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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?
I wanna say like Sunday? I think that’s when I last worked. Sometimes I’ll sing under my breath at work.
fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?
If my meds are going to keep working for me.
daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
I’m still alive.
1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?
My youngest sister is curled up fast asleep next to me.
matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
I’d probably be a lot warmer to people. I’d spend a lot more time with people that I care about.
black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?
Not really to be honest.
pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.
Well, she’s got pretty curly hair, and the prettiest blue eyes you’ve ever seen. She’s likes to draw and she’s very good at it. She got me more involved in art and drawing. She started the playing the trumpet and has been in love with it ever since. She marches and looks like a boss ass bitch doing it. Music is her passion, but loves learning about how we as humans think and express emotion. She’s lovable and the bestest friend a person could ever ask for. Even though our interests differ a little more now than they did when we first met, she’s been by my side through eleven years of nonsense, heartbreak, and absolute fuckery.
She’s my best friend in the whole wide world and I love her to bits.
moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?
My childhood was decent enough.
stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?
Huh....this had to be sometime last week. I didn’t cry this time talking with my counselor.
plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.
Neil Degrasse Tyson so he could tell me all about the cosmos and the different stars.
converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?
I dunno....like it’d depend on the situation. I’ve had conversations with strangers, but never very deep ones, unless they’ve come forward to talk to me about a really personal situation.
lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?
Either you or Beth, I can’t remember.
handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?
I’d tell my mom that I love her and to tell her to tell the others I love them too.
cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?
Well I like them, but that might be because I have them myself. :P
sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.
“Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls our lives.” I’ve had my fair share of hurt and setbacks, but now I’m working to make myself better and working to move past it. I’m acknowledging that things have happened to me that can never be undone, but that doesn’t mean other people’s selfishness or my own mistakes have to control who I am right now.
oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?
Whelp, Look at This Absolute Fuckery.
overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?
Pay my student loans...all my student loans because I’m still only in my undergrad and I’ll at least need a Masters or PhD.
combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?
No, I’m not always forgiving. I’ve tried to be better about it, but there are still situations in which I find it hard to forgive.
winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.
Whelp kiddo, lemme teach you some things. Anyone who says they’d kill themselves without you is not your friend. YOU are NOT responsible for the happiness of the whole damn world. You need to take care of yourself and stop worrying so much about other people.You’ll have to break some hearts, but baby, it’s gonna be for the best. You’re gonna have people who don’t like you, but FUCK them. You’re not doing anything wrong, people can be cruel when you tell them things they don’t like.
pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?
Ugh...I’d like to say punk, but probably more like pastel. I do like soft colors and that kind of aesthetic.
tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.
I like them. I’m actually thinking about getting a tattoo soon, but I’m still deciding on an artist. I won’t ever get my ears pierced again though. I learned the hard way I can only wear surgical steel earrings....*shudders* never again.
piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?
Meh, I wouldn’t say a lot of makeup. I usually only wear it to events, on holidays, and occasionally for work, but I definitely wear it more than I used to.
bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.
Metallica was my childhood, so I guess I’ll go with them. My dad’s loved them since they started making music and we’d always listen to it together. We don’t do it so much now that we’re both adults with responsibilities, but sometimes we still have time to listen to it together.
messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.
JUST BE FUCKING NICE TO EACH OTHER,POWERFUL BEINGS ABOVE.
cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.
Carnival of Madness....I wanna say it was 2012- This was the first concert I went to. It was my sixteenth birthday present. My dad took me and I’d never felt so amazed and excited. One of the newer bands actually signed some CDs and sold them, so I go to meet one of the members of a band called New Medicine. I also got to watch Amy Lee perform, and she was my singing idol as a child.It was pretty amazing, even if I was anxious because of the large crowd and tight groups of people.
Carnival of Madness 2016 was about one of the only GOOD things to happen that year. That was my sister’s first concert. It was AMAZING. All the bands were wonderful. Hats off to Whiskey Meyer because I’ve never seen anyone rock out to a cowbell, but man, they did. Halestorm was amazing as always....AND SHINEDOWN WAS FUCKING FANTASTIC. They were amazing and omg I fell in love with the music all over again is was great.
grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?
.....you know I don’t really know.
space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?
I have a desk, and I finally cleaned it.
white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?
Lol, don’t really have one.
old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?
The reason I didn’t want to drive is because at that time I was so suicidal all I could do is imagine driving the car into a wall or something else that would end me quick.
beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?
I wanna dye my hair purple again, I’ve just been too lazy to do it.
eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?
I dunno...I’d definitely take my best friend, but lately I’ve had some....issues with friends....so I’m not sure who’s my friend right now and who is.
11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.
Nah, this one’s gonna get dark.
painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.
I was Wednesday Addams for Halloween last year. I spray painted my hair black and wore it in braids. Everyone at the costume party knew immediately who I was just by looking at me. :)
lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?
I’ve never been drunk or high so nothing I suppose.
thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?
Murder
storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?
As painful as this is- one song. Because you can mute a song....but you can’t replace people.
love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.
Oooooooh boy.....yeah I’ve thought I was, but I don’t think I really was. Or maybe I was with one person.
I just realized I felt completely comfortable with this person. When this person was upset, I wanted nothing more than to fix whatever was going on. I was just happy being friends with that person....and I wanted them to be very happy, even if it wasn’t with me. It was fucking agony and pain and it made my heart hurt....but hey...isn’t love supposed to make you feel something?
clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?
One word- cowlicks
So no short hair for this girl.
coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?
Eh, it varies. I usually get some sort of frappachino. My mom knows me pretty well, so she’ll occasionally get me some when she gets hers.
marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?
