medicninsakura said: Is there a reason you don’t like tumblr anymore? D:
doctor--snakes said: Are you alright?
kuramas9tails said: Whats wrong?
bakasuke-prince said: What happened??
toadsagejiraiya said: bb why D:
When I wrote what I wrote last night, it's not as though something happened in that particular moment that pissed me off more than anything. I just--I reached my breaking point.
I don't want to drone on and on about my experiences, but you're my followers so you deserve to know why I hardly want to log on anymore.
Most of it is on a very personal and emotional note. I made about between 4 to 6 close friends on here. I never expected to make such friends, but I did. I'm not saying that I regret it because the time we had together was not terrible; it was great. It just beyond shreds up my trust when something such as rping comes between those friends and I, or certain feelings develop, or things just don't work out. I can't count the times when I thought those certain friendships would last beyond the end of my summer vacation--but I lost almost all of them before it even ended. I lost another one yesterday, so I think that added weight onto that net of emotions. It's because of this that I hardly want to interact with others on this site beyond the barrier of role play.
I don't think a lot of people take me seriously. I'm not referring to everyone now--just most. I joke around a lot--mostly in a flirtatious way--but I do have fucking feelings, and I do get hurt. When I try to make a certain person feel better, they often take it as me thinking their problems are stupid or that I am being sarcastic when that is far from the case. I'm telling you this because I give a shit, and I want you to feel better. I am not heartless.
I see the most ridiculous anon hate out there. I don't even need to elaborate on that because you know what I am talking about. I don't give a single fuck about what you think I should ship. If you want to fangirl about our mutual ships then fine. We can share what we don't like about certain ships--but when you start to get hostile because I like a certain ship and you don't--I will tear you a new one. Enough said.
I don't like certain updates on this site to be honest.
With majority of the people I love(d) to rp with, deleting or leaving their blogs...--this site has gotten extremely boring to me. I came onto tumblr to role play mostly. I literally have no time or a care in the world to press the reblog button for 5 hours at a time. Sure the content is funny but just--no.
Nowadays I am half-assing my replies, and I hate doing that. I want to plot with others, but I just...--I gotta balance between work, school, friends, volunteer work, and it's just too much.
The spoilers on tumblr are starting to piss me off.
Every time I log on I feel more than unhappy do to all that's stated in the first reason.
I really love you guys..I do..--It's not every day that I log on and feel miserable, some of you make me really happy too. This is not me saying good bye, but just letting you know how Ashley feels. Shh..I had to get all serious for a bit. Shh..I know. I don't like it either, but we'll get through it.
Since I won't be on here much just add my Skype (electrofrenzy16) and tell me who you are and we can talk. I won't be really talkative today though <w< ♥
You knew I was trouble when you clicked read more ♫
