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Sakamaki Brothers Jealousy HC’s
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Shū:
• He wouldn’t be as outward with his jealousy, if anything it’d be subdued.
• But if he is jealous, you wouldn’t know it.
• If there’s one thing he’s good at, it’s feigning ignorance and placing a wall.
• Canonically in the HDB and MB Anthropology Manga, Shū gets jealous by stupid things, and is in a sense, comical with it.
• He wouldn’t get fussy like Kanato or Ayato.
• More so annoyed that he’s finding himself attached to someone at this level again.
• All of the boys have a certain level of possessiveness, so it’s not shocking if Shū displays his in lethargic and apathetic fashion.
• He values those close to him, so he wouldn’t want to give away what’s his so quickly. That’s where a lot of the motivation towards being jealous can come from.
Reiji:
• Definitely stern and set with it.
• He takes his jealousy seriously, and wouldn’t want to find himself jealous over anything ‘stupid’ or ‘over the top.’
• Reiji will 100% pull his S/O aside and confront them head on about what bothers him.
• Although, at times he can choose to let it linger, waiting for his S/O to figure out what’s bothering him themselves.
• Almost like a game if anything, all at his S/O’s expense.
• He has no problem with punishing his S/O and blaming them for any unwanted advances or attention being made at them.
• His jealousy is more so triggered by Shū and anything to do with him.
• It sends him into a bit of a frenzy, since it’s all linked to his underlying inferiority complex. Which results in his own diminution of his own talents, which can come off as borderline masochistic.
Ayato:
• You’d know right off the bat if this man was jealous.
• He makes no attempt at concealing his true feelings when it comes to his S/O.
• If he’s upset, don’t be shocked when he does take certain things into his own hands.
• That being, if his S/O is being flirted with in front of him, he has no problem with exhibiting violence to show he possesses someone.
• Ayato is all about possession, and is easily one of the most possessive characters.
• So if he thinks his placement is being threatened, he will react in earnest.
• His jealousy can border the lines of unhealthy and obsessive.
• He’d try his best to resist the urge of marking his prey to showcase his property, but at the end of the day, what good would it do if not even his prey can see the faults?
Kanato:
• Easily one of the most explosive individuals to come into contact with.
• You’re threatening his place in his S/O’s life? It’s like alarms and warning bells going off in his mind.
• Due to his extreme mental instability and heavily implied bipolar disorder, he will switch up instantly if Kanato feels attacked or under heavy scrutiny.
• He has no problem with playing pouty and creating a fuss to appeal towards the ‘lolita’ and ‘cutesy’ side he likes to portray to the outside world.
• But in private? He’s a blamer or victim blamer 100%
• He will pin it all on his S/O, even if the circumstances were unavoidable towards his S/O. Kanato does not care.
• He will get physical. As seen within his routes, he does have temperament issues.
• So even if he does subdue himself from having any physical reactions, his S/O is in no way getting out of the heavy verbal abuse coming their way.
Laito:
• Laito is known to put up a wall, almost like Shū, in terms of concealing his true feelings.
• If he’s jealous, it’ll be in the subtext that one would have to take out to fully understand him.
• Laito is someone who, when jealous, wouldn’t want to admit it.
• With his horrible track record with others, he has a slight fear towards true love and the feelings that come with it.
• So for him being jealous, it would subconsciously tear him apart more than his S/O, if anything. That is, if he was to pursue punishment.
• He’d be sure to make his usual perverse remarks, doing anything to not seek out of the ordinary.
• As seen within his routes, he can switch whenever, keeping the Player and Yui on their toes. Expect that for his S/O.
• He’d keep more of an eye on his S/O, lest he becomes left in the past of his own ghosts and worries. It’ll all come in a full circle with Laito, with whatever he does, he knows to expect it to come back at him. Almost like karma.
Subaru:
• Subaru is quite aggressive. Just as an individual and how he can come off at times with his reactions and over the top emotional moments.
• So he wouldn’t take to it kindly with being placed in a position where he’s to be the jealous one.
• There’s two ways it can go. Either he’s flustered and embarrassed about feeling this type of way for his S/O, or he’s viscerally upset at the notion.
• As an individual, it depends on the situation and if he were to get physical with the person/object that is creating this feeling of jealousy within him.
• He’d subconsciously resent himself for feeling these emotions.
• As if someone like him didn’t have the right to even love, much less feel the need to have ownership over someone who didn’t feel the same way back.
• If he’s questioned about it by his S/O, he’d either respond with anger directed towards them for allowing it, or simply shut off and ignore their complaints/queries.
• Subaru tries to be complicit, but with his internal inferiority complex and hatred towards himself, it acts as a conduit for his conflicting feelings.
He had tried before of course, this was a failed attempt.
Cordelia was supposed to be Eve at least it is assumed, however, Karl found that she had no redeeming qualities and discarded her as a possibility and instead focused on a new way of inventing Eve.
This Adam and Eve project was only created so he could die, at least according to what Cordelia has stated.
He of course needs his sons to obtain power from the sacrificial bride to do this, but each one has not succeded.
Of course, this doesn't mean that Karl hasn't thought of the qualities needed for one to become Eve.
Unmistakably she couldn't have traits or similar qualities to those of any demon race except for having advantages such as supernatural powers.
Apart from this, he presumes Eve to be a woman of good morals, something so pure and selfless.
Yet, he'd have "Eve" be entangled with evil of course for the sake of tradition and following the usual plot we see in terms of biblical stories.
Although he wouldn't go out of his way to selectively choose, since we see that in the show Yui wasn't chosen. At least they claim.
However, the church gave her up which means, church must be doing Karl's bidding.
Assuming this, it doesn't surprise me if Karl has only given his son's church girls since he may believe religious people to be the ones with the best morals and the kindest hearts.
Given the way a good experiment should run, this would be considered a good sample representative if he were selecting a large group. However, the design of his study is much smaller so he wouldn't need a sample. Still his choosing of subjects and participants are coming from a place that would seem most appropriate. He wants someone with good morals he selects people who believe in faith.
And working with the church he asks them to only donate the women who are most pious. Of course, they get something in return for such work.
Thus, this makes Yui a candidate for Karl's absurd experiment.
♪ I’d like to think Shuu relishes in the holidays, especially Christmas.
Sure in the games he says—just like the other boys—that he doesn’t care for it, but deep down he does.
♪ It’s the feeling of nostalgia and peace he finds cathartic in realizing that just for a day, a small moment, he and his family can play house.
And sure, playing “house” does have its downsides—hence why he isn’t all for the act—the holidays brings out a side of him that many wouldn’t think to be possible. Especially for someone as reserved, withdrawn, and apathetic as Shuu.
For a moment—one could even describe him as human with his true love for Christmas.
♪ Even if they all know it won’t last, and once the clock strikes 12 it’ll all be over like some fairytale: don’t be surprised when you see Shuu sitting on his signature couch, lounging about by the fire place, listening to the crackles and basking in the soft aureate glow from the tree lights and lanterns plastered on the wall, with a small smile creeping up on his lips, as his sapphire eyes glisten with a comforting touch once his brothers open gifts and glee with excitement.
♪ That’s what keeps him going. The childlike innocence in the profound realization that this is what living was made for. All for the small, trinket sized moments he can softly admire like a pretty marble in his hand, softly turning it around should he wish.
♪ He’s also definitely a great gift giver.
♪ Since the boy is so attentive, even without trying, he catches onto the small things people mention—even in light mundane conversation. It makes for a good party trick when he outdoes everyone every year for the sheer amount of gifts he gives.
♪ In fact, one year, the Sakamaki boys were shocked to see how crazy the gift giving got—with each boy receiving 8-10 presents each. Not including the stocking stuffers and the advent calendars Shuu invested in.
♪ Shuu loves decorating too—it’s the best part of the holiday and he WILL fight Reiji if the boy even so much dares to disrupt his artistic vision.
(Newsflash—Shuu always gets his way and it looks like it came out of a Dr. Seuss children’s book every time. Shuu will NEVER compromise on nostalgia. Never.)
♪ Seriously, the boy goes all out and by Christmas you’ll see the large 30 ft tree, reaching the ceilings with that golden shining star, with mountains of gifts on the bottom, threatening to fall in its sheer grandeur.
♪ Since Shuu has so much money to spend, spending it on others gives him more gratification and self fulfillment in knowing he can make others smile—in a way, healing his inner child when being devoid of all things “fun” and “childish” due to his position as Heir to The Throne™️.
He’s 100% like Emily from Pretty Little Liars and her disposition towards Christmas.
♪ Shuu doesn’t mind not receiving any gifts. All he cares about is knowing that he can spend actual quality time with others. After all, with all the money in the world at your disposal what don’t you have?
♪ He’s not much of a baker, but if need be he’ll indulge in it just for the spirit, despite not having so much of a sweet tooth.
♪ You’ll see him with some hot cocoa though, 100%.
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Mukami Jealousy HC’s
Ruki:
• Ruki canonically does get outward with his jealousy.
• As seen with Yui in his MB routes, he even gets jealous of not being the first man Yui’s tied a tie for. (The first being her adoptive father.)
• He’d leave it off for a moment, but would give crazy hints towards it.
• It would be in the small stuff. Like washing dishes, leaving small things out that may be pertinent, etc. But he'd become cold and a bit distant without that clarification.
• He would 100% wait in private to confront an S/O about it.
• I’d like to think that even with his jealousy, he’s still aware of his image towards the public eye.
• So you would’ve catch him doing anything too risky. Just enough to ensure the point gets across.
• He would, uncharacteristically of him, act in an almost fussy manner.
• Like he’d 100% keep it, and hold it against you for future references.
• Like with some slight fussiness, expect the silent brooding. He will not say anything more after the jealousy, since he tends to keep his emotions bottled inside before it manifests into something greater.
