Sometimes...
I swear I could just throat punch my father. I love him, I really do but I swear he does shit just to get under my skin sometimes. I won't go into it again though. I am going to try and focus on the good in my life right now, like friends who don't mind my venting and are willing to talk me through shit when I need it. I'm not sure she understands just how much I appreciate it, but if you read this thank you again. I just hope I can repay the kindness at some point. In other news I will probably be writing two entries for Sunday (this being one, and the next coming earlier in the evening). That way I can get caught back up on my days, and so my entries correspond with the day they actually cover (this one covers the happenings from Saturday). Lets see, what else can be said. My back and shoulders are oddly sore today. Im not sure what the cause of that is. I'll have to think on it a bit more. Hopefully they loosen up for tomorrow. I don't enjoy being in pain. But if all I have to deal with in a day is some sore muscles, I'll take it. It's better than I could ask for most other days. I was watching SuperCarlinBrothers again on youtube, as I am like to do, and I watched J's episode on Embracing Your Inner Child -the second time in a week- and after thinking about it some more I think Im going to try and pick up a few other things besides trying to journal. Maybe I'll look into buying some art supplies and doodling and/or coloring. That or maybe a new book. I dont know, but I know that they seem to be happy and I want that. Im going to try and make a consious effort to focus on the positive instead of the negative. Im not making any promises though. I know itll be a hard habit to break and reform. But anything to try and make this a better year, right? Isnt what all this is about? Welp, I think I've talked to myself enough for now. I should wrap this up and either listen to some Disney Channel music on my Pandora, or maybe some Drawfee.
Journal Entry #3 02:43, Sunday January 7 2018
Will