#drunk pill

[dormatheus]

I feel like even thought Narinder would hate to "lower himself so much" he'd eventually get to a begging point in that silly au with the Lamb being a ghost to just let him revive them, but even though the lamb cares about their cult, and even though they do want to make as much as they can to make narinder happy.... They also have a debt to themselves and their species, so ofc it it comes with the punishment that it has to be this way, so they know it hurts narinder but they also know that pain they feel about all of this situation is their own punishment for being weak enough to kneel to a god AND let it kill you.

[dormatheus]

I actually find the idea of somehow worshipping death very appealing tbh, bc it IS the end after all, and bamsara's fic made me realize how poetic it is to have faith or loyalty towards being able to just know you're gonna be back with the people you love, maybe not the same way, maybe it'll be different, but it'll be a reunion nonetheless.

And I guess is my mexican self being like oh yes death seen from a positive perspective is nice, but holy shit I see the interpretations of many people in the fandom, in which they have plenty of characters that aren't necesarily believers but like the cult and like the way they're kept safe and taken care of that, even though there's no faith in there ( a weird kind of atheism if you ask me) they trust the Lamb, their leader, to take care of them ... and if death is as good, peaceful and caring as they claim it is , then even if they won't fully believe it , they'd be happily surprised if it turned out to be true

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