Days without my son.
I'm limited on what I want to share on here but I will share that I am a father.
I had my son when I was very young and married his mother when I was young.
We didn't have a good relationship. I was struggling with Mental Health and refused to get help and in that relationship I felt very abused and taken advantage of.
A few years later we divorced and ever since then my relationship with my son has been very difficult to maintain.
His mother and I had a lot of anger and pain towards each other and we were not above letting the other know about it.
In this it caused me to avoid her and my son all together. I fell into deep depressions on this issue and developed an addiction to alcohol because of this and many other things in my life.
In my addiction I failed my son in many ways and thus it caused my ex and I to suspend visitation until I got my life back together. That was 2 years ago.
I haven't spoken to my son in two years and I've been struggling with it. He has developed and grown so much and I don't even know who he is.
I don't know how much he asked about me or even if he does.
and honestly I don't trust my ex's word for it. In my life she has lied to me time and time again.
She's lied to me about my son and about our custody just to have me stay away that I don't know what to do.
My heart is broken.
