Immature try to be mature.
In this middle of the years. I was just 22 years girls who falling for 34 years man. I am sure I can be what ever he want. 12 years appart is nothing. I try to be everything, so I can more mature to equal with him.
But thinking more, its seem like I showing how immature I am.. doing impossible thing just because loving..
He fugitive me from his life..
Its broke me
but, Its make me re-think my life prespective.
I am silly and want do mistake as much as I can. Why I should to be mature?
Why I should change who I am? I just need hold my heart little more, I cant be weak for a shitty called loved. Love shouldn't change me, itu should to develop me.
Sometimes immature act make me mature more to enjoy my live. And thinking back then, falling in love with 12 years older man then me is nice experience. So now I know what the feels 😋😛</p>