What a beautiful mess :)

All the things that make us smile :)

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The #eyeliner gods have smiled upon me this day 😜 I now know how to do my makeup without making myself look worse off than when I started, but can't seem to get motivated to do it on the daily.. #wingedliner #berrylips #blueeyes

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I only get dressed up for job interviews these days xD it's somewhere schmancy, so I've brought my old wig out for this one :P

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The grind is real 😅 #pokemongo #questforampharos

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Lately #mothersday is an emotional time of year for me. Stirs up a lot of reflection of the eighteen years of abuse I went through with a clinically narcissistic mother. I still bear the mental and emotional scars from that time. I was suicidal for much of my teen years and never reached out for help because I had been well-trained to believe it was my fault. This year I've been contemplating more on what this will mean when I have kids of my own. Thinking of the kind of mother I want to be means I will first have to come to terms with what I didn't have for myself. When I can do that, I will be emotionally ready, I think. But that might be awhile yet. #doodlesanddeepthoughts

[sakuraraye]

Lately #mothersday is an emotional time of year for me. Stirs up a lot of reflection of the eighteen years of abuse I went through with a clinically narcissistic mother. I still bear the mental and emotional scars from that time. I was suicidal for much of my teen years and never reached out for help because I had been well-trained to believe it was my fault. This year I've been contemplating more on what this will mean when I have kids of my own. Thinking of the kind of mother I want to be means I will first have to come to terms with what I didn't have for myself. When I can do that, I will be emotionally ready, I think. But that might be awhile yet. #doodlesanddeepthoughts

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#pillowfort #catsofinstagram #heterochromia

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My hair is getting long! Dying for a new colour (midnight blue?) but not sure whether to keep it at my shoulders or cut it back to earlobes. #demrootstho #roundsunglasses #bugeyes

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So everyone's out accomplishing their dreams and shit and I can't even hold onto a job that doesn't make me want to excavate my own veins with a dull ice pick. Also my bitterness is inhibiting my ability to feel happy for those who are making it, so I'm also a terrible person to boot. #epicfailing

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This the season for #cherryblossom spam posts. #sakuraspam 🌸

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These l'il guys are starting to show their faces. My favourites 🌸 #cherryblossom #sakura #spring

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Cool breeze and light #rain : beautiful day for reading in the park 💙 #starpants and #petrichor

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Candy Aisle don't play. #aintgottimeforyourshit

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"Dis my hooman" #kitty ❤

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#depression got me playing on expert mode 😕 Luckily, I am an expert. #comeatmebro #sketch #doodle #art #lettering #fakecalligraphy #hellomynameischikachikaslimshady #imaloserbabysowhydontyoukillme

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Been seeing a lot of #robins in my neighbourhood lately. #bird #sketch #markers

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#pikachu #timestwo #ichooseyou

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"Everything's Fine..." I used to be better at pretending. ~40-min #sketch #art #drawing #pencil #graphite #mentalhealth