• Don't be shocked if he returns back to old ways with his subtle manipulation to get the answer he wants. He'll remind his S/O of their dynamic- master and pet/livestock.
Kou:
• Kou is also a double sided person when it comes to this, as seen with his reactions towards Yui in canon. (A good display that is universal is the anime.)
• He's very attention-seeking, especially with his time as an idol. So he may act sweet to you in front of a crowd. but behind closed doors he won't shy away from aggression.
• In comparison to all of the Mukami's, he'd have the most outward, emotional outbursts.
• As in, he'd hit, push, shove, and inflict pain upon his S/O, same way he did Yui in many routes, to establish that he's the sole one for S/O.
• His anger may not be as raging as Yuma's, but one can say that they could be at a somewhat equal playing field.
• He'll question his S/O a lot in terms of their truth and true feelings towards him. He'll become much more curious than the cat.
• If anything, the curiosity is rooted in annoyance, mainly to see if he's the one being played or deceived.
• Kou's 100% one for passive-aggressive behaviour. It's all a play and game to him.
• It'll be seen in his off-hand comments, that you'll get the idea of where he stands.
• It's all done due to his underlying fear of losing his S/O's affection.
Yūma:
• Yuma by far has the most explosive anger out of all the brothers.
• His uncanny size and strength is definitely used and in play here.
• Out of everyone, he values loyalty the most, and thus, will be seen as much more 'straight-forward' or blunt with his wants and feelings. Mainly aggression here.
• He'd use his size to intimidate the individuals that are attempting to pursue his S/O, as seen in some of his routes with Yui.
• He doesn't mind getting physical, however it's more so used to intimidate.
• If he does use force, it's to tug and drag his S/O away from the situation or to display his need for his S/O's attention in that given moment.
• But don't be shocked if he does unintentionally, or intentionally, scare his S/O with his anger and possible outbursts.
• He is hot headed and tempered, so sometimes it'll take control before he can find reason within himself.
• Yuma also has his jealousy manifest as emotional vulnerability. It's slight, but he's more prone to find himself revealing more and opening up about himself.
• Either in an attempt to get his S/O closer to him, or due to his own need to express how it makes him uncomfortable.
• He'd use it also as an attempt to be more protective with his protective instincts.
• As in, he'll be around his S/O more. Like standing in line with them when he doesn't need to, being in personal space, etc.
Azusa:
• Azusa isn't the type to get jealous as easily as the others per say.
• If he does, it's much more subtle and it'll go back to his self-loathing tendencies.
• As in, he'll feel worse about himself and perhaps take the self-harm route. Since that's his way of coping and 'helping' with his issues.
• He's much more fragile than the others, so it'll always end with his S/O needing to reassure him of his worth in comparison to other men/women, etc.
• Like he'd constantly compare himself and it would, at the end of the day, make him feel even worse than he already did. Especially with his tendency to overthink.
• Since he isn't as large, assertive, or blunt with himself as an individual, his insecurity will take over as he pleads with his S/O to keep him.
• Cue the hyper-dependency, especially seen with Yui in some of his routes.
• He will beg, and become overall submissive. Expect more of his usual submissive behaviours.
• If it comes down to it, he will become a slave, due to his heavy masochistic side, which at times overrides his sadistic.
• If he were to stay with his S/O, he wouldn't be so confrontational as everything he leads with is laced in self-doubt and worry. If anything, he'd be nervous because he wouldn't ever want to lose his S/O, no matter the cost.
🕸️ The king’s tastes would be centered around anyone with a loose resemblance or uncanny resemblance towards his favourite wife, Christa.
🕸️ As much as he wouldn’t like to admit it, he finds himself drawn to people like Christa, that is, before he’d drive them to a state of ruin.
🕸️ The idea of purity somewhat turns him on (purity kink? — perhaps where Laito got it from, besides his mother).
🕸️ He sometimes mourns what could have been with Christa, and obsessively looks for a replicate as he’s torn her apart.
🕸️ Cue this new sacrificial bride.
🕸️ He isn’t one to interfere with his plan, especially with how much he is banking on The Adam and Eve working. Not only for him, but the entirety of Makai and its races/clans.
🕸️ But this new bride, all he can see is Christa.
🕸️ Or someone who can be perfectly molded into her. Perhaps a bit defiant, maybe docile with a bit of a natural nurturing edge.
🕸️ Someone who can reek of purity whilst their existence being the farthest thing from it.
🕸️ It was no secret that Christa was one of— or in fact— the pillar of beauty in vampiric society. Karlheinz, knowing this, had to have the best by his side. As the king shall have the best, and the king will get whatever he wants and so desires.
🕸️ He’s learned that his desires have clouded his judgement, in terms of wrecking Christa’s sanity far to the point of traumatizing their child— or his favourite child.
🕸️ So in a sense, this new bride is like a redemption. In a way to rewrite what has been written, and learn from his previous error.
🕸️ Karlheinz definitely enjoys learning about religion and outer worldly concepts. One could say he’s obsessed with them.
🕸️ As in, if he has a bride from the church, he’d want to know how far the conditioning went, and what drove them to not question further.
🕸️ The bride he’d be most into would have uncanny or rather peculiar interests.
🕸️ Something to do with moths. 100% the fluttering critters of the shadows.
🕸️ Or at least bugs and critters.
🕸️ He’d treat the bride to his wealth, of course.
🕸️ As if it was the only thing he could offer, he’d be invested in making this poor church child into a brand new noble.
🕸️ Almost like a saviour complex (?) But more so in the sense of having a new pet project that’s equally as invested in this as he is.
🕸️ So as a testament or a way of marking the bride as his, jewellery, clothing— anything and everything is a must.
🕸️ However, soon some would start to make the association that the jewellery and article of clothing choices are pushed towards a specific… almost memorable direction. As if it’s evoking nostalgia.
🕸️ Subaru would be the first to realize it, as one would. Any child would remember their mothers shadow. Especially that of a broken one.
🕸️ Jewelry would be worn similarly, (the pearls, white gold, diamonds, and the pearls—) then clothing would match the flowy, almost translucent, tops, dresses, even nightgowns, the late Christa preferred.
🕸️ It would drive Subaru crazy.
🕸️ Karlheinz is easily one of the most powerful beings in Makai, even revered to as a god. So for him to shockingly find a larger interest in someone, a human for that matter, it would turn heads.
🕸️ Due to his canonical interest in humans, even border-lining obsessive (stated by Shuu,) Karlheinz wanting a personal pet staying alongside him would be a definite.
🕸️ As in, the bride would be almost too hyper aware of their place, especially as a walking, talking, breathing blood bag.
🕸️ I’d like to think that Karl can act almost aloof and carefree, kind of like those trigger happy, sarcastic, memorable TV show dads, should he wish. (We see this in Chaos Lineage [CL] in canon, and his interactions with Socrates, the ghost.)
🕸️ A lot of his carefree, resigned, giddy personality shines through with this bride.
🕸️ After all, being held to one too many expectations from both vampiric society and your own family can be tiring.
🕸️ I’d like to think that the bride is like a safe haven for a release of some sort, either out of duties or the rigorous persona he must upkeep.
🕸️ He’d most certainly share a few glasses of wine (or more?) with the bride. Taking the time to unwind in the fanciest of places. Only fit for that of a king, like himself.
🕸️ I feel as thought he’d enjoy learning more about the human, along with telling stories of his past throughout the thousands of years he’s lived.
🕸️ In a sense, it’s like the two both mutually benefit from having an access to information and conformed familiarity.
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Included Topics: General, Looks, Hair, Body, Skincare, Makeup, Voice, Mentality, Family, Brides/Yui, Academics, Fashion, Magic & Bag.
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⇘ : : [General]
🕯️ He has an uncanny interest in death and dead bodies. (Canon fact.)
🕯️ He likes watching Reiji bake. The way he so skillfully moves his fingers, and how he never questions his movements is fascinating.
🕯️ He listens to Melanie Martinez and Malice Mizer.
🕯️ He worked as Karlheinz’s secretary for a few years, starting when he was 13. He stopped when he was 16.
🕯️ People in the Royal Court really liked him, and Karlheinz liked having a, in his words, ‘pretty thing’ next to him in every meeting.
🕯️ Cordelia also worked as Karlheinz’s secretary when she first met him, before having an arranged marriage. She was a minor, while he was well into his 20’s. (Canon fact that he groomed her.)
🕯️ As in, he definitely enjoys when he cross-dresses. Much to Kanato’s displeasure.
🕯️→ It’s already established how horrible Karlheinz is, so I wouldn’t put it past him to do something like that.
🕯️ Kanato sometimes uses his looks to his advantage, such as getting things for free since people assume he’s a girl. Some of the things people bought him for free: drinks, clothing, makeup, jewelry, food, whatever it may be.
🕯️ Him acting like a deer in the headlights also helps get him out of trouble.
🕯️ Call it pretty privilege.
🕯️ Once he and Ayato were trespassing and when an officer came up to them, he used his charms to get them both out of trouble.
🕯️→ “Oi! You two, hands where I can see them.” The officer blared his flashlight at the two siblings, their eyes squinting from the sudden blindness. Ayato groaned, putting up his hands, “Ugh, what is it?”
🕯️→ Kanato slowly put his hands down, looking at the officer with big doe eyes, batting his eyelids slowly, “Oh! I’m so sorry officer… you see me and my brother got lost! I happened to drop my ring while we were here… and… I couldn’t find it.”
🕯️→ The officer stared at Kanato, his severe demeanour softening as he was temporarily struck by the innocent charm that radiated from him. “Lost, huh?” he mumbled, his voice no longer harsh. “Well, you two ought to have taken greater caution. Trespassing is a serious offense.”
