Spent too many hours with human contact today.
I brought it on myself.
Always do.
Ask and shall receive.
Probably need to find a way to fit snacks into my life when I decide to work all day.
Today made me realize how much eating food can change my attitude. Not sure why this took 29 years of life for me to figure out but looks like I’ll be working on it.
People talk and people say so much without ever saying a word...but their body will tell everything you need to know.
Besides that.
I have this thing about me where I don’t really enjoy “being mean” to others. I don’t like to call people out of their names. I don’t like angry, unnecessary confrontation because I don’t find amusement in talking down to another person or purposely hurting someone else’s feelings. I try my best not to talk bad about others. I try not to get angry because of what someone else says. It’s a trained thought to know that another being should never be able to have any power over the thoughts I have or the actions I make and this is where I fail. I allow other’s actions to somehow filter through any barrier I have and in turn show a side of myself that I’m not at all proud of. I want to be the person that can smile proudly and know I did the best that I could do no matter what I was given to do it with. I want to know that my job is done at the end of the day and I can go home and start fresh tomorrow. Every day is a new day and I want to treat them as such. I lack greatly in holding my self accountable for my own actions. Discipline, who’s she? I haven’t known her for a while now. Certainly can’t find it in another person if I can’t give it to myself. And as always... People who give the greatest advice often are the ones failing to listen to their own words and it’s past time for me to get my shit together.
“But don’t let my problems distract me so much dealing with them, I forget my mission.”
