ottoman and british egypt lore... TW: may be explicit hints of SA though not exactly mentioned.
Ottoman Era -> he never remembers much of what exactly happened during the years as an ottoman province. As if his mind was trying to blur for his own sake. ; during the 1830s ; specifically early 1830s. Is when Ashraf slowly started to fulfill the 'fantasies of the french/British and Turkish 'gaze'. Particularly in an orientalist view as each nation had their own perception of him and his culture [which was ignored blatantly]; to the europeans he didn't feel real. Almost as if he was a dream. An ethereal one, to turkey, whom was well neglectful in his province and had a liking for Egypt as his vessel: he did it for his own enjoyment alongside the europeans. , He physically cannot withhold strength from another overpowering force , it varies but usually his body gives up easily he can't exactly do anything when he's stuck in-between a flight or fight response. It overwhelms him physically to the point his mind can't process it and he becomes silent. Ignoring his exploitation for his own wellbeing once again.
British occupation -> It doesn't end from there , from the first moment Britain had seen Ashraf, they felt things towards the ottoman province; more-so in a sexual view without hinting it ; similarly to ottomans perception of him. They are fond of him and "gave him everything he needed" . It isn't a postive connotation in Egypt's mind, he perceived any colonizer as the other got very sensitive during this era much more then his body could ever handle. He slowly started to give in assuming that Britain would leave him alone. That everything would be fine. Conniving as much as they were. Ashraf couldn't help but manipulate himself to like them romantically as if he were liking any one else of his consideration. It would get to a point where he'd start to dream sexual thoughts of them despite not actually being attracted to them because of how much they ruined his perception of having a loving relationship. Doing everything for Ashraf at the same time giving him a lick of freedom then manipulating him. Manipulation for Ashraf only started when he doubted Them. To Ashraf he never really felt comfortable enough to ever be vulnerable with Them unless he gets something out of it. That something is sovereignty. Egypt's dignity to Britain alike one of envy. He couldn't stand how well mannered Ashraf could ever be. He didn't like how resilient his personality was. Once he could form a backbone against Them, that was when they knew that they'd need to be 'harsh' and aggravating to get what they want no matter how much the tears in Ashraf eyes dwelled. He wanted it to happen he wanted to see him cry helplessly almost sexualizing his vulnerability to the point as in giving Ashraf this Feeling of being disgusted in showing emotion and becoming stoic towards Them.
goodnness god❤️❤️❤️🤣🤣🤣🤣 hes so miserable he will die soon.