🕯️→ Kanato nodded earnestly, his act of innocence unwavering. “Yes, officer, we understand,” he replied softly, his voice laced with feigned sincerity. “We'll be more careful next time, I promise.”
🕯️→ Ayato rolled his eyes, but remained silent as the officer sighed, shaking his head. “Alright, just make sure you don’t come back here again,” he warned, before turning to leave. “And find that ring quickly. We don’t want anyone else getting into trouble over it.”
🕯️→ As the officer left, Kanato let out a sigh of relief. “That was close.” Ayato turned to face Kanato, a smirk playing on his lips. “Too close, also–”
🕯️→ “Not another word,” Kanato interrupted sharply, shooting Ayato a warning glance. Ayato chuckled, raising his hands in surrender. “Alright then,” he knew better than to push his luck with Kanato when he was in one of his moods.
🕯️ Kanato often wonders about the possibility of going missing. It’s a fantasization of his to see if anyone truly cared about him. He’d also want to know if he’d make it out alive. It’s one of those dark thoughts that come up every once in a while, more so when he’s doing the dishes.
🕯️ He definitely has one of those girl blogger accounts.
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⇘ : : [Looks]
🕯️ Kanato is obsessive about his appearance.
🕯️ From afar you wouldn’t guess it, but Kanato cares a lot about his image, he wants every single thing about his appearance to be perfect.
🕯️ He has a set image that he was to adhere to 24/7 and if just one thing is off he’ll spiral. (Think of Reiji with absolutely anything, but multiply it by 100x. It’s that bad.)
🕯️ Kanato has very soft feminine features.
🕯️ His obsession started because of his mother, who valued her looks along with his. Also partially influenced by those around him in the Royal Court, who at first glance, would identify the similarities between the two.
🕯️ In fact, Karlheinz would be skeptical for a bit of Kanato’s true gender, finding it uncanny with the parallels surrounding his first wife and 4th son. He’d treat Kanato as a girl despite knowing later on that he isn’t.
🕯️ This would partially add to Kanato’s slight (not really slight) insecurity of not being seen as ‘man enough’ or atleast a boy.
🕯️ Since he looks the most like Cordelia, she would keep him on a strict regime so as to not ‘ruin her name.’
🕯️ Kanato’s desired image depicts a doll. He wants so badly to look and feel like a doll. In the sense that it’s hauntingly ethereal, and those who cast their gaze upon him are forced to stop and stare.
🕯️ Almost like his mother, but part of him knows he doesn’t want anyone to see him in that sort of light. Just in the way that they can’t take their eyes off him, and are filled with envy of how surreal he is.
🕯️ He wants his very entity to invoke a sense of surrealism. As if he came out of a 1900’s portrait, and just looking at him gives off an ‘out of body’ experience.
🕯️ He prides himself dearly on his looks, but that also has its limitations. (Semi-canon fact.)
🕯️ Sometimes, he wonders how his life would be if he were to look more like his first cousins-once removed (Shin and Carla) and brothers. Would his mother still take pride in him the same way?
🕯️ Because of him gaining Cordelia’s features, many upon first meeting assume he’s a girl. He gets upset at this, but other times he’d leave it be and proceed to accept it as a compliment.
🕯️ He’s also pretty short, especially compared to his brothers, so the shock factor from others when discovering he’s a boy also adds to the whole ‘Kanato Experience.’
🕯️ TW!! He is used to being catcalled and harassed because of his looks. These are the moments where he wonders if it’s a curse or a blessing to look so much like his mother.
🕯️ TW!! Due to this, he understands both perspectives, both men and women, and has slight empathy towards their struggles. (Slight. As this is still Kanato we’re talking about.)
🕯️ TW!! But he has only felt true fear when he was placed in a situation where he happened to be barricaded and incapable of fighting them off. He wondered how he was so powerless, as his hands shook and his body trembled. How he was so quick to become prey instead of the predator.
🕯️ TW!! He’s had some close calls of being assaulted, especially with the majority of men who are physically larger and stronger than him, but has been saved by older women and couples.
🕯️ TW!! After this happens, he is usually filled with feelings of resentment and self-loathing. Such as → ‘Why was I so weak? I am no mortal.’ and ‘If the others saw me, they’d call me pathetic– I was pathetic.’
🕯️ TW!! Kanato would rather die or skin himself alive than admit he’d been placed in such a situation far too many times for his liking. With countless close calls at that. He wouldn’t want to be seen as a victim like Laito, and definitely not be doted on with the focus of his weakness being called into question.
🕯️ Because of this, on his days out into the town/out of the house, he carries pepper spray and a small retractable pink combat knife. Just in case his vampiric strength isn’t enough.
🕯️ Slight TW!! Kanato has been catcalled by Ayato and Laito, before the former two would realize and profusely apologize for mistaking him for a girl. It was embarrassing when he happened to be at the dessert cafe he particularly enjoys in Vandead Carnival, picking up macaroons for Laito and him, when his two brothers started hitting on him out of nowhere.
🕯️ Ayato would initially not talk to him for a week, making a point to avoid him in every single room they both happened to enter, before Kanato would throw his Teddy at him.
🕯️ Laito on the other hand, would laugh it off. But inside he’d somewhat hate himself and think back to the similarities towards Kanato and their mother. It’d make him feel more uncomfortable if anything.
🕯️ Upon first meeting, the Mukami’s would assume Kanato was a girl as well. They’d find out the hard way when Kanato rejects both Yūma and Kou’s advances and Ayato pipes in to get them away from his brother.
🕯️→ “Oi! Kanato ain’t a girl, that’s my brother, you half-blooded creeps!”
🕯️→ “Didn’t you and Laito also mistake him for some chick…?” Shuu would retort, causing the former to go silent and red, while Laito waves his hands dismissively, giving small uncomfortable chuckles.
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⇘ : : [Hair]
🕯️ He prides himself on his purple hair (Canon fact.)
🕯️ His hair is kept at a medium length, sometimes reaching his collarbone.
🕯️ Kanato trims his hair every month.
🕯️ He has a step by step hair care routine.
🕯️ He washes his hair 1-2 times a week.
🕯️His hair is naturally silky smooth, however it’s more flat in comparison to having volume (smooth > volume, flat > fluffy.)
🕯️ Shockingly, out of the triplets he has the best hygiene, even going as far to rival Reiji in that department.
🕯️ He likes to smell like strawberries and vanilla. The light, cute scents that many associate with those girls from shoujo mangas. He absolutely adores it.
🕯️ He owns high grade shampoo, conditioner, hair masks, hair oils, and even purple shampoo just in case his natural colour lightens even more to his dismay.
🕯️ He makes sure to wash, shampoo and condition his hair correctly, ensuring that he doesn’t get back acne or neck acne from leaving the product to suck into the skin.
🕯️ It’s one of his pet peeves to have acne there, and also upsets him greatly when feeling an unnecessary bump on his ‘need to be’ smooth porcelain skin.
🕯️ Kanato takes an ‘everything shower’ every end of the month, which includes him staying in the shower for 2-3 hours on end, deeply perfecting everything.
🕯️ This heavily annoys the others, as he tends to take long, hot, excruciating showers which drains the hot water and ups the water bill each month. (To Shuu and Reiji’s dismay.)
🕯️ But make no mistake, Kanato benefits from the hot steam of the shower in comparison to just submerging his entire body in it. If he did, his entire body would be pruned up. Not a good look for his tastes.
🕯️ His hair used to be darker, a more accurate colour match to Cordelia’s, but overtime due to stress, it lightened.
🕯️ He prides his hair— and so does his mother. On most nights when she wasn’t dealing with Laito, she’d stay in his room, make Kanato sit in front of his vanity on his chair, and brush his hair.
🕯️ It was an intimate moment for the two of them where their relationship grew. Oftentimes she’d take solace in these moments and reveal information about herself that no one else would hear. And Kanato would listen.
🕯️ It was like their own little secret. Their thing that nobody else could take away from them.
🕯️ This is where Kanato would find his likability to being seen as and called ‘a doll.’
🕯️ Cordelia would oftentimes refer to him as her doll or just the nickname ‘doll.’
🕯️→ “My little doll, you’re like Mommy when you’re quiet like this.”
🕯️→ “Am I, Mother?”
🕯️→ Cordelia would smile fondly, “Most definitely. You’re lucky to look like me, you know? Who else would dare to pay attention to you or your talents otherwise.”
🕯️→ Kanato would turn his head when he noticed his mother stop, the brush still clutched in her hands. He met her eyes, “I am?”
🕯️→ She’d put the brush down on the vanity, motioning towards the mirror where the two saw their reflection. Emerald green and pure lilac glew, its prominent glow reflecting off the mirror in the dark room, causing the latter to blink for good measure. Kanato would focus diligently, watching for what his mother had to say next. “Yes. Would you like to know a secret, doll?”
🕯️→ He’d nod, “You’ve always been my favourite. Your brothers just don’t have what I and everyone else sees in you.” His eyes would sparkle at that comment, leaving Cordelia to play with his hair.
🕯️→ “I’m… Mommy’s favourite?” The woman smiled, moving her hand to caress her son’s face, the looking glass delaying, “You will always be Mommy’s favourite.”
🕯️ He would never tell anyone of those nights, especially her admittance to him being her favourite. It was one of the secrets he’d take to the grave.
🕯️→ (This reminded me of the audio on TikTok: My father is the worst person in the world; and I’m his favourite daughter.)
🕯️ After Cordelia died, he’d sometimes hold his hair and play with it the same way she did to remember the fond memories and secrets they’ve shared.
🕯️ After his makeup routine, he would style his hair accordingly.
🕯️ He normally lets his hair air dry, mainly to prevent heat damage.
🕯️ But in the slight occurrence he absolutely has to use a hairdryer, he will.
