#dontmindmeimrambling

[armaninoexchange]

I'm just blessed to be able to still see the beauty in you. Something that got so fucking ugly. I still see your smile in my head. I still hear your laugh in the silent moments of my mental isolation. My heart still aches for you. Even after you broke it. We broke it.

[sillydreamer-blog]

Wedding thoughts

Just went to a wedding party with the rents . It was the typical Indonesian wedding . Wasn't expecting much but It made me think about what i wanted mine to be like. It wasn't at a very fancy place so wasn't stars truck over it . But it wasn't that that turned me off , it was that they couple really didnt seem like enjoy it at all ! Can't blame them, all they were doing were standing there and shaking people's hands . I'm just speculating but they room looked like it was full of strangers who just went to had their meal and left ! When I have my wedding (long long time from now, and *day dreaming * ) ill want it to be a big party where it'll be full of people that will actually celebrate how in love me and the (lucky guy) is haha . FEEL DA LOVE PEOPLEEEE *smothersss* ! I'm talking bout : Heartfelt speeches, funny games and mc (VERY IMPORTANT for a goodtime feeling !) dancing lots and lots of dancing ! Good food (better quality of quantity), TONS of dessertssss (maybe I'm just craving cupcakes right now :s) , oohh fireworks maybe , feel the magic !!! Dramatic heart wrenching dances with the parents and parental figures (imma cry I know it ). Maybe have it outdoors so people can relax , leggo of their high heels and have a good time instead of looking prim and proper ! Oh and maybe have it at a destination wedding so that only my nearest and dearest comes ! Definitely will pick having a Goodtime rather than having formal celebration that only looks good in pictures !! Only recently understood the importance of that and how looks really doesn't matter for the long run dear god took long enough :p .i definitely don't wanna be stressed at all, on the day I just wanna celebrate my love and feel that all the people who are coming are people that I can feel love and support me ! Not people who just wants a free meal and a good partaayy. But cute pictures won't hurt tho . Man I ramble a lot ! Anyway yea I still hope ill have a budget to have a fancy dress and a fancy venue too tho haha .