my boys have slayed yet again. memorabilia is an incredible album.
criminal love and one in a billion always slayed
fatal trouble is one of the best titles and overall songs i've ever heard. it has that raw emotional moving main character moment feeling. it's so gorgeous. probably my fav track (and usually im a bside girlie)
teeth - so cool. i love the instrumentals, heesunwonki's vocals. 10/10
lucifer - the 02z track we've all been waiting for. they slayed. such a vibey song. they served.
scream. honestly such a fun way to wrap it up - most of the album is dark vampire but this track is so fun and upbeat, absolutely love it. would be a great encore song!
overall masterpiece of an album. too good to be just an ost. stream it everyone. support my vampire boys.
so i used to self-h@rm, c*tting specifically. ive been clean for four years, but i've just felt so triggered lately? i usually feel this way around october, as it's like the anniversary of when i stopped (really was forced to stop ig cuz my parents found out), but i just feel very triggered rn like i can't stop thinking abt it
my scars have faded (the ones on my arms at least) and the emptiness just bothers me sm? i drew on my arms with pen, and i feel a bit better now, but it's just so frustrating. my arms just feel like weird and itchy and wrong and drawing made me feel better but i still just don't feel right
obviously it's incredibly important to stop, as c*tting is not good, but i wish we as a society talked more abt how hard it is to stay clean
it truly becomes a coping mechanism, it's easy to feel triggered, idk i just feel so overwhelmed rn
it's so hard not to go back to it sometimes and ig i wish people acknowledged that is a very real struggle sometimes
i also just feel like such a hypocrite in some ways. i wish we talked more openly abt mental health, suicide, self-harm, etc just bc it's important to remove stigma so people can get help. at the same time, hearing people talk abt it is so triggering for me.
there were a few instances this past year - like from months ago - where people i know mentioned those things, like one of my teachers had a friend who'd committed, or someone was talking abt how lots of people sh at her school, and i still find myself thinking abt it sometimes. in the moment it was incredibly triggering, but it's not like it's their fault, cuz they don't know
aagh i just wish this was all easier. i don't want to go around broadcasting to everyone that i used to cut, or that i used to be (and still sometimes am) suicidal, but i also wish people didn't talk abt it as much? but i also want them to talk abt it to acknowledge mental health? idk
here are the gdrive links to listen/watch enha's cb without streaming/buying. there are zionists behind the production of this album. this cb is has the most zionist involvement. plz plz do not stream and do not buy
every passing day i am more convinced that 'still monster' should've been the title track. 'sweet venom' is good but 'still monster' is just another level, has a bridge, heeseung's high note, such a vibey song it would've been perfect
sorry i fell off the face of the planet for the past little while - i wanted to do a soob bday post and enha cb post in time but i had limited internet (family vacay)
anyways im back now
hoping soob had the best day
and also the enha comeback holy shit 10/10 not a single miss album of the year fr fr
