May 15, 2017
Lately #mothersday is an emotional time of year for me. Stirs up a lot of reflection of the eighteen years of abuse I went through with a clinically narcissistic mother. I still bear the mental and emotional scars from that time. I was suicidal for much of my teen years and never reached out for help because I had been well-trained to believe it was my fault. This year I've been contemplating more on what this will mean when I have kids of my own. Thinking of the kind of mother I want to be means I will first have to come to terms with what I didn't have for myself. When I can do that, I will be emotionally ready, I think. But that might be awhile yet. #doodlesanddeepthoughts