A/N: I AM SO SORRY FOR THIS! This is my first angsty work so I hope you guys enjoyed!
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Hearing the front door slam shut woke your tired form from the deep slumber your body needed. You had fallen asleep on the living room sofa watching tv waiting for your boyfriend to come home from work. Rubbing your sleep filled eyes, you could make out your boyfriend’s stumbling figure. “Jungkook,” his movements halted at the sound of your tired voice,” it’s so late. Where have you been?” Spinning his heel and facing me now, his hair was a tousled mess, his black button down had a few buttons unbuttoned and was wrinkled, his left boot was untied while his right foot has nothing but his sock on.
Sitting up completely, now fully awake and confused at Jungkook’s messy form. He was almost always clean and fresh with not a single hair out of place, so seeing him like this made you worry. “Y/N, baby,” the word ‘baby’ being air quoted by his lengthy fingers, “are you surprised to see me? Were you waiting for someone else?” Staying at him in confusion, I walked towards the kitchen and stood close enough to smell the alcohol emanating from him. “You’ve been drinking? Come on, let’s go get you in the shower and to bed.” Reaching my hand out to interlace our fingers, he jerked away.
“Don’t touch me.” His words were cold and laced with anger. He had never spoken to me like this ever and it scared me a little. “Jungkook what’s wrong, let’s go take a-“ “Shut up!” Raising his voice to cut off my sentence, “shut up Y/N! How could you!? How could you do that me!?” He was sobbing out his words, tears now falling from his face. “Jungkook I don’t know what you-“ “You’re a fucking liar! Don’t fucking lie to me Y/N!” Staring in disbelief at his crying enraged form, I moved closer to him seeing if he would let me touch him, but his footsteps moved back as I stepped forward. “Jungkook…” my voice was just above a whisper, “what are you talking about?”
He looked me in my eyes for the first time since walking through the door, his eyes were bloodshot red from his crying, “How could you? How could you sleep with another man? And with Hyung, too? I thought you loved me.” His last sentence breaking due to the tears starting again. My heart shattered. “Jungkook... I’m...so sorry.” I couldn’t deny his claim anymore. He knew of my infidelity and unfaithfulness to him and I couldn’t have him suffer because of me anymore. I bit my lip bottom lip trying to stop and noises from slipping from my mouth. “Jungkook, please listen to me.” An animalistic cry tore from his throat, his fist found purchase on the drywall on the tan wall leaving a gaping hole.
“Why should I listen to you? What could you possibly say to me that could make this better?” He stormed past me, making sure to bump into my shoulder hard. Looking at the hole left by his fist on the kitchen wall, I let out the tears I was holding in. Following him to the bedroom, I grabbed his arm trying my best to turn him around and face me but kept turning in the opposite direction. “Jungkook, please.” He stopped moving as I tried to tug him but still didn’t look at me,”I know nothing I say will make this better but I want you to know the truth.” His body tensed at your words and you could visibly see his chest rise and fall from his heated state. “Sure Y/N, go ahead and throw salt in my wounds.”
“Jungkook please let me tell you everything.” My words were soft and pitiful, but you had fallen in love with the young man standing in front of you and you still were in love with him. He deserved that much. “Please.” He let out a sigh and dragged me with him to sit on the edge of the bed. Sitting with my hands folded on my lap, eyes scanning at my unpolished nails. The air was so heavy and all you wanted to do was run and hide. “Explain. Wh-what did I do wrong?” The sound of his voice cracking had my head lifting up to meet his tear-filled eyes once more.
Sighing, you began to tell him the truth. “It only happened twice, I swear. We were still in the first month or so of dating and I honestly didn’t think I would be so head over heels for you,” you could see his body tensing with the confession coming straight from your mouth, “I thought you would break up with me before you ever found out too. Hos-Hoseok and I did sleep together, but I didn’t know you both were friends then so I didn’t see any harm. Then after going out meeting your friends for the first time and seeing him there, I panicked. I didn’t know if he told you about his adventures or if he didn’t.” Jerking his body up from the bed startling your thoughts, he started pacing back and forth. When he realized you weren’t talking anymore, his eyes scanned over to you. You could only imagine what he was thinking. He must think you’re the most despicable person to walk this planet. “Continue.”
