Also, I think this story should go on this blog! I mentioned it vaguely to some friends, but it may be an interesting read to someone else!
Recently I took to rewatching old Jack streams, especially ones I missed while the dsmp was still going, but also just as a general refresher because I felt like my memories were getting too distant and blurry. It did help! Can recommend, please go rewatch your favourite streams for the Feels (TM).
Particularly though, the stream that had me most emotional turned out to be Jschlatt's funeral stream. Won't even touch the way it affected my Quackity veritbond (not that much really, they weren't the focus) but considering one of my friends is a huge fan of Jack's and Jschlatt's dynamic, I already was more attached to their so few and in-between interactions.
Watching the stream had me shaking and, especially after discussing in depth the parallels and unfairness of how Schlatt got a grave and I didn't, I ended up spiralling a bit (not in an upsetting way, more of a strong catharsis. Don't worry for me!)
I ended up with a very strong feeling of wanting to go dig myself a grave and just lie in it, on the cold dirt. Physically. It was the realest feeling I've probably ever had, it felt similar like when it's raining outside and you want to step out and go stand under the rain. It was STRONG. I felt like doing so would help the emotions pass through and ground me, like if I lied down on the floor.
I confessed these feelings in a kincord I'm in and Tommy offered to do a Minecraft funeral for me with a speech, especially considering he had a dsmp world recreation. We did so, and he even sent me a screenshot he took of the grave. Gamertag blurred out because it needs changing anyway.
Thank you, Toms. You needed a funeral as well. I appreciate you so much even if you won't see this.