🕯️ He always brushes his hair every time before bed, and in the morning. Exactly 12 strokes each time. Don’t ask. He simply thought the number was perfect for his hair and always does the trick every time.
🕯️ His hair doesn’t usually tangle.
🕯️ Kanato uses mousse on his hair when he wants the definition of volume. After this, he’d style his side bangs accordingly.
🕯️ Sometimes he’d clip his side bangs to the side with his cute clips. The girls at school love this. They eat it up every time. Some even ask for hair tips as his hair is always shiny and well kept.
🕯️ He always has a comb in his bag, just in case if his hair gets messy. He also keeps portable, travel sized, hair care products.
🕯️ You know those hair gel glue sticks mainly used for fly aways? He 100% uses them and brings them in his small bag everywhere he goes. He can’t stand the fact that if one thing is wrong, it’ll tear him apart.
🕯️ Kanato absolutely hates frizzy hair. He does everything to prevent it. Another reason why he isn’t as fond of the rain, it messes up his hair.
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⇘ : : [Body]
🕯️ Kanato has a slim body.
🕯️ Almost like the ballerina type, but more towards the feminine side of things.
🕯️ He has long legs, with his torso being a bit more shorter than he’d like. All of this adds to the doll vibe he wants, though.
🕯️ His neck isn’t that long, and his head is an appropriate size (in his opinion.)
🕯️ He’s more bony if anything, due to his unhealthy tendencies.
🕯️ His ribcage can almost be seen, but that doesn’t stop the fact that his waist is still defined.
🕯️ Put simply, he has a bony version of an hourglass figure. There’s fat, but it’s heavily set on the ‘almost anorexic’ side of the scale, especially defined by doctors and the countless physicians that have attended him.
🕯️ When comparing his mother and him, she really shines when comparing their bodies. It’s like that’s the one thing the genes had to dominate. If he were a woman, their bodies would be exactly the same. Only major difference is Kanato lacks the fat on his body.
🕯️ It freaks him out sometimes with how skin tight his body happens to appear. But that also gratifies him. Knowing that whatever it is he’s doing is working, makes for a great remedy in a psychotic episode.
🕯️ Kanato really is almost like skin and bones. It does add to the living doll thing, though.
🕯️ His collarbone is quite defined, along with his broad-set shoulders.
🕯️ His complexion is quite fair.
🕯️ He doesn’t have any known birthmarks to him, his skin is like a blank canvas.
🕯️ His favourite part of his body are his hands and lips. There’s just something about the fragility of the two that intrigue him.
🕯️ He loves the natural curve of his lips, the way that it can easily be rosier by biting it or putting more product on it.
🕯️ It’s obsessive the way he tends to his lips. Always subjecting it to lip scrubs, and moistures. He really likes the way they perfect his face.
🕯️ Kanato’s hands. Where to begin? He likes the way they’re thin and long. Not too long, that would freak him out. But just enough to allow him to examine them in a deeper context.
🕯️ He does his best to not bruise them as bad, and if he were to, he’d want to have a contrast of red and pink splotches on his knuckles. He absolutely loves the contrast of the fair skin to the bruised bits. That goes for anyone.
🕯️ His nails are always maintained. Always done. Either professionally or himself, he can’t catch himself falling short of his list of long expectations for himself.
🕯️ They’re always filed nicely, and he always keeps his cuticles pushed back.
🕯️ It’s always a medium length, perfect if he needed to open anything, pick a lock, or defend himself. He especially likes when he sees the damage his nails can cause his victims.
🕯️ What he doesn’t like is cleaning the dried up blood from his nails. He hates the dirt and grime, but alas such pleasures do have consequences.
🕯️ Speaking of, he normally paints his nails. Like you’ll never see him without painted nails. If they aren’t painted, someone call the ambulance immediately.
🕯️ Kanato usually paints them sheer colours. Queue the jelly nail polish. He loves the pink ones, and how it delivers contrasts to his sickly pale hands.
🕯️ He’ll do other colours, and even full ones but you’ll definitely see this boy with his signature pink.
🕯️ He’ll even go as far as adding glitter. He loves the sparkly look, it reminds him of what he majorly missed out as a child.
🕯️ Kanato has 2 ear piercings. One on both ears for his central lobe, the other on both ears as a helix.
🕯️ This was because he was pressured by Ayato and Laito to get another piercing and ‘live a little.’ They used it as a bonding exercise.
🕯️ Kanato likes to act like he hates it, but secretly he enjoys the variety of earring combinations he can experiment with.
🕯️ He mainly goes for diamond glittery earrings that don’t dangle as much. Mainly studs. However if it was a special event, then he’d have more of a statement earring in.
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⇘ : : [Skincare]
🕯️ He has a set skincare routine.
🕯️ He does his skin care every night. He never misses a day.
🕯️ Kanato has dry skin, but not as sensitive.
🕯️ He usually uses moisturizers to hydrate his skin, followed by a hydrating serum which is notably his favourite part of his routine. He likes the way he can squeeze the tube connected to the cap of the bottle, how squishy and malleable it is.
🕯️ Also the way the serum falls on his face, he has no idea why that particularly catches his attention, but he’s fine with it nonetheless.
🕯️ Kanato despises his eye bags, loathes it even, so you know he’s dead-set on doing everything possible to get rid of them, or atleast make them not as noticeable. They really hinder with the whole ‘doll-look’ he’s trying to viciously obtain. Queue the eye cream and patches.
🕯️ Shockingly, they do wonders. And anything that isn’t as covered is covered by his makeup routine (mainly his colour correcting concealer and skin-tint light coverage foundation.)
🕯️ He has very clear skin, and rarely gets acne/pimples. He is only second to having the best skin out of his brothers, the first being Shuu.
🕯️ The skin care he uses is bought in small quantities, the only thing he regularly buys in bulk are his eye cream and patches.
🕯️ He always starts his skincare routine by drenching his face in an ice-cold ice bath for 10 minutes, to reduce any puffiness he might have.
🕯️ Kanato wears contacts most days, only resorting to his glasses if he absolutely has to. His glasses are black cat eye framed. He used to have a rose gold frame but he didn’t like how washed out it made his skin.
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⇘ : : [Makeup]
🕯️ He uses makeup 100% (How else will he keep up his doll-like image?)
🕯️ He never needs to use any high coverage foundation considering that his skin is quite clear. He uses a light coverage skin-tint.
🕯️ Considering that his complexion is more on the gray-side, he makes it a point to go outside in the sun more often without his umbrella.
🕯️ Because of this, he uses products with shade ranges that keep his very fair skin satiated.
🕯️ Kanato’s concealer usage mainly goes to colour correcting and removing his eye bags. Everything else is fine in his eyes, it’s just his over dramatic, very dragged out and accentuated eye bags that make his face feel dragged out.
🕯️ His contouring is quite limited, as he only applies his contour stick to accentuate his jaw, nose, and forehead. He’s satisfied with a softer approach as he prefers softer features in comparison to sharper.
🕯️ This goes for both himself, and any sacrificial bride/potential love interest he’d set his eyes on.
🕯️ He uses press powder. Kanato loves dipping his cushion into the powder, pushing and dabbing it onto his face and watching as some of the dust would collect around him in the air.
🕯️ It’s like those old movies he’d watch with his brothers when they were younger, where the woman would enjoy having their makeup montage. It’s that satisfaction that allows him to revel in his routine.
🕯️ Once he’s finished with that, his blush takes the center stage. He uses a moderately tinted blush, but uses only a small limited amount so as to not overpower his facial symmetry. It also tends to bring colour to his face and make him feel ‘alive’ so it’s extra important he gets it right.
🕯️ Kanato also uses the powder blush found in the palettes.
🕯️ He once tried liquid blush but instantly hated it as he could never get the timing right for how much he needed. Palette is much easier, safer, and plus, he enjoys seeing the product collect on the makeup brush, and tapping it ever so slightly for pan fallout.
🕯️ His eyes. His absolute favourite part of doing his makeup every single time is the eye makeup. From eyeshadow, to mascara, to the eyeliner. It’s perfection.
🕯️ He starts with his eyeshadow. He usually uses K-Beauty, considering that the K-Pop idols there have great taste for the glittery glam he’s looking for. It ranges from what he’s feeling, but most of the time you’ll see him with small copious amounts of glitter adorning his eyelids.
🕯️ And it’s always perfection, seriously, he never misses. It’s often a fan favourite with the girls at school.
🕯️ Kanato would start with a base colour, blending it with another before adding the small glitter adornments. He usually drifts towards soft pinks, but will use the pastels for blue and purple.
🕯️ He never uses any of the brighter/riskier colours/shades. He prefers the softer, more pastel colours that add to his appeal. The browns/neutrals are okay too.
🕯️ Next, his eyeliner. He tends to go for the middle ground. He has great precision, and always hits the mark on the first try. A signature cat-eyeliner is something he’d never dare to leave the house without.
🕯️ For his lids, he uses liquid liner. For his water line, both top and bottom, a crayon/kajol based mixture. He does this to lessen the load of his already big eyes.
🕯️ On the top, he strictly uses black. On the bottom? A combination of black and white to obtain his doll look. Near his inner corner close to his nose, he adds more white, then it blends as he reaches a half-way point before he transitions to black.
🕯️ Admittedly, it was a lot of trial and error but once he got the hang of it, he looked more like a doll than he did bare-faced.
🕯️ Finally, his mascara. He tends to use a waterproof mascara because of his tantrums. In the past he tried other colours than black, but found that he didn’t like them as much as the effect black had on him.
🕯️ Also good to note that his eyelashes are long. Like you’d assume he got them done, but then be shocked that it’s all natural. Definitely one of the points many girls are jealous of.
