#dodie rambles

[kahvi-studies]

it's so stupid that you have to know what you wanna do the rest of your life at the age of 18.

I mean I wanna live in my cabin in the woods w/ my cat or let's start w studying sth nice without s/o asking 'and what you're gonna do with that? how will you make any money?'

[hannahthepandah]

someone told me my aesthetic was emo dodie and honestly i think that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me

[kahvi-studies]

| June 21st 2020 | 83/100 days of productivity |

what a strange place the mind can be. for it is the only home you can escape to but cannot run away from. and it is entirely yours. -orenda

it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been here the last time. there’s been some ups and downs, but I still continued my 100 days of productivity (more or less). what happened?  I shaved all my hair off (that was planned for a loooong time), passed 2 exams (4 to come, yikes), had mental breakdowns this last week after nealry a year without them, struggled to get out of bed sometimes.

but I reminded myself, that it’s ok to be not ok, and that so much is not my fault. I’m excited to do the rest of my exams and end this last semester of uni. and to move out in two weeks!

I hope y’all are good. I believe in you, you are worthy and loved. keep going, things get always better. always. life is worth living it - in any kind of way.

❤

[kahvi-studies]

Sunday, March 8th - world women's day

went to uni in the morning to get my studies done for the day; after lunch date with L we spent the rest of the evening over city's roofs watching the sunset.

weekend ended def in a better way then it started. I'm so thankful to have such great friends 💛

[kahvi-studies]

I know I said it would get better - but I didn't believe it would happen that fast. I got really good grades on my exams (and those have been the hardest ones this semester), got promoted & my professor asked if it was OK to extend our deadline until september.

let me tell you - EVERYTHING WILL GET BETTER

[kahvi-studies]

I'm so sick of my mind telling me I can't do things although I studied for this exam like more than one month

tf

[kahvi-studies]

I'm heading to my exam soon. Wish me luck, I'll need it! I'm anxious on one hand but so excited for it to be over on the other.

pfffffft.

🧡 dodie

[kahvi-studies]

I may or may not just ordered some blue hair color because I'm kinda bored of my washed out green and because iSOlaTiOn.

and may or may not I don't even regret it lol