This one was a long time coming but it's here!! As with the J one, the more direct stuff is under the cut! I really enjoyed this and had the ideas for a while, just never wrote them down.
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The only way you're getting close to him is if you somehow become a part of his routine. He likes patterns and is very adverse to unnecessary change, and if you're a part of his comfortable to-and-fro, you have the chance at getting his attention. If you're lucky, you'd see him about once a month. If you're really lucky, once a week.
He's very, very analytic. Analyzing people is the reason he so easily makes the distinctions between who he does and does not consider worth his attention; those first few seconds, a full thirty if he's intrigued, can determine whether or not he'll be willing to strike up harmless conversation. If you're lucky, he'll shrug part of his headphones to the side to better hear you. If you're really lucky, he'll take them off and fully turn towards you.
The first conversation you have with him, he'll spend the majority of it analyzing you more than being involved. He's distracted, yes, but by you—he'll even ask seemingly irrelevant questions for the sheer sake of weighing your answer. The second time around, or if he becomes satisfied during that first meeting, he'll be a lot more expressive or borderline content. Which isn't saying very much.
Most conversation that veers towards himself gets redirected or not answered in full. There's very simple things he'll answer (if he's in a good mood,) yes, but anything marginally personal will result in a non-answer or another question.
An example of this is that you will never know his "real name" in the same sense that you will never know the full extent of his life before this city. Whatever moniker you come up with that appeases him will suffice and all you need to know about his past is that he was raised far enough from this city that he could clearly see the stars at night.
Most of the time his expressed emotions are fairly dulled down. He's pleased, neutral, or furious. That's about it. It's rare that he'll show more than that.
Rare, at least... until "certain things he's quite unused to" consume so much more of his everyday life than he's ever been used to.
Certain things like... kindling bonds that he figured he'd never need to have again. After all, things like these are very, very distracting from his work. It would be difficult to do anything if all that sits on the forefront of your mind is someon—er, something else, no?
Emotions are sorted into categories. Whatever category this is is one he hasn't touched in so long he'd forgotten it was there.
And to some extent, it's one that he's... he's unsure if he even wants it. It's distracting. Admittedly, it is akin to a breath of fresh air, but he doesn't need that! He's perfectly fine with his work, with his purpose. He doesn't need anything to take him from it.
He doesn't need any distractions.
... But by the time he's willing to admit to himself just how far things have gotten, he's already drowning.
And by all the stars above, does he hate it.
He hates it more than anything else. Does that stop it by any means? No. No, it does not. But oh, does he wish it could. That would make his life far, far easier.
Because the way he loves is... it's almost chaotic and, arguably, almost as destructive as his implosions can be, though on a level much more psychological than physical. He loves to the extent of destruction and driving himself mad trying to figure out the "object of his affections" like they're simply a puzzle to be solved.
Which, to an extent, you are; you are an enigma that he simply cannot understand because, to his logic, the mere concept that you might "love" him does not make sense.
If it isn't somehow "proven" to him to be a kind of absolute fact, and it's something that he wants himself? He'll obsess over trying to prove it beyond hypothetical interactions, because
Even if it is presented as fact to him, it would... take some time for it to fully "click" together in his mind. It still doesn't make sense, but somehow it's... there's reason to believe it is true. Even if he doesn't exactly know what that means, either.
No matter how much he personally wants it to be true, if it doesn't click, he'll chide himself to no end for "misconstructing your intentions." The more he cares about the specifics of your "intentions," the more... erratic he'll grow to be around you over time.
And even then, there's so many different meanings to that one flimsy word, isn't there? Being as literal as possible, you just mean that you care about him to a great degree (which in and of itself is difficult for him to believe, but if it's true, he can't... dispute it, can he?) How is he supposed to know what you're actually referring to? You could mean that you simply greatly value the friendship you have, or that—
... If it isn't clear, you'd have to sit him down and spell it out to him in the most direct and concrete phrasing you can fathom to fully ease his conscience. Which would likely provide more questions that it'd be wise to be prepared to answer, unless you're good on your feet. The first of which being:
"Why?"
Why, because he has to prove you wrong. Because he doesn't want you to be. Because he feels like he'll snap if he can't make sense of this any longer. Because he knows how to answer that for you, but he needs to know how you would answer for him.
Because he needs to know if you mean it.
But... after that, if you can finally manage to get through to him... it would go a lot smoother.
Maybe he'd allow himself to finally enjoy this. Though, it'd take a while longer to figure out what that means.
Alright, mind if I ask about any headcanons for DJ Subatomic Supernova?
Sure!
-Nova was born a girl and identified as a trans man for a lot of their life until they discovered the nonbinary label and started using that. Now they go by He/They
-Even though their parents were always super supportive and open about being accepting, Nova was terrified to come out to them at first. They were working up the confidence to tell their parents only for a now ex-friend to shatter their trust by telling Nova's parents about their identity. This is one of the main reasons Nova has trouble making friends now
-Zimelu was the first 1010 to come out as trans and she ended up telling Nova first because Zimelu was in the same mindset as Nova because she though Neon J would think she was broken. Nova was able to reassure her Neon would love her no matter what
-Though they can talk for hours on end, if someone is good friends with Nova then he will shut up for once and listen to the other person
-Nova sleeps during the day and is awake at night. He goes to sleep around 10 am and wakes up 3 or 4 pm
-Nova can be really bad when it comes to technology. Their whole club is wired so bad that Tatiana had to have it shut down for rewiring once Neon pointed out how much of a fire hazard the whole place was. Same with being messy, Nova's club had fire exits blocked and very narrow hallways
-Their head has some gravity to it, so small bits of dust and debris sometimes makes little rings like Saturn. Yinu and Eve made a bunch of paper stars one time to put in the gravitational pull
-Nova can control their body temperature. Cold during summer and hot during winter. Whatever temperature they need to always wear shorts no matter what the weather is like
-Nova's primary education was absolute garbage until high school. He didn't put any effort into school at all because the school system was so bad he basically knew everything already but was just too lazy to actually do all the work. It wasn't until a passionate substitute science teacher came in and sparked Nova's passion in space that they actually started trying. They easily became valedictorian in high school and then went off to become and astrophysicist
-Because of their different world views, Nova and Neon argue a lot, more than any other NSRtist. Some of their fights have gotten physical but those fights usually happen away from the other members. Only once did the two physically fight in front of the others and Mama immediately grew to restrain both of them while Tatiana screamed at them for being reckless idiots
-Nova is strong enough to carry all five 1010 members. The troops figured this out by tricking Nova into carrying them by playing to their ego and saying he wasn't strong enough to carry them, so Nova showed them he was strong and carried them (Nova did not realize he was tricked until a few days later, 1010 still laughs about it to this day)
-Without realizing it, Nova's music inspired Neon J to get into EDM music. Nova was recently working as a DJ for a small nightclub after leaving their job as a professor and Neon just happened to be in the same nightclub during that time