🕯️ Since his lips aren’t as rosy as he’d like them, he uses lip tints and red-pink lip glosses. Sometimes he’d go the matte look with his lips, others he enjoys the pop of lip gloss.
🕯️ It’s a pet peeve to have chapped lips. He hates it. Doesn’t matter who has them, it’s hatred all around. Because of this, he keeps extra chapstick (strawberry flavoured, obviously) for his brothers when he sees them.
🕯️→ “Eh? What’s this, Kanato?” Laito would ponder, seeing the chapstick being thrust into his hands and a bratty Kanato turning his head away to face the walls of the limo. His arms crossed across his chest as if to prove his point further.
🕯️→ “Your lips. Fix it.” Laito would raise an eyebrow, moving his gaze to examine the chapstick. A smirk would grow as he read the label. ‘Strawberry-flavoured.’
🕯️→ “Whatever is the matter with my–” Kanato would turn his body, glaring at him before moving closer to Laito. “This is the problem. Please, fix it immediately,” Kanato would retort, pressing a gloved finger to Laito’s chipping lips, hoping to accentuate his dire point.
🕯️→ “Oh? My, I had no idea you were so bold, Kanato!” Laito would chuckle, as he watched his younger brother bat his eyes in confusion before a slight blush creeped up on his face. His frustration building too, no doubt.
🕯️→ “Laito. Now.” He was now back to his seating, and after a few minutes of uncomfortable silence, Laito would give in.
🕯️→ He’d take off the cap, take in the potent strawberry scent and apply the chapstick to his lips, instantly hydrating and moistening them. Kanato would look back, huffing contently before a sly remark would slip by Laito’s lips, “Mmm, strawberry! How delightful.” A pause, “Is this your subtle way of admitting you’ve been dreaming about kissing me, dear brother?”
🕯️→ Kanato’s eyes would widen, “Huh? Don’t be absurd.”
🕯️→ “Hm, your loss~” Laito flicked his tongue, tasting some of the strawberry flavour.
🕯️ Kanato would then apply his highlighter. Always blended in, mainly on the tip of his nose, cheeks, and inner corners of his eyes. It’s a white iridescent highlighter, but sometimes he’d use a light pink tinted one if he runs out.
🕯️ His setting spray is light, making it easy for him to not feel as overstimulated.
🕯️ He always carries the travel sized perfume bottles in his bag so he’ll be well prepared, especially after gym class. He isn’t fond of smelling bad.
🕯️ Strawberry or vanilla is his go to. But many would report him smelling a fond strawberry, making that his signature scent.
🕯️ He always cleans his makeup brushes every 2-3 weeks. He hates the idea of any bacteria or dirt ruining his face.
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⇘ : : [Voice]
🕯️ He has a lighter/higher voice compared to the others, which he definitely hates (but sometimes is at peace with.)
🕯️ It’s the type that can be light and airy, almost like a girl, but have that small bit of depth when frustrated.
🕯️ Make no mistake, it’s higher than most, which causes him to be mistaken for a girl a lot. (That is, without the looks.)
🕯️ Due to his childhood, his vocal chords are most definitely strained.
🕯️ As in, he’s a few steps away from becoming mute. But this doesn’t stop him from letting one of his soul-crushing screams out. (Which undoubtedly, adds pressure to his throat, which makes it unbearable hot and sometimes itchy.)
🕯️ In fact, he was forced to sing until his vocal chords started to bleed, filling his mouth and throat with his own blood which definitely tore tissues apart. (Canon fact.)
🕯️ Sometimes his voice gives out, making him choose silence and only stepping in when he thinks he absolutely has to.
🕯️ Despite what most think, Ayato and Laito do listen to him in hopes of keeping the peace.
🕯️ They even take his opinion into account because if Kanato is the voice of reason, then there’s definitely something off and they need to reevaluate themselves.
🕯️ Kanato drinks a lot of herbal teas, it’s normal for Laito or Reiji (mostly Laito) to make him some because of his strained vocal chords.
🕯️ Kanato prefers lavender and honey teas, always with 2 and a half sugar cubes. Must be hot but never piping hot to the point where he’ll burn his tongue.
🕯️ He hates burning his tongue while drinking teas. It makes him have somewhat of a lisp and Ayato teases him about not being careful enough.
🕯️ He will notice if the tea is not exactly to his liking. If not immediately.
🕯️ Ayato once tried to make him his tea, and before tasting it, he could smell that something was off. He didn’t add the specific ‘half’ of the sugar cube. Kanato was upset and refused to talk to Ayato for a week, while Ayato profusely apologized since he knew it was a very sore subject.
🕯️→ (Empathetic as always, Ayato.)
🕯️ Kanato and Reiji regularly drink tea together in the living room, or in Reiji’s office. It’s the one time where Reiji notably enjoy’s Kanato’s company as he isn't as psychotic as he normally comes across. He’s tame, relaxed, and soothed.
🕯️ Reiji unconsciously finds himself comforted and reveals some of his internal turmoil whilst in Kanato’s presence. There’s just something about the gentle, relaxing presence of Kanato that seems to soothe everyone in the room. As if he can control the entire energy and mood of a room whilst he’s in this state.
🕯️ Since they’re always together, Laito will become his voice (talk for Kanato) when he cannot, especially when he’s nervous to talk to someone new/foreign to him.
🕯️ Kanato’s vocal range is very versatile.
🕯️ He can sing in very high tones, accomplishing high notes with a smooth, steady, and clear confidence.
🕯️ Ever since the accident with his strained vocal chords, he doesn’t sing as much as he used to.
🕯️ However, if you saw him in his prime, you’d be filled with envy and shock in an instant.
🕯️ His singing voice was powerful, it could be light, shrill, and gentle, but also accomplish heightened feats.
🕯️ He and Shuu did a joint performance at a ball, Shuu played the piano, and Kanato sang whilst sitting atop of the piano. Shuu secretly still has a recording of this performance, unbeknownst to Kanato, and listens to it when he wants to be calmed.
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⇘ : : [Mentality]
IMMENSE TW HERE!!
🕯️ He has severe attachment issues.
🕯️ Kanato keeps a large assortment of stuffed toys, each with their own distinct name and personality. He’s afraid that if a person were to leave him, he wouldn’t be able to cope, thus turning to inanimate objects to fill the void.
🕯️ → After all, living people can let you down, but how can inanimate objects do the same?
🕯️ Hence the wax dolls of all the brides he’s ever claimed. He’d like to make them look beautiful, even in their restless display of a tomb.
🕯️→ It’s the least he could do after claiming their soul, isn’t it?
🕯️ He also has abandonment issues which stemmed from his childhood.
🕯️ He stopped placing faith in his brothers when he slowly watched them drift farther away from him, and closer to each other.
🕯️ Seemingly, almost everyone in his life who he treasured left him high and dry, so he stays away and chooses not to form any deeper connections due to his fear of being left again.
🕯️ Sometimes he mourns the person he could’ve been if he hadn’t been a vampire. If he could be considered a ‘morally good’ person, that is.
🕯️ Kanato also mourns the family he could’ve had, if he were dealt better cards.
🕯️ Admittedly, the facade that he keeps up is wearing on him. He finds it emotionally draining to always be on edge and be in competition with his brothers.
🕯️ The hostility that floods the air is always suffocating, but he knows that no one wants to change, so he plays the part of ‘the hysteric’ to the best degree before he entirely burns himself out.
🕯️ His entire ‘hysteric’ facade is just that. An act. He only does it so he’d have a defining feature for him like his other brothers, and because it made people weary and afraid of him.
🕯️ It took away all the unwanted attention off him, especially from those with gazes that lingered a bit too long on his body for his comfort.
🕯️ He’s very insecure of his eyebags, voice, wrists, and shockingly his weight.
🕯️ TW!! He has self-harmed before for attention, just to be seen by his mother and not be cast aside like Reiji. (Canon fact.)
🕯️ When his mother found out, she was furious. She complained ruthlessly, making Kanato feel even worse about himself than he did when he started.
🕯️ He hates his self-harm scars, despite being a vampire with self-healing, they never seemed to go away.
🕯️ TW!! There are light cuts on his wrists, nearing the veins.
🕯️ He never had the courage to cut anywhere else. It scared him, but he’d never admit that.
🕯️ TW!! Once he cut too deeply, which made the vein burst. He stopped cutting after that, and after his mother scolded him for ‘ruining his body.’
🕯️ Ayato and Laito have no idea of his past self-harming tendencies. His half-brothers also don’t.
🕯️ Laito has theorized that his early comments in their childhood got to Kanato, so he has a lingering feeling that Kanato did call his bluff. (That is, to encourage Kanato to self-harm for said attention.) [Canon fact.]
🕯️ Nonetheless, he always wears long sleeves and translucent gloves which are sheer and skin tight. They cover his scars slightly, however they aren’t the best method of choice.
🕯️ Kanato wouldn’t admit he’s suicidal, however when compairing himself to the others, he doesn’t find a reason as to why he could be deemed as important.
🕯️ He feels constantly pushed away, so if he were to die, he’d be okay and at ease with it.
🕯️ But he doesn’t go chasing death constantly. He wants to die, but will let it happen when it happens.
🕯️ Kind of like Shuu in this case.
🕯️ His voice may fit the doll-like criteria he places upon himself, however it doesn’t stop the fact that he wishes he could’ve been born a bit more masculine like his brothers so he wouldn’t have to resort to this aesthetic he’s plastered upon himself.
🕯️ That, and paired with the fact that his voice doesn’t make it easier when people would harass him, assuming he’s a girl.
🕯️ TW!! Kanato has an eating-disorder.
🕯️ TW!! This was entirely orchestrated by none other than Cordelia herself. Due to her strict standards, and the constant pressure he put on himself to obtain the ‘perfect doll look,’ he started purging.
