Sometimes I wonder...
What on EARTH was I thinking!?
I'm serious.
This thought can be applied to a great many things I do in my life--the grandiose idea to pursue a doctoral degree, open a non-for-profit agency for individual's with intellectual and developmental disabilities (I/DD), or my ever-so-disastrous track record in the romance department. What I didn't realize was how topsy turvy my life would become when I did the following:
Enrolled in a doctoral program and reached the all-but-dissertation phase in the learning process.
Started putting my ducks in a row to open an NPO.
Joined a few dating websites after a great deal of protesting.
Through all of this there are some days where I forget whether or not I've shampoo'd my hair in the morning. Then there are the days I'm stuck in traffic for three hours and I'm wondering why I haven't pee'd my pants yet. Other days I sit in my classroom with the noise so loud that I cannot even hear myself think because the voices are so loud. Then once home I hide in my room reading and regurgitating, or staring blankly at my proposal. Ultimately, I fall asleep only to wake up the next morning to do it all over again.
Why? Why? WHY?!
I must ask myself this over and over again and it comes to one thing. I believe in what I am doing. I believe in providing individual's with I/DD proper supports and services to live a normal and fulfilling life. So I press on, some days the monotony of things are broken up by a message on a random dating website, which diverts my attention briefly.
So I created this tumblr page for myself as a way to document my almost-daily events, vent a bit, and give myself some sanity for a brief second. Perhaps someone will read my words and it will help them in some way. Perhaps not. It really doesn't matter.
Oh and I prefer not writing everything in APA format on here, so if you are looking for perfect grammar and punctuation it won't be here. Here I will write as I speak. Only readers won't get to hear my amazing impersonations
Happy 1st tumblr post to me!