Shit, I have not slept in 2 days. I have a million things running through my head. I can not shut my brain off. I am seriously going through major depression. I miss Robert so bad, and he's been so quiet this week. I know he is sick of being in jail and wants to come home. I feel helpless. I don't know what to say and don't know what else I can do. I am faithfully at the jail every week visiting, I put $100 on his books every Sunday, I send him letters every single day, I always have money on the phone, I send his books, games, anything else he asks for from Amazon but I'm almost at a loss now (girls I'm not trying to brag or showoff please please don't think I am please!!!) I don't know what else to do. I send him letter after letter telling him how much I love him, and how supportive I am of him. I tell him about daily things going on here. I still include him in every decision making process that we face. He is still the head of this household, and he needs to feel like it! I don't know girls, maybe I'm just tired and over thinking tonight. I love my husband and just miss him more and more every day. Oh.....and I'm terrified he's gonna be a different person when he comes home. OK, I think that's it. Ladies you all really have no idea how much I value your support and kind words. *Remember ladies we're doing time too, we're all in this together.