🕯️ All of the desserts he eats would be thrown up, allowing him to ensure his body won’t be ‘ruined’ as his mother used to say.
🕯️ This habit has gotten so bad and risky that Yui has started to notice a pattern, especially when he’d leave their shared Psychology class at a set time every day. Or how he’d barely eat anything at their monthly dinners and during lunch. He even took lengthy pauses for his blood drinking for good measures.
🕯️ TW!! Kanato would push his fingers down his throat viciously, uncaring of how the medium length nails scratched at his throat, or how blood started to strain his fingertips and fill his windpipe. After all, he’d throw it all up anyways.
🕯️ → Yūma happened to be in the bathroom one night, washing his hands as he heard the sounds of strained coughs and retching over the toilet bowl. He couldn’t make out the shoes, and whom they belonged to, but he could tell it was bad.
🕯️→ When the stall door opened, he laid eyes on Kanato, with small tears staining his baked face, he stiffened. He kept washing his hands as Kanato used the faucet next to him, pressing his hand on the soap dispenser.
🕯️→ “Um.. are you.. ok?” Yūma would dare, watching as the smaller boy paid him little mind.
🕯️→ “Yes. I simply ate something bad, that’s all.” Kanato was quick, almost too quick with his reply. Yūma narrowed his eyes, before flicking his hands, opting to air dry instead.
🕯️→ He took in Kanato’s figure, and how shaky he happened to be. What’s more, his hazel gaze traced over Kanato’s wrists, and the small, strategic cuts. If it were anything to go by, that wasn’t normal. Living with Azusa taught you that much.
🕯️→ “Are you sure? Come to think of it, yer’ pretty pale–” “I am fine.” Kanato would swiftly cut the taller man off, not wanting to hear anymore of it, as he took out his makeup pouch and proceeded to fix up his appearance.
🕯️→ Yūma was stunned, not only at the quick defensive position the boy took, but also at a closer glance for how out of shape he was. He was skinny, too skinny. Even by vampiric standards. His wrists were sticks, and his uniform looked a size or two oversized.
🕯️→ “Look, I know it ain’t none of my business–” Kanato stopped what he was doing and turned to meet Yūma. Yūma and his pathetic worried gaze. He planned his next words out carefully, “It isn’t, you’re correct about that much. I am fine. I ate too many parfaits, alright? I don’t appreciate the interrogation.”
🕯️→ Yūma just stared at him blankly, “Yeah. I can’t force you to say anything, can I?” Kanato would nod, before finishing his makeup and making a bee-line for the door. “But, you can talk to me if somethins’ botherin’ you… you know that.. right?”
🕯️→ Yūma kept his eyes trained on the door, more importantly, the figure that stopped. A few tense moments of stillness would then pass before Kanato would murmur, “Yeah, of course.”
🕯️→ Yūma would watch the door open and close, leaving him alone to reflect about what to do with this newfound knowledge. And if Kanato’s response to his aid was honestly sincere.
🕯️ Kanato’s eye bags have to be one of the biggest things he hates. He wishes it could instantly go away. He gets enough sleep as is (he thinks?) So why won’t they leave?
🕯️ Kanato definitely has insomnia. Hence the immense annoyance of said eyebags.
🕯️ He’s had it ever since he was a kid and all he wishes is for it to leave so he could at least look half as decent as the rest of his family.
🕯️ When Yūma teases him by calling him ‘Eye-Bags’ he feels another bit of his self-esteem shatter. He hates it so much, and is one of the leading causes for his self-loathing.
🕯️ He smokes. He loves the feeling of nicotine and how he makes him feel more alive.
🕯️ He has BPD.
🕯️ He secretly takes meds for them, but once Yui came to the house, Ayato had accidentally thrown them out thinking they were expired muscle relaxer pills which led Kanato to stay unstable and manic.
🕯️ He knows he needs therapy. However he doesn’t know how he could ever bring that up to Reiji.
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⇘ : : [Family]
🕯️ Kanato knows that Laito and Ayato avoid him due to the consistent parallels between him and their mother.
🕯️ The two think they’ve done a good job at hiding their resentment and slight fear but Kanato can see right through them.
🕯️ Kanato oftentimes mourns the relationship he could’ve had with Ayato and Laito, especially if he wasn’t a carbon copy of their mother.
🕯️ He’d look at old photographs of the three when they were happier and at better terms, then is awakened by the harsh reality that they don’t like him.
🕯️ Oh yeah. They aren’t as fond as Kanato as they’d like to portray. This is mainly because of the similarities between their mother and him.
🕯️ So everytime Laito pours Kanato a cup of his lavender-honey tea, the latter thinks about how Laito may truly feel to be next to someone who reminds him so much of his trauma.
🕯️ Laito is often uncomfortable with Kanato’s existence. Just because they look alike. If Kanato had the green eyes? Well Laito and Ayato would go into shock.
🕯️ Ayato only tolerates Kanato because he feels that he has to. Not because he immensely cares as much. (Although, he stays empathetic towards their outcome.)
🕯️ Kanato wishes that he didn’t look like Cordelia on some nights. Especially on the nights where the triplets get into arguments and Ayato ends up saying what they’re all thinking.
🕯️→ “Yeah? Well it ain’t us who looks exactly like our mother! You even act like her too, Kanato.”
🕯️→ The three would all go quiet, with Kanato shaking as he’s registering what Ayato said. He wasn’t his mother. He wasn’t.
🕯️→ “Kanato… I didn’t—” Ayato choked, “No. You’ve made your point.” Kanato would leave the room. Leaving a shocked Ayato and silent Laito.
🕯️→ Kanato wouldn’t hear anyone out, and would actively ignore the two before Ayato and Laito trap him on the roof of the school one night during lunch.
🕯️→ “What do you two want?” Kanato would start, looking at his brothers in annoyance. “We.. we wanted to talk.” Ayato would chip in, “It’s been a week, Kanato. You cannot seriously expect to win by ignoring us like this, hm?” And Laito would finish.
🕯️→ “What is there left to say?” Kanato snapped, turning aside to look out at the schoolyard. Ayato let out a softened sigh. “We know we messed up, alright,” he said, his eyes pleading for forgiveness. “But we’re brothers, Kanato.”
🕯️→ Laito’s normally sardonic grin softened as he nodded. With a soft tone, he continued, “We apologize. We went too far.” Emotions seething inside Kanato, his shoulders stiffened. Silence enveloped them, heavy with unspoken tension.
🕯️→ Kanato gave in with a deep breath. He mumbled, “Fine,” his voice barely audible.
🕯️ Subaru once mindlessly let it slip that Kanato deeply resembled his mother while practicing magic. That sent Kanato into a spiral and he stayed up for a week staring at himself through his vanity mirror.
🕯️ Kanato smokes. Especially with Cordelia. The two would normally go outside in the rose gardens on especially hard days and smoke together.
🕯️ He started smoking when he was 13, when Cordelia offered him a pack. This is what also strengthened their relationship.
🕯️ When she died, he started to smoke more. Not because of the guilt or anything, but because he found it to be a remedy for stress.
🕯️ None of his brothers know that he smokes.
🕯️ He highly values Reiji’s opinion, especially because he’s been there more for him than his own blood brothers have.
🕯️ He’s slightly jealous of the closer relationship Ayato and Laito have.
🕯️ Cordelia mainly manipulated him a lot. When looking back he wonders how naive he was to believe everything she said.
🕯️ Karlheinz sometimes mistakes Kanato for Cordelia. Even he isn’t immune to their similarities.
🕯️ Like when Kanato worked as his secretary, he found himself calling Cordelia’s name instead of Kanato’s, and instantly shutting up after he realizes what he said. This leaves Kanato feeling dumbfounded with the one question resting on his mind, ‘Am I really that similar to her?’
🕯️ Kanato would later find out that his mother also worked as his secretary, making the two even more similar than they already appear, much to his dismay.
🕯️→ “Cordelia, my dear, could you fetch those reports for me?” Karlheinz's request was gentle, laced with familiarity.
🕯️→ With a stilled hand, Kanato’s breath caught in his throat. Despite a sense of unease, he forced a tight-lipped smile. His voice strained, “Right away, Father.”
🕯️→ Kanato felt the atmosphere change as he made his way to get the reports. He glanced back and saw Karlheinz’s expression go blank as an understanding dawned in his eyes. His brief expression of perplexity as he tried to comprehend his error spoke volumes.
🕯️ Karlheinz wonders if he wants Kanato as an option for the Adam and Eve plan because of Cordelia and Kanato parallels. There’s a small selfish feeling that lingers, making him want to keep Kanato all for himself.
🕯️ Kanato definitely had to deal with Karlheinz’s weird/creepy advances.
🕯️→ It’s canon that he’s a bit creepy, and definitely messed up, so take that as you’d like.
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⇘ : : [Brides/Yui]
🕯️His relationship with any sacrificial bride as of late has been at face value. He knows that the way he treats others, especially as a lesser being, is partially motivated by how others have viewed him his entire life.
🕯️ Kanato simply doesn’t know how to begin changing for the better, so the cycle continues. He’s in an environment that promotes the very bad behaviours that he’s identified. That is, in everyone (the brothers), and in himself.
🕯️ There was one sacrificial bride before Yui, perhaps ten years before she arrived, who made him hyper aware of what he and his brothers were doing.
🕯️ The monsters that they were.
🕯️ That was the first time he ever thought to reevaluate himself as an individual, especially with the bride who would do everything to make him understand that everyone has at least a little bit of humanity in them.
🕯️ He’d recall the way his father treated the wives, and the way his mother would treat him. It would send him into a spiral, before opting to lessen the way he reacts.
🕯️ This unknown bride amongst the thousands that have entered the Sakamaki Mansion would die, however at the hands of Laito.
🕯️ Now that was a turning point for Kanato. It was shocking how that so easily proved the bride’s point, yet he felt so empty about the whole ordeal.
🕯️ Kanato vowed to remember that bride, name and all. She is also the centerpiece of his wax doll collection, the one who’s perfect in every way. He owes her that much.
🕯️ He viewed her as a friend if anything. That is, if mortals and immortals could be friends.
🕯️ He also vowed to figure out how to turn his life around for the better once given the chance. He often thinks about her, and now with Yui here, he thinks that now is the chance to break the cycle.
🕯️ He often thinks about her a lot. Like she rests constantly on his mind, almost like a lingering repressed feeling.
🕯️ Kanato doesn’t think he could ever be loved. Like for everything, flaws and all.
🕯️ So when Yui comes around, talking him about everything he does well and how he has a good side, he has no idea if she’s being genuine or if she wants something from him, and only wants to use him just like everyone else has.
🕯️ He wants Yui to be happy, in his own way of course. But part of him knows that it’ll never be with him. His obsessive tendencies, especially when it comes to love, is the main driving point which pushes people away.
🕯️ It’ll take him a bit to understand that fully, but once he comes to that settlement, he’ll be okay with giving Yui to one of his brothers. After all, most of the sacrificial brides choose them anyways, so how would this be any different?
🕯️ When he finds out Yui has Cordelia’s heart, he almost is hurt. Considering how that’s the woman he shared most of his vulnerability with, and who exploited it.
🕯️ He wonders if Cordelia can talk to Yui in her mind, or subconscious. Considering that they’re two souls in one body.
🕯️ The more he thinks about it, the more he’s unsettled by the fact that she, the entire time, has taken a backseat and listened to every confidential conversation like some unauthorized third-party.
🕯️ When he meets Yui, and hears of her temporary permanence within the house, he instantly thinks back to his redemption that the old bride talked about.
🕯️ After all, there won’t be any more after Yui, right? This can be his chance to make the change he wants. All he has to do… is not get attached.
🕯️ This is easier said than done, considering how Yui’s blood is almost irresistible.
🕯️ During the awakening, when Yui would feel pains, Kanato would as well. Since he has her magic and all.
🕯️ He’d have migraines that would go on for days on end, and the pain in his chest? Unbearable.
🕯️ Yui and Kanato would have that one thing in common at least, being remnants of Cordelia.
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⇘ : : [Academics]
🕯️ Kanato is much smarter than he appears. He usually plays dumb to ensure that he isn’t found in any trouble.
🕯️ He’s really good at physics and math. Like a prodigy. The only reason why he hides it is because his mother often said if his true IQ was revealed, it’d put him at risk of being seen as competition and potential execution.
🕯️ He is quite good at the sciences, which is often a conversation point whenever he participates in class.
🕯️ He always makes it a point to participate at least once for every class he attends. Doesn’t matter how, just knowing that he did one thing is all the motivation he needs to continue.
🕯️ Kanato has Psychology with Yui and often sits in the middle row, considering how he uses glasses.
🕯️ Yui finds him much more bearable and engaged when in Psychology.
🕯️ She even willing wanted to be his partner for a project. He accepted and they got the highest grade in the class.
🕯️ For all of his classes he tries to sit in the middle row.
🕯️ Karlheinz forces all the boys to take at least one business course so they’ll be prepared if any of them need to take over the family business. Kanato chose accounting since it’s closest to math and he enjoys it.
🕯️ Since he took Functions (year 2 math course) during summer school, he is in the 3rd year Advanced Functions course. Reiji, Ruki, Carla and Shuu are in his class.
🕯️ He once corrected Reiji on an answer while he was writing it on the board, to Reiji’s surprise Kanato was right and the teacher applauded Kanato for spotting his mistake.
🕯️ Reiji, Ruki, and Carla were shocked to know that Kanato’s test scores were pretty high. He even beat Reiji and Ruki, getting 100%.
🕯️ Shuu couldn’t care less since he barely shows up. He only shows up for tests, which he aces every time. This always pisses Reiji off.
🕯️ Reiji and Carla are in his Calculus and Vectors class.
🕯️ Laito is in his Advanced English class, often times he’ll tease him for working but becomes shocked when looking over at his essay for peer editing. (He barely has any mistakes.)
🕯️ Ayato and Kou are in his Japanese class. It’s especially tiring when he has to deal with the two bickering over Yui.
🕯️ During lunch, you’ll see him and Subaru eating desserts together. Kanato likes the quiet comfort Subaru offers, and Subaru likes the companionship.
🕯️ If those two aren’t together then it’s Laito and Kanato, however Laito usually ditches him at school.
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⇘ : : [Fashion]
🕯️ He’s really good at sewing. So good that he’s made his own clothes, and even could start a small business. (Canon fact.)
🕯️ He has a small business for clothing. He takes commissions and creates magic. This is mainly done online and his website is the cutest. Kanato really cares about the small, little, intricate details.
🕯️ He’s made clothing items for himself, Reiji, and sometimes anyone else who asks.
🕯️ Just by looking at someone, he can instantly tell what their measurements are.
🕯️ He loves the Victorian Gothic aesthetic/clothing.
🕯️ This boy loves VKEI. The clothing for him is total eye candy.
🕯️ Kanato also enjoys the ‘dark coquette’ style.
🕯️ He likes ruffles and embroidered cuffs of sleeves, along with pretty brooches that fit his outfits perfectly.
🕯️ His shoes have a ½ inch booster insole added in. He adores the clack and click in shoes when he walks, it makes him feel important.
🕯️ His shoes also have a hidden blade inside, making it accessible to him if he needs to protect himself or fight back.
🕯️ Kanato is obsessed with shiny jewelry. You’d assume he was a crow.
🕯️ After his mother died, she left most of her jewelry to Kanato. Most days you’ll see him wear her iconic jade brooch. The one that’s shaped like a flower, with 14k gold detailing. It’s one of his most prized possessions.
🕯️ He especially likes ancient jewels, the ones that carry magical properties.
🕯️ Sometimes Kanato will cross dress. He does like the fabrics and can tell what instantly suits him. However everytime he does, for whatever reason (if it’s to get something for someone else, or he’s forced,) he feels that small insecurity taunting him that he’s not and never will be ‘man enough.’
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⇘ : : [Magic]
🕯️ After Cordelia died, all her remaining magic/mana/powers transferred to Kanato, making him like the ‘last living remnant’ of Cordelia (not including the obvious— Yui.)
🕯️ He is really good at using magic, he’s the best out of all his brothers.
🕯️ People usually go to him if they need help with it.
🕯️ He’s memorized countless spell books, even the ones his late mother left him.
🕯️ He has pyrokinesis (Canon fact.) [Fire magic/can control fire.]
🕯️ He can perform soul transfer. (Canon fact.)
🕯️ Kanato loves contacting the other realm (realm of the dead,) he finds it interesting to hear the stories they tell.
🕯️ He has an ‘all seeing eye.’ Basically allows him to see ghosts and the dead.
🕯️ He found this out when he was 5, playing with his dolls and he saw an unknown woman sitting on his bed. She was covered in blood and she had an ax in her skull.
🕯️ This terrified him, but he mustered up the courage to acknowledge her existence.
🕯️ She didn’t say anything, just nodded to his questions. Once he brought this up to his mother but she forced him to never speak of this ability again.
🕯️→ Perhaps she was afraid? Who knows. Definitely not Kanato.
🕯️ So whenever you see him leaving an extra seat available, another cup of tea, or bowing as a greeting to a seemingly empty space— he’s acknowledging the ghosts that linger in the home.
🕯️ To his surprise, many of the brides linger. He does his best to pay his respects. He at least has some decency to not upset the dead. (Especially since they can pay it back in full.)
🕯️ The main hot spots in the home are near Reiji’s study, the hallway that leads to the grand ballroom, and the torture chamber located far beneath the house.
🕯️ Once, Reiji realized most of his supplies were misplaced in his laboratory. Turns out it was one of the brides he’d killed years ago who’d done it. Kanato never told him that, and Ayato was blamed and punished.
🕯️ In his early years, many doctors assumed he had schizophrenia.
🕯️ He was heavily medicated for a while which messed with his cognitive functions.
🕯️ Kanato regularly uses magic, even for the small, simple things. Like turning on lights, closing doors, that stuff.
🕯️ He feels that his magic is apart of him, so he really values it.
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⇘ : : [Bag]
Ever wondered what’s in Kanato’s bag? School Bag? Here you have it.
🕯️ Kanato has two bags. His school bag, and his small purse. (Yes he has a purse. But never call it that, it’s a man-purse. He will get insecure and embarrassed immediately.)
🕯️ In his school bag all of his binders are colour coded, along with his notes.
🕯️ Everything is perfectly organized, from his notes for each class, to his homework and old tests.
🕯️ He colour codes his notes for each subject, along with the homework assigned.
🕯️ He takes pride in his note taking skills, since they’re very aesthetic.
🕯️ Kanato keeps a reusable water bottle with him. Most are shocked that he even drinks water to begin with, but what they don’t know is how it does wonders for his skin.
🕯️ He also brings his laptop with him every day to school. Sometimes he’ll forget his charger, but normally his classmates let him borrow theirs.
🕯️ His hand-writing is sometimes messy but their legible. He’s secretly doing practice to improve his cursive.
🕯️ His pencil case is filled with those over the top cute supplies. As in, he’ll have a teddy bear eraser, and cute highlights and pencil crayons.
🕯️ In his school bag he also carries his purse.
🕯️ His purse consists of his wallet (it’s this cute polar bear), his makeup pouch, his medication (pills), and travel sized combs.
🕯️ Kanato’s makeup pouch has all of his normal makeup products but condensed to travel size. He loves his perfumes, so it’s always going to be there since he runs out of them quite easily.
🕯️ As always, the strawberry chapstick is there for himself, his brothers, and anyone else he sees that desperately needs it. Like no joke, he’s a chapstick warrior. He’s like Santa, but for chapstick. No one knows how he has the space for it, but it’s like a never-ending supply.
🕯️ Kanato also keeps his nail polish in his bag, in a small side component.
🕯️ Once he started to paint his nails in psychology, and the teacher directed the topic onto the psychological effects of red nail polish. It was interesting and he found himself amused that he could cause such a commotion based on one small thing.
I hope you stars like some of my personal HC's for Kanato. This took me two days, since I really had to think deeper about how I perceive his character.
Credits to the artist of the Kanato fanart!!
Lmk if you guys would be interested in any other HC's!!
Hihiii!! I’m back again LMAO 😭😭 I hope I’m not bothering you with my asks, ur writing is js so like addicting to read?? Idk how to explain it but I could read ur works for hours and not get bored ( ◠‿◠ )
Anywayzzzz, I was wondering if u could do headcanons on how Kanato, Laito, Ayato, and Kou would be with an s/o who is like impossible to piss off?? Like they could be as annoying as they possible could and they’re like “ Ok :) “
Ofc as usual take ur time, don’t feel rushed and if I’m sending in too many requests just lmk and I’ll try and cut back ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡ Have a great day/night !!!
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S/O Who’s Hard to Piss Off HC’s
Ayato:
• He’ll definitely pester his S/O a lot.
• As in, this is the king of wanting attention and being annoying.
• He may get upset a bit, seeing as he thrives on having a reaction given a lot.
• Take some depictions shown in the anime if anything.
• Ex: When he pesters Yui to make him takoyaki and she doesn’t initially give in.
• Ayato loves the reaction and finds it funny/amusing.
• He may become somewhat fussy about it.
• As in, the bothering will become extended before he gets bored and starts to leave his S/O alone.
• Like imagine going out with him and he sees a perfect time to pester.
• Ex: Carnival wait line.
• Without the reaction he wants, it may annoy him for the moment, before continuing on with his day.
• I think he’d make it his life’s mission to at least gain something rather than nothing.
Kanato:
• He would get upset pretty quickly.
• Especially since most of the time when he aims to annoy, he wants a reaction.
• In all the times he’s done something towards Yui, without anything being shown back to him, he assumes it’s ‘doll-like’ behaviour.
• Or at least an attempt at satiating that interest in him.
• But of course, no reaction in a sense would show that his S/O doesn’t care for him and his needs.
• On the other hand, having an S/O that doesn’t always reply to his antics can be seen as profitable.
• As in, he can get away with more and expect less repercussions.
• He’ll be able to toss them around as a rag doll, and in a sense— have an exemption towards his somewhat abusive tendencies.
• Expect a lot of what he wants to do, and not so much any concerns with whatever his S/O wants to do.
• So tea parties, forced outings, dress up, etc.
• It’ll all be shoved down his S/O’s throat simply because his S/O is condoning it by not giving a reaction to any of it. (That is how he’d see it.)
Laito:
• He wouldn’t be too upset about it.
• Sure, reactions and those getting upset are intriguing and sometimes seen as entertaining for him.
• But really, he’d be the one to applaud his S/O the most with keeping their composure around him.
• Laito knows that it can be hard to show enough self restraint, so he’ll use it as a challenge to see how far he can push his S/O.
• Like everyone, vampires hold certain reactions and emotions towards a different standard.
• So it’s unfair to expect him to simply react like humans would, or alike the other vampires.
• Especially since their type of entertainment is quite different to that of humans/human standards
• He does tend to joke around or make ‘uncomfortable’ jokes towards his S/O, in hopes of obtaining something to find comical.
• So it may actually be toned down because of his S/O’s attitudes towards it.
• One might even say, it may break down Laito into displaying more of his ‘true self,’ as the normal antics he’d entertain is no longer working on individuals.
• It may serve as a learning lesson to him that his false persona may not appeal to everyone, and even he must understand that there’s more to him than surface level ‘pervert Laito.’
Kou:
• With Kou the dynamic is much more interesting.
• Because of his ‘all seeing eye’ or ‘truth seeing eye,’ he can pinpoint exactly what his S/O is feeling and if it’s true.
• He’s normally someone who’s seen to joke around with others and find fun in things.
• Kind of like Laito with the double personalities, and attitudes surrounding certain aspects of their lives.
• But even with that, he may do more to gain a reaction.
• He has split feelings about being human, or an ex-human— so as a half-blood, I’ll take it that he’s adapted to the way vampires or pure bloods would think.
• He may at the start of the relationship, assume that somethings wrong with his S/O— or that they’re mad at him.
• But once he gets acquainted— with that being his S/O’s natural nuanced reaction to things, he may do more and get out of his own comfort zone to see if anything would phase them.
• Since he believes in the entire ‘give and take’ analogy— he may be annoyed that it takes a lot of him ‘giving’ something (ex: putting in energy) to get something in return for him to ‘take’ (a reaction.)
• But overall I don’t see him complaining too much, only if he’s in one of his fussy moods.
🎬 Constantly tapping her heel on the floorboards, awaiting a the clocks hand ticked again, and again, and again. The seconds going by slow, the minutes; even slower. Blinks of battered lashes became strenuous, and nails grazed clenched palms, threatening to bruise.
🎬 Her breath would stiffen, her body; host an unmarked tremble. She’d been used to the cold nights, and the even colder times spent alone. Waiting. Waiting for her father, the nuns, someone to pay her any mind.
🎬 Yui couldn’t tell how long had passed, her thoughts and visions consumed with seeing one fated man. Like a predator stalking its prey, she sat in anticipation.
🎬 Food was prepared, the table was set. Warmth dulled down to cool and cold as a hesitant smile stayed plastered upon her face.
🎬 She waited. Until the girl was far too tired to continue. And despite it all, with her eyes threatening to close shut, her tapping becoming slowed, and her fists unclenching by the second, she sat with her sulking posture up against the wooden chair.
🎬 With a slight prayer, her hands would clasp in front of her in a desperate plea. Like a proud and obedient devotee, never could she understand why her god dejected her cries, ignored her woes, laughed at her misfortunate sorrows.
🎬 But like most nights, her routine stayed firm. She uttered words, familiar on the tongue, scratchy on the throat. Yui knew it all too well, now having memorized it.
🎬 It was a simple request, not too much to ask for, she’d insist. But overbearing at best, when presented with a man dressed in saintly robes and silks.
🎬 “God… if you are again listening, you know by now who I am.”
🎬 A pause, a stifled whimper, an inhale of the nose; a sniffle, if you will.
🎬 “Please…! For once… allow father to stay for dinner.”
🎬 That’s all she ever wanted, something so mundane, so simple. Yui didn’t like to be alone. But that’s all she’s ever known. So for every night she stayed awake, sacrificing her sleep and patience, she prayed that she wouldn’t have to eat alone. Just like all the nights and years before.
🎬 Blonde curls get lost in clasped hands, “For once…” Tears now threatening to fall, her prayer now being lost to the world.
🎬 So as the clock strike close to midnight, the food long cold and mouldable mush, the blonde waited. Never to be met with her fathers gaze, or the warmth he dare steal from her soul.
🎬 She waited. Just as every other night and the nights before that, hoping for an instance that her father would one day pause, reset his clock, and sit across from her at the dinner table.
🎬 She was born waiting.
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HC’s:
🎬 Yui canonically always ate dinners alone, meals alone, etc.
🎬 She was heavily neglected, and left to her own devices regularly.
🎬 She wanted her father to spend time with her, even if it was something small.
🎬 Every small moment spent, like gardening, church service, and more, she cherishes it.
🎬 Yui canonically also has daddy issues.
🎬 Presented by the neglect, coupled with the conditional affection, it’s no wonder that Yui waits around for men.
🎬 To go from the religion she once devoted herself and prayed to, waiting at alters and staying behind masses, to finding no sense of self and betrayal at the end of the light— Yui’s tired.
🎬 Her father cared in his own way, however despite her constant go lucky, faithful facade, it could never mend her broken heart, and the nights she stayed up crying herself to sleep.
🎬 Yui had a stuffed bunny from when she was younger. It was battered up and tearing at the seams, but it was the closest she had to a friend. Something to confide in when she found herself losing faith in herself and the world around her.
🎬 The bunny represented innocence and fragility, terms that she found was associated with her far too much.
🎬 Only when she would come into contact again with her father after the vampiric houses, would she realize it held merit.
🎬 Yui was replaceable, but yet considered to be an integral piece of the puzzle, the queen on the forgotten chess board.
🎬 How was it that her ideologies up until now had been nothing but falsities fed to her with a wooden spoon?
🎬 She was raised to be cattle, the sacrificial lamb.
🎬 To be pure, docile, subservient, and above all, obedient.
🎬 It was unfortunate that she hadn’t been taught anything other than being a good obedient housewife, a trophy wife, a placeholder to make the man a true man.
🎬 When Yui was gifted her rosary, she vowed to never swap it out. Not only for it serving as a true devotion towards her Catholic faith, but towards her fathers subtle care.
🎬 She likes to look at the moon, for it held opportunities like no other.
🎬 She always wondered who else was watching the same moon, perhaps in a different area, and what their life and normal entailed.
🎬 Yui used to cry when watching the moon, finding small tears stray down her cheeks and hit the floor.
🎬 Perhaps it was the fact that subconsciously, she knew that she was trapped. Until someone would tug her free.
🎬 She has a bad habit of picking at her skin, and clawing at the wounds in her nails and nail beds.
🎬 This normally occurs when she’s stressed, taken from her undiagnosed anxiety, and the meds she so desperately needs, but will never have the chance of taking.
