#dokterwer

[itsvolcanoday]

omg you guys are just the best. thank you, I really do feel better <3

[professortennant]

peace and stardust

doktorwer requested eleventh Doctor/ten (either gen or slash).

This is an AU take on The End of TIme.

There was only so long he could ride in the TARDIS alone, bouncing from one adventure to the other. This regeneration seemed particularly needy, particularly desperate for adventure and companionship and the promise of life or death.

He stepped out of the TARDIS doors and felt his hearts stutter, stop, and beat back to life. He had stepped into a TARDIS of another time, an earlier regeneration. In fact, his younger self was sitting cross-legged at the TARDIS console, eyes squeezed tight and rocking back and forth lightly.

The Doctor sighed and nodded his head, whispering to himself, "Alright Old Girl, I get it."

The other Doctor, the younger one, opened his eyes at the sound of his voice and looked at him. He tilted his head and looked, just looked. "How much older are you?"

"Does it matter?"

The Doctor shook his head. "S'pose not, not really. It never gets easier, though, does it?"

He smiled and nodded. "No, it never does."

The Doctor got up, unsteady on his feet. "I don't have to regenerate, you know. I could just," his voice trailed off. "I could just disappear into stardust. It would all stop." His voice become low, husky. "It would stop hurting."

The bow-tied Doctor smiled softly, letting the familiarity of such potent despair envelop him. "It never stops hurting, Doctor. You know better."

The younger Doctor's head shot up, suddenly angry. "It's not fair! We keep losing and losing and losing. When do we win? Huh? When do we get a bit of peace? When do we get a reprieve?"

"You and I both know why we don't get peace. You know why we can't just let go. We deserve this. We forgot. With Rose and Martha and Donna, we forgot the pain a bit. But we do, Doctor. We don't get peace, not now." He straightened his bow-tie and grinned, manic and bright again. "Too much to do! Too many adventures to still have!"

His younger self looked at him through hooded eyes. "No, no more adventures, Doctor. I think--I think this is the end. We've done enough. We've lived too long."

The Doctor crossed to his other self and cupped his face in both hands, tugging his face up so that they were looking at one another, eye to eye. 

"I know it feels like that. Like we couldn't possibly have any more adventures; that we've reached the peak of our life. But there's so, so much more fun to be had, Doctor! You're going to meet some extraordinary people! It's going to hurt, of course it's going to hurt. That's who we are--who they are. Our silly little apes. But it's worth it, Doctor. Oh! It's worth it!"

He wiped away the fallen tear on the Doctor's cheek. "Hush, now. Stop that. We've got a bit more work to do and it's going to be lovely. And I know you're hurting, I know what it's like to suppress regeneration energy. Let go, it's alright, Doctor. Let go...."

He pressed a lingering kiss to his forehead, remembering the fear and uncertainty of this moment and lending as much comfort and support as possible.

He heard his younger self stifle a sob and he stepped away, edging back into the safety of his own TARDIS. "It's alright, Doctor. 'S alright."

He looked at the Doctor and watched him struggle to get the words out. Watched him swallow past the thickness of his throat and blink back the tears. "I don't want to go..."

The older Doctor smiled softly. "I know, but you have to. I'm not all that bad, promise."

"Please...."

"I'll be right here with you. For as long as I can."

He watched as the last bit of resistance flee from the Doctor's resolve and he gave himself over to the power of regeneration. As the heat of the golden light and energy washed over him, the bow-tied Doctor closed the doors of his TARDIS and let the Old Girl whisk him back to his own timeline.

He still had his own adventures to have, his own penance to pay. And he most certainly wasn't ready to go. Not yet.

Stardust and peace would have to wait.

[i-walk-the-sky-blog]

doktorwer replied to your post: Just read Issue #1 of AssimilationSquared

1 was so Who-centric. But have read 2 and 3 and so far Riker hasn’t had a chance. The ponds get introduced as husband and wife. Sorry.

Too bad. The writers missed a great opportunity for mischief. I didn't mind all the Who, but I'm looking forward to more Trek in 2.

[shannonhasmoved-blog]

Everyone, thank you so, so much for your help on my thesis! Like I said, I haven't really been outside the world of academia in a long time, so I've been really lost about where to begin. But I have a much better direction for my project now, and I can't wait to get to reading your recommendations!

My current list:

Song of Ice and Fire 1, Game of Thrones -- George R R Martin

Kingkiller Chronicles 1, Name of the Wind -- Patrick Rothfuss

Fever Series 1, Darkfever -- Karen Moning

Neverwhere -- Neil Gaiman

Warriors 1, Into the Wild -- Erin Hunter

Chaos Walking, Knife of Never Letting Go -- Patrick Ness

Outlander Series 1, Outlander -- Diana Gabaldon

After a lot of research, I think I want to limit my search just to books that are intensely popular, ie New York Times Bestsellers; books that have been released/gained popularity within the last five years; and books that are just aimed towards adults. I think YA has a much higher tolerance and interest in scifi/fantasy as a genre itself, and so I'd like to take that variable out, since I'm more interested in what has led to the resurgence of popularity in scifi/fantasy.

But thank you so, so much to everyone who suggested sources! And if anyone has any more suggestions, please please please let me know!