#downanddepressed

[certified-dyke]

I wanna be closer to her...... But everything is telling me to drop it..... To just keep going on my own..... How many times will I get broken to realise, maybe this love thing isn't for me?...... I'm locking up my heart again..... So I don't fall for another "soon to be stranger"! Maybe I don't deserve Love....... Maybe i'll never have a real community who'd love me for me..... All my quirky & shitty sides...... Maybe i'm destined to be alone... Not just in the love department..... But friendshipwise too..... It's okay I'll build up an even stronger Dome to protect myself...... I can't afford to get attached to anyone again..... The patterns are always the same...... I'm better off alone...... Smh.

[trendyashell-blog-blog]

Sleep is so far, but so much easier.

You hit a certain point where you realize you can't win, and you just want to give up. I'd like to say this is the moment when the men are separated from the mice, but I'd just like to cry instead of keeping on. I'm a mouse, but I'll let others believe there's more of a man sitting here. 

I'm not going to cry; that'd be a waste of time. Although, what's ten more minutes wasted at this point?

It's hard to find motivation when you know you've already screwed yourself over and there is actually no possible way you can fix it. 

You probably feel the need to rub my back right now, tell me it'll work out and everything will be alright; to comfort me. But please, just don't. I've made my bed, and I know I must lie in it. It will be uncomfortable, but I know I've made it this way. I feel the necessity to deal with my own stupidity and laziness; to punish myself because of what I've done. 

No one else should have to feel the shame I do, which is why I tell no one. I speak vaguely regarding this whole situation, and people go on believing that I'm better than I actually am. 

Someone has to believe in me. I know that I can't in this moment.