s also the answer that I wrote to cope with a lot but that’s another post xD

20: do you write in long sit-down sessions or little spurts?

Both? I feel like they both have their pros and cons: with long sitdown sessions I get really tired after awhile and then I’m tempted to stay away for a long time, and little spurts leads my writing to–imo–come across kind of clunky. I’m trying to blend both methods lol

25: copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of:

So this was taken from my one-shot series for FF, the piece inspired by a couple Wyatt poems.

“As he lies awake and feels her heart hammering against his chest, and gazes down at her–now gentle, tame, and meek–bitterness thrives where starlight once clung since he so unkindly has been served by her poisoned whimpers and sweetened tears. 

How like you this, he thought, what you have now deserved?”

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11, 52, 68, 70 :DDDD

11: Do you like someone?

hahaha yeah there’s a few tbh

one who sucks (and you know this xD)

one who i can’t have

and two who are quite lovely people and i adore them

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

ehhh not really, but i don’t think that’s a bad thing. i kind of think most things are just kind of…chaotic? but chaos propels things forward and gives opportunities and chances where they might not have been any before. like, i believe a lot in luck. sure, you can control some things about your life, but sometimes, when things happen, it’s just dumb luck, which i don’t think takes away from someone’s hard work. it’s just a variable.

68: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

hmmm i’d say yes. we’re both very similar (to the point we’ve joked around that we’re the same person from different timelines) so when we hang out we talk about a lot of things and tend to find we feel the same way about things.

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

this sounds kind of cheesy, but the kids i teach. i love them, and there are definitely times (especially when anything happens in a school) that make me hyper aware of the fact there are people who would hurt children. i hate the thought, and i’d do anything to keep those kids safe. 

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waxing, night light, constellation, soothe

ahhhh thank you so much for these!! hope these are okay :3

waxing: what is your proudest accomplishment?

hahah okay well, this will sound stupid but i’m super proud of finishing university at the top of my class. i worked really hard, held down three jobs, and went through a lot of personal stuff. like, my mom got cancer (she’s okay now!) and had a LOT of other health things happen and she’s 1500 miles away from me, so i was flying back and forth when i had time off of school, had a couple bad relationships (and a couple good ones!) and lived on my own. so it was a journey lol. but i finished and i’m so glad i did.

night light: who/what makes you feel safe?

not at lot makes me feel safe, tbh, buuuuuuuut if there’s one thing, it’s when my cats sleep on my chest and start purring. i love feeling their weight on me. 

constellation: who is someone you could talk to for hours and never stop?

lol well i feel like we talk A LOT and i don’t get tired of it xD but i have an irl friendo, too, who i’ve known since high school and another bff from when i worked at the makeup counter at macy’s who i could talk to for HOURS.

soothe: what’s one thing that always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

my cat, callie specifically, sitting in my lap. i love her fluffy little body and the way she purrs, especially when she’ll put her paw on my hand. but a close second is actually at work, when i start talking to the kids. they always put a smile on my face, even when they’re being difficult. 

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47, 35, 31 for the TMI!

Hahaha thank you for all the asks! Hopefully these answers are at least a little entertaining xD

47.) Last song you sang?

I sing in the car a lot, so, I think the last song was “Sirens of the Sea” by Oceanlab.

35.) Relationship between you and the last person you texted?

Aww the last person I texted was my dad <3

31.) Last book you read?

The last NEWish book I read was The Invention of Solitude by Paul Aster (memoir) but the actual last book, which I’m not sure it counts because it’s not an actual novel, I read (like, I read it today) is One Love Affair by Jenny Boully, which is a collection of…prose poems, kind of, about a relationship ending. It’s quite lovely. If we’re talking about a novel, it’s Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad. I know this was like, three books, but I tend to bounce back and forth, so I’m usually reading like, three or four books at a time.

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Jakku, Lothal, Sullust, Naboo, Massa, Mustafar, Utapau :D

Utapau: Personal ranking of the episodesJakku: Favorite character(s)I love Kylo. I’ve never really been into villains but he’s just so raw and emotional that I can’t help but be compelled by his character.

Lothal: Favorite scene(s)THE FIGHT SCENE IN TLJ WHERE REY AND KYLO WERE FIGHTING BACK TO BACK. HOLY CRAP JUST AOHFAURHGALKDJF.

I also really like the scene in TFA where Rey yelled at the dude who captured BB-8 in the beginning. I assumed that she was at least bilingual, and I wish they brought that out more in her character.

Sullust: Favorite linesDang I don’t know, there are just so many good ones. I’ve really only watched TFA and TLJ (blasphemous I know; the last time I watched the others I was very young) so it’s hard to name some off the top of my head. I really liked when Kylo and Rey said “You’re not alone.” “Neither are you.” (I’m Reylo trash as you can tell…)

Naboo: Scenes I find the funniestIn TLJ when Rey literally reached out to the Force and Luke slapped her hand with a blade of grass.

Polis Massa: Favorite OTPsReylo trash of course. I also love the canon couples like Anidala and Hanleia.

Mustafar: Scenes that make me cryAll the scenes with Carrie Fisher made me want to cry. I’m not even kidding, I almost cried in the first 5 minutes of TLJ when Carrie Fisher was on screen.

Utapau: Personal ranking of the episodesSorry, the only ones I’m really familiar with are TLJ and TFA D:. To answer the question, I liked TLJ better than TFA but I loved both.