im spending my time missing you. regretting everything I've put you through. regretting hurting you so many times. and finding things to be angry at you for. forcing myself to remember all of your mistakes, all of the times you hurt me. so that it's a little bit easier to come to terms with reality. nothing can be done now. there is no going back. and even though it was my naivety that was the catalyst that ended everything between us, please don't pretend like you haven't broken my heart once or twice as well..please don't pretend i wasn't made to feel disposable at some point too..it happened. I'm hurting in so many ways..and i don't even have anyone to talk to about it, any shoulder to rest my head on as i cry and cry. im sure I brought this upon myself. im sure if i didn't deserve it in some way or another it wouldn't be happening. but here I am.
