I Shall Survive This Too
For 14 years I've fought an invisible battle a war with and within my own mind.
It's difficult to understand. From the outside, I wear a grin But the turmoil that wracks me Is constant, ceaseless It IS my mind. Battleground. Cage. Torture chamber. Prison.
There is no reprieve. No time out. No room for carelessness. The minute you stop pushing back, The whispers begin The lies creep in Truth so distorted becomes your absolute. And in moments you can lose the battle. Forever.
This is my existence. This is my reality. As an adult, I've known nothing else. And I never will. This is my illness, my curse. My forever and ever.
I shall survive this.
For every step forward, I take another ten back. I shall survive this too.
Sometimes I fall. Ungracefully. Painfully. I shall survive this too.
Life's twists and turns often throw me far off course. I shall survive this too.
Sometimes I pick myself back up. Sometimes others do it for me. I shall survive this too.
Despite all odds, Though there is no cure, I've been through hell and more is yet to come. The battle scars shall never leave me. Nor the strength from within. I'm still here, fighting.
I shall survive all of this, too.