I’m tired of dieting. I’m tired of always waiting to be something else, tired of feeling temporary. I had once fought my way to love myself and how I looked. And then in a truly well meant effort to be healthier, I lost myself to the “diet culture” all over again. Suddenly it came back to the scale again. I reduced my worth to a number on the scale and and a dress size. And with that all the effort I had once put into loving myself as is, just drifted away. I spent months working out most days, counting every last calorie, refusing every treat or non counted calorie that was offered. I weighed myself daily lamenting at only a pound lost or even gaining some back. My only happiness in losing more weight. I lost and regained the same ten pounds over and over. I am 34 years old and I have spent no less than half of my life longing to be thinner. I have suffered through eating disorder and anxiety of every calorie eaten. I would just like to be over it. I’d like to get back to the place where I love my body and don’t need it to be anything new. I’d like to empower others to do the same. So this is me, saying I am going to love myself and my body. I’m going to be kind to myself and I am going to keep doing good things for my body. Because it’s way easier to love your body into being healthy then to hate it into being healthy. #wellness #bodypositive #fatbabe #dummythick #dummythic #dummythicc #selflove #selfcare #intuitiveeating #selfie #selfesteem #loveyourself (at Daphne, Alabama) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxqf7lWj10X/?igshid=xw9hug8ok8t5