“Jungkook I don’t think I-“ “Just fucking tell me Y/N! I thought you wanted to tell me everything!” His voice was tainted with hatred and pain, the tears flowing from both of our eyes could fill an empty river bed. “So after you met Hoseok hyung again, what did you do?” His questions were coaxing for more, more pain that I didn’t want to hurt him. “Please, Jungkook lets just stop now.” Standing up from the bed, you started making quick strides to the bedroom door but that was soon covered with Jungkook’s muscular body. “We are not leaving this room till you have told me everything.” Grabbing my arm a little roughly, he dragged me back to bed and forced me back down. “I’m sorry Y/N but we need to figure this out.”
Grabbing my upper arm and smoothing the slight pain that I felt, I nodded my head,”Okay...but please...if you decide to stay with me, please don’t abandon Hoseok. He was your friend before I was your girlfriend.” His body was just as tense as it was before, he must hate hearing his best friends name leave my lips. The lips he loved to kiss, the lips that could never say anything wrong, the lips that always draw him in. Nodding, he placed his hand on the hand clutching your arm. “I’m sorry.” Taking your other hand, you whipped his tears from his face, making sure to leave every spot on his face dry. “Okay, so Hoseok and I after meeting again with everyone, we had texted each other. It was a back and forth of us debating if we should end our current relationships. I was so close to ending it with you before our 2 month anniversary, but you had confessed to me and it made me realize how much I really loved you.”
“ I had told Hoseok that we should meet up and end things face to face. He agreed but I didn’t know he had been drinking when I had texted him.” Taking a shaky breath, my body trembling with nerves, I didn’t want this relationship to end. Jungkook gave my arm tender squeeze and rubbed my skin in a soothing manner before withdrawing. He always knew how to pay attention to details,” it’s okay Y/N, go ahead.” Though I know he wished that I wouldn’t, I did anyway. “So when I went over to his house, it started off fine. No complications whatsoever until I tried to leave. He wouldn’t let me leave until we...until we had sex one last time.”
Clenching the fabric of my sweatpants, I had tried my hardest to hold the tears that were threatening to spill over. “Y/N, did he-did he” you were quick to cut off his assumption, “No, he didn’t. I...I initiated it, fuck, I just wanted more time with him too but I didn’t want to seem desperate. I’m so fucking sorry Jungkook.” You watched as his dried blood covered knuckles were turning white. “Is that it?” His voice had you taken aback, it was deeper than normal and the anger that was laced with those three words had the chill running up your spine. Nodding your head, too afraid to speak up, he stood up from the bed and paced back and forth in front of me once more. “Have you guys done anything since?” Shaking your head, your mouth ready to answer when he spoke again, “please don’t lie to me Y/N.”
“I swear, that was the last physical contact we had.” My voice was a trembling mess, this had to be one of the worst days of your life. You wished you could rewind time and never do those things to the man standing in front of you. “Hyung showed me the messages.” Raising an eyebrow, you had tried to remember the last time you even texted Hoseok. You were pretty sure that is was a week or so after that unfaithful night, you had messaged each other. “I was so angry at hyung for keeping those messages. It has everything you had ever told him, about him, you, our fucking relationship. You told him all about us.” His voice was becoming louder, the rage took full control of his voice. “How could you fucking tell him that you weren’t in love with me and sleep with him? I love, no, loved you Y/N. I told you I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. But I just don’t know if I can do that now.”
Watching him start to leave the room, you were quick on your feet. “No, Jungkook...” your voice frail and frantic at what was about to happen, “please don’t leave.” His long rushed strides had him to the front of your front door. Snatching the fabric that wrapped around his toned arm, you tried pulling him to face you. “Jungkook please don’t leave. Don’t leave me, we can work this out. You’re not completely sober and you aren’t thin-“ “I’m completely sober Y/N! I’ve made such a huge fucking mistake of wasting the last 2 years with you.” That was it, your heart had shattered to fine dust, your tears were no longer being held back. You clutched tighter to his arm, “Jungkook please don’t say that. Y-You, don’t mean that.” Grabbing your hand from his arm, he yanked your hand down for forcefully before opening the front door. “Goodbye Y/N.” He was out the door and you had fallen to the floor with tears falling from your face.
