#dos.task

[irishmvnspeaks]

I was too tired to be extra this time but unsent text part 2:

Do you know that you drive me insane? Like just thinking about you. I could spend an entire day thinking about your smile but for some reason I can’t tell you any of this. I really like talking to you and the “private shows” we have. I think I really like you but I don’t think I can tell you though. I hope one day you will hear these words from me but for now, I’m happy just being what we are/whatever we are.

[holdingbackrightnow]

Hearing from you just hit me with a wave of emotions. Six years, six years have past and honestly I never really moved on. Not in the way I thought I did anyways. I think I was lying to myself because I was so angry and hurt. I didn’t understand why you went off and did what you did..I still don’t understand really. But...getting that message from you and making plans to meet up it almost seems like all the time never really past. For a moment it’s like how they used to be. Does that even make sense? But I know things are completely different now for the both of us..I hope things have been going well for you and your kids , I sometimes feel bad for not being there as much...even though I know we both had to work on ourselves. I don’t even know why I’m rambling because I know you’re not going to see this text because I’ll never send it. But I’ve missed you..I’ve missed you so fucking much.

[thoughtsofadolly]

awful things

texts I'll never send:shilo

coffee. coffee. hanging out. seeing you. july 2nd. first time since before we graduated highschool. when i broke your heart. we were supposed to take it all on together. i take responsibility and accountability because i ran off pregnant with a guy who reminded me of a anxious disney prince. shitty. literally shitty mistakes made by a child. so it's time to make amends i think? i just want to apologize and make things as right as i can now. like. a part of me? I still see the girl I swore fell from heaven. layed with me and smoked to say anything songs. came out to shows I was doing merch for. but that's past. different people now. but maybe neither of us have hearts and that's why we are doing this. to debrief.

[irishmvnspeaks]

triggering post below ily be safe <3

I almost sent it. It was sending and it was going slowly. It gave me time to think about the repercussions of sending it and I got scared so I turned my phone plan off temporarily to stop it. Looking back I wish I sent it. I would send it now if I wanted him to have my number but I don’t.

[littleitalianbaby]

aleks and belle met not too long after her and timothee broke up. they both shared a love for video games and it was an easy match. belle honestly saw a future with aleks so when she suggested marriage, he was down. only to realize that marriage wasn’t for him at the moment and they broke it off. it broke belle’s heart and she thought she wasn’t getting over him. it wasn’t until she found out about his secret ... and aleks better pray that this italian mobster’s daughter doesn’t come after him. 

[littleitalianbaby]

timothee was belle’s first love. they got together back when they first starting out their careers. belle fell in love with his smile, his humor, and the way he treated her. she didn’t realize that she would be in love with idea of a relationship than him ... and that wasn’t fair to him. now, she’s not sure if these feelings are all coming back to her...or it’s all in her mind. 

[littleitalianbaby]

belle’s playlist is a mixture of relationship issues & daddy issues with a hint of success from her clothing line. aka she a mess.

[irishmvnspeaks]

Task 4

I’m not really looking for love but I wouldn’t shun it if it happened you know? I’m just kinda hanging out and seeing where it takes me. If I find someone along the way, that’s great but if not, I’m fine too. Some days I wish I had someone to go home to like Ashley does. But I’m okay with how